fairy+God+mama+grant+my+wish*

wake me up when setpember ends. . .

2005-08-01T11:49:00.001+08:00

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again

Becoming who we are As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when septmber ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again

Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when septmber ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

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yeah, its been a long long time. . .
ive kinda disappeared and re-appearing now.

life's. . . pretty good and routine.
somewhere and somehow i still find my life alil empty and perhaps sumthing is missing.
i cant really figure out what is that.

soon i'll be hit with the cruel fact tt im 21.
-sulks-
tts kinda sad.
a part of me is so looking forward
yet a part of me is dreading.

went to school of rock ytd,
tealfult has lotsa supporters.
sadly they didnt make it.

but still thou, it was a good experience and they have come pretty far.

so yeah, cheerios to them!

my new-found fav. passion - salsa!!
tadahh!!!
im gonna be guaduated real soon.
am so excited.
should head dwn to union sq!
i wan more SALSA!!!!
SALSA ! SALSA!!! SALSA!!!!!

im in the urge of signing up with carlifornia fittness.
or just get a pte instructor to help me lose pounds.
sebastian and every1 is saying im putting on wt, be precise im FAT la!.

alrightess.
work is fine yeah,
prepared to handle more tasks.

i guess i need some excitment in my life!

which is driving!! haa!.

pls pray for me tt i will pass my basic so tt i can get on with the prac.

i so cant wait to drive....

weee.`

happy 32 monthsary

2005-05-09T13:12:00.000+08:00

i will not b updating for the time being.

just. . . leave me alone.

i just wanna be me.

2005-05-03T16:55:00.000+08:00

I don’t need to be anything other than a prison guard’s son
I don’t need to be anything other than a specialist’s son
I don’t have to be anyone other than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I’m going is knowing where I’m coming from
(Chorus)
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me
I’m surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can’t be the only one who’s learned
(Chorus)
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone’s attention please
If you're not like this and that
You’re gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay to stone
And now I’m telling everybody
(Chorus)
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be

2005-04-21T11:05:00.000+08:00

Yes. ym ure right.
im so sinful. . .

however thanks to the great bitching session we had.

its was a fulfiiling one. =))

more bitching?

movie marathon

2005-04-18T11:06:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!!!! =))

its monday again. . .
im feeling achy all over my body.

im nt late today.
Agnes is a lil earlier than me.
Im so bored. =((

Sat : cabbed dwn to popo's hse w/ kor, planned to watch unker philip and jie cindy's wedding video. Got there abt 1 45, took our lunch there. Sue's mom cooked NASI LEMAK!! wahhh . . . damn yummy. but the rice is definately room for improvement. overall was thumbs up!!. Sue's mom is sucha a good mummy. She is scared tt sue doesnt have enuff t eat, she re-cook the rice again. If only my mom is tt caring.

then again. . .she is still my mom afterall.

alrightyy.

after lunch, i slacked for awhile and found out i left my precious phone at home!!!.
im supposed t meet him after 2. i used kor's phone to call him and decided to leave earlier. As sue is still not here yet so i left to interchange to meet him.

Was told he was already at Tampines at 2. haas.
oopiseh.
off we crossed over the traffic light,
got free coke LITE!!! gees.
i took one then we went to century,
bot tix and saw GUESS WHO?
hees. funny show.
i'll give 3.5 popcorns out of 5.

we walked passed the bridal shop just besides the cinema and we both got so attracted to the nicey album.
we checked out the price and its really costly.
wells, perhaps we shld just go to malaysia to take.
its cheaper over there.
talking abt msia im still ecstatic over the malacca trip in may!!
=))
am able to see unker tony and auntie judy!!
woah. . . its been long since i last saw them.
can may come faster?!??!

After show was still early, couldnt decide what to eat.
in the end we settle our dnr at long john.
the chowder soup is yummy!!
then i bot 2 tshirts over at submarine.
having sales.
got 2 pretty colors which i never had.
which is YELLOW and RED!
gees. the yellow is a lil tight thou.
gotta work the tummy out.
swimming!! running!! GYM!!!.
must hit the gym mth end after my exams!
MINUS POUNDS!! MINUS POUNDS!!! MINUS POUNDS!!!

we left for bdk gotta retrieve my phone.
then headed to NTUC for ice cream!!
=))
-1 tub of BEN & JERRY CHUNKY MONKEY! -yummylicious
-1 box of MOCHI yam flavour. -nice!
- 1 box of mini cornetto! -droolss-

all cost 20 90!
used the voucher kor kor gave.
went over t LASERFIAR and we rented
- i DO i DO
-The Sums of ALl Fears
- TAXI.

Its truely a movie marathon day as noon we saw
GUESS WHO.
Cabbed home and saw I DO I DO. (damn hilarious show i tell ya!)
then we saw TAXI.
cool!. =)

slept at 2+. . .

Sunday
woke up at 12 + and continue the knight game.
then we make our lunch at abt 1+??
oh and i met the new maid. eleanor.
i hope that she can last.

had maggi and bread then, his mom came back with the bao.
aiya, bad timing.
then we continue to play the knight game.
and is always so close to winning the final stage. BAHH.
sad case.

anyhoos. . . its another week.
my exams is so close. . .

7 more days to my 1st paper- economics.

wish me luck. . .

oh, im still waiting for the mitsui's call.
gees.
keep my fingers crossed.
outt`

+.+.SYF2005.+.+

2005-04-14T11:48:00.000+08:00

1st of all,
i would like to congrats BTMB for obtaining a BRONZE award for SYF2005.

Congrats to BROADRICK for obtaining a SILVER award.

come to think of it,
if only mr chiong is still around,
im pretty sure btmb would have gotten greater achivement.
its too late now to say anything isn't it?

Perhaps Kremple now is having thot of changing sissy sim already. =))
anyhoos, kenn has informed jason t contrain kremple.
i hope she will conside jason t take over the band.
then ask kenn t tutor sax section so tt he can earn money and we can go for duperly lomantic candlelit moobee cum yummylicious dinner.
LOL
jesting~
but i really hope jason will get the chance.
im so disappointed to see a huge revamp of btmb and yet still a B band.
kinda sad huh.
over view of the results are kinda happening.
lots and lots and lots of skus are improving.
Orchard park from COP are abt t get GOLD?
BNSS first participation is a GOLD band NOW?
so on and forth.
and btmb is still B B B after years.

I guess i cant comment much but just felt a great sense of disappointment within me.
i have not been gng back for donkey yrs.
But im pretty sure they have done their best.

time flies yeah,
its the time of syf2005 again.
woah. . .

anyhoos,
pls view the results.
http://www.syf2005band.blogspot.com
Congrats to all improved band!!!!

he is so blardy happy tt amkss gotten gold.
he is so so proud larrs.
im happy for him too. =)
it just proven tt he has the capability to teach!!

Congrats to stpats for getting gold with honour!.
as usual they are tt good.
St andrews played pretty well too from what he said.
*applauses*

alrightss. . .
i hasnt been able t blog lately cuz daniel is always in.
eversince agnes told him tt she wont b following them t penjuru,
he has been acting rather strangely. -looks lefts and right-

ytd,a lady popped by our office and he immediately bring her over t tong soon.
the 1st thot of this lady is t replace agnes.
and boy, aint i good.
im so right!
while agnes was on her way t lunch, she saw her inside mr soon;s office with daniel sitting opposite of her filling up a form.
tell me im smart boy!.
haa.

its ok.
it doesnt really affected me tt much.
just hope tt she is a nice lady like agnes.
and im praying tt during agnes holiday trip in may she is able to stand by her.
cuz i dont want t stand in for agnes for FREE anymore.

i wan a new job.! =)

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竹林的灯火岛国的沙漠七色的国度不断飘逸风中有一种神秘灰色的漩涡将我卷入了迷雾中看不清的双手一朵花传来谁经过的温柔穿越千年的伤痛只为求一个结果你留下的轮廓指引我黑夜中不寂寞穿越千年的哀愁是你在尽头等我最美丽的感动会值得用一生守候

31st monthsary =) <3

2005-04-11T10:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
31st MONTHSARY
MY PRECIOUSS CHOU CHOU
PIGGY PORKCHOP!!!!!!!!

Happy bday t MAMA!!

friday work was shit la.
S.H.I.T
just really bad day.
since its over, i shall not go on.

weekend was marvelous boy. =)

he went t his frd's 21st bday chalet on friday.
nthing much just felt boredddd.
met him on sat.
lingli dropped by in the morning.
precise, late morning.
talked and laughed.
then she left.

i watched tv till 3 then tt porkchop finally called.
he is coming over t pick me up at 3 30. and usual he is LATE!
nvm, cuz i made him come all the way up. hees.
so i can wait inregardless how long...

Upon opening the door, he was so indulge with my THE DOG bedroom slipper.
he keeps wanting it. His house so clean he wear tt for what. my living is like rubbish bin therefore i need t wear in the hse so tt my bedroom will b much cleaner what.

we went Mc for a really late lunch.
Had fillet-O-fish =) and the yougert.
he had dbl-fillet-fish-O meal.
he won 80bucks from mahjong on friday.
so its a really nice day for us.
After lunch we took bus 25 t AMK.
he is meeting his student to pass them the reeds.
he sold them 30bucks and he made money again.
Its been my 1st time gng t AMK.
Yes, despite being a true blue singaporean but i really hate t travel.
so im finally at AMK.
serene is staying at AMK. heehees.
AMk was livlier and crowded more than i thot of.
We were stuck in popular for really long time as i think they have not finished their band prac.
i saw this really nice square jewellary box.
but he says i dont have to use it. +poutts+
so in the end didnt buy.
BUTT, i saw this nice hugging soft yellow chicken cushion.
i bring it to him and give him a really sweet smile "________"
haha, he asked how much and he said he will buy it for me!!!
HURRRRREYYYY!
-happie-
so happy i got my chick chick;
and i named it chick chick.
cool yeah?! =) v cute one k.
i have 3 childen now.
then we finally left and walk around AMK.
he bot rotiboy then and we into this four season departmental store.
WOah, they are like oriental like tt k.
selling a lot of stuff.
=) they are having some good sales too.
selling fan at 25bucks and i bet those are certainly better than those in giant.
ahemsss.
He bot 2 shirts and they look really nice on him =))
we got t spin the lucky draw and i won a pouch and he won a CD holder.
then, finally his amkss came.
and we left for cineleisure.
wanna watch swing girls!!
too bad, it only left with 3 seats. and its single seats.
so yeah, we gave it a miss and we decided to go for our dinner.
We dine at shi lin xiao chi!
yummy mee sua and xxl chicken =))
thenn we made our way back. . .
what a fruitful satt/

Sunday
got up 10+ bathed and cabbed dwn t TPY xin fu yam cha.
to celebrate bday for mummy.
i swear i almost eat a cow.
we ate till so so full alrightt.
end with my gua ling gao and his mango pudding.
-droolsss-
nice nice!
me and bro treated them.
so im broke now.
then we left and tour around tpy. -lols-
i think i have been t tpy. but after so many yrs, . . . u knw lah
went t the interchange then we go popular again..
saw the pants i like but he said v auntie..
so nvm.. we stayed at popular again, actually wanna see if tpy has got sell the very nicey jewellary box but sadly it didnt.
then we took bus 143 t orchard.

dropped at far east and we went t walk around at level 1.
he bot his earrings at 77th streets and i bot a white belt there. =) Nice!
i saw one top i like at lost & found, but he again said v auntie.
so i left w/o checking the price.
oh wells, after walking for a while i cannot resist the temptation inside of me anymore.
so i pulled him and we go back t the shop and it was so ex!!! 43bucksss.
i so like it can...
haiss. i guess tt has t b next mth pay.
Then we went up to ICE LEMON TEA!!
gees, saw this sling bag kinda nice and its only 10bucks.
since im running outta it so i got it!
then near to ILT there is this shop tt sells clothes.
i saw this long spag top and i fell in love with it. =))
its torquise colour.
and there is pink. after awhile of struggling then finally i bot the torquise one.
mebbe exams can wear. geess.
so off we go to cine to catch swing gals. =))
YEAHHH!! we booked tix online... so sure have seat one. =P
it was a really wonderful show
i'll give it 10/10 popcorns. =))

haha the percussionist is so PEICHERNNN!!! OMG!!!
i fell in love with jazz already lah..
i like the song they played. -IN THE MOOD!
ATTENTION: WE HAVE TT PIECE IN BAND!!!!!
i rmb SIR once tried to play tt piece but i think we disappoint him lah.
haha i guess we both enjoyed tt show very very much. =)
After the show we left home for dinner.
upon reaching Kembangan Mrt station, he saw aidil and madini.
AND AIDIL SAID IM CHUBBY!
so it m eans my dieting plan FAIL!
so i must tried harder!
yes! i make up my mind already!! -HUMPFFFFFFFFFFFFF-

on another note, evelyn has left =)
so waiting for the new maid t come.
please come. kenneth is making the room v dirty messy and smelly.

outt`

Happy birthday t Chain Yu~

2005-04-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

This special one is dedicate to chain yu.
(i hope yoo read this. =>)

HAPPY
20TH
BIRTHDAY
T
MS. ROCHER
CHIN CHAIN YU!

bah. i meant ms. chin chain yu larrs. =)

i mention rocher cuz che is so superly duperly urbanly CUTE lars.
wells, 1st impression counts alot. HAHA!.

Just jesting pal!.

Alrighttyy, i hope u had a fantastic time w/ us on wed.
Sorry i wasnt really myself as im just really tired.
hopefully dont get offended.

I wish yoo gong xi fa cai
nian nian you yu
da ji da li
tian zi tian ting
jia cai wan guan
tian tian kai xin
xin xiang shi cheng
dao sheng guan zi-oops!

=) anyhoos... lovely 20 to u larrs.

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my class went went kinda well thou claudia didnt turn up for the class.
at least it wasnt that bad as i initially thot it was.
instead it turned out t b really fruitful.
to my surprise, tt blardy lect will actually give us tips for exams. -bewildered-
haha.
i also borrowed intl txtbk from auntie cindy. (upgraded liao)
to zap in office tdy and the most wonderful thing is. . .

*drumrolls pls*

by now daniel has already left the office!!!
OMG, im so happy.
my friday pass by so quickly.
its going t 12 soon in another 3s. *beams*

oh, great baby!
next week will b my LAST 2 lesson and im GUADUATED (inoffically)
BAHAHAHA!.
cuz if i failed right i still got sup t take so tts not really guaduated.
nvmss. i will work hard for last paper t score a B!
i think quite hard larrs. >.< oi, where did your confidence go?

forget abt the job thing.
i just feel like having fun!.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ whooopyy.
i feel like tanning and yet other half of me doesnt wants.
SHUDDUP BITCH!

sorry, im quarrelling with myself.
Tts the idea of being alone in the office.
at times when it get so bad then u might find me talking t myself.
OH nw 9 33 got nice song.
fang zu ming- zui dong ting!
i likeeee~
his voice are like so mesmerising and smoothing. . .

oh. . . sly's album is out and can i just say i HATE him!?
its just my personal view, if ure his fan then i'd suggust u better not carry on reading, otherwise consequences i will not b responsible.

morning i heard the interview chong qing and li yi had with him over the LEA-DIO and he gives me the impression that he is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FAKE!. Come on larrs. Jus beause u joined SI and u got t speak english in CHINESE LEA-DIO station meh? Even fiona xie also speaks 90% chinese can. And yet he still wanna act ANG MO!. i so dont like him. I dont find his song nice too. i think he is just capable of singing other pple's song but yet not his own. I dont seem to find the album v SLY as so he claimed. it just bullshit larrs.

ANTI SLY CLUB!

pls join me.=)

i also came across this mind test on 9 33.
It is soo accurate to me.
Ok, i hope i can relate as accurately to u.

Q: if u were to walk in a antique shop and find a weird shop keeper and he offers u something to drink, what drink do you think he will poison?

a) Milk Tea
b) Oolong Tea
c) Fresh Milk
d) Coffee
e) i forget.

which one do u think??

i chosen coffee and it says that you are currently very stable with your love one.

Woooo, how true.

=)

long entry.

ok, sometimes i find it quite true that friendship are kinda hard to b erroded.
for example, i hasnt been seeing clarice for century and yet i knw our friendship is still there and strong. Ya' knw, that kinda you can talk abt anything once u meet up. And yet for some its so . . . difficult. I met up with lingli on wed and we talked hell of alot. Man, tts the kinda feeling. And yet kinda sad for a few frds, im not able t experience tt kinda feeling anymore. its quite tranmatize when u dont even knw whats going on in their life, like you are not apart of them already like what you used t be. When they dont even listen to you when you talk anymore. When their ears are only available for certain people to speaks certain word. i no longer knw what i can do anymore. It hurts alot, damn alot.

i need a break away. . .

outt`

Its April

2005-04-07T12:25:00.000+08:00

WOOHOOO!...

i like this song. . .

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight
I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything
That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
That's right baby
Im going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)
I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything
That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
ooo, crazy,(ooo)
lady (ooo)
lately (ooo)
Baby

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My weekend went finee and alrightttyy. . .
cannot really rmb xcept that i went for his COG on sunday.
catching up with them like some mad women.
it wasnt really a fruitful trip but then. . . nvmm.

After that, went to PS t wait for his call.
Bot diet coke and it took me damn long t open the blardy cap.
in the end, my palm had a few scrates. +cries+
then went up t the face shop.
Serene is using the charcoal one.
i tried and its not bad.
smells kinda nice too.
most prolly i will get sumthing from there next trip.
he called then we left for home.
Had damn fantastic dinner.
his mom cooked grilled salmon.
YUMYUMM!.
also had creamy chicken herb soup and garlic bread.
i like creamy soup.
salad is a must for western food. =)
i learn that.
Just cant wait for more yummy food during the weekend. =)

We saw behind enemy line and i must say its a really good show.
Featuring Owen wilson. i think he is cute. =)
then im off t my slumberland and my pigging went out t use comp then come back and play his PS2. Luckily im sleepy so i dozed off shortly.
He said he is gonna send me t bdk the next day, i just knew he cant make it larrs.
nvmss..

Managed t rush my project in office for both econs and int'l business.
and oh, i think i mentioned b4 i got 2 Cs in my previous module.
=) kinda proud laa.
Of cuz im aiming for a B.

Nothing much t update abt.
my days has been mundance and routine.

Except that ytd most of us met up and celebrated Cy's bday at bugis swensons.
OOh, i wanna buy the strawbag that i saw on the push cart.
so cheap and nice..
wheee.... im going malacca next week. =) with ken's family to visit unker TONY and auntie JUDY!!. i wanna shop shop. i hope i get t shop. =))
anyhoos, its a really short trip. But im sooo looking forward t it.

im looking forward t the weekend too.
Sunday gonna go for dim sum cuz mommy's bday!. oh
gotta get her a present. =)
still thinking of what t buy. . .
gees.

the pope's death has been quite a HOOHA.
glad tt he went church t pray for him with gab on tuesday.
agnes will b on leave again tmrr.. . .

ohh and im loving the new blogskin. . .
i think its so cool.

alrightt. nthing much... . .
outt`

Angels + Demons

2005-03-29T09:39:00.000+08:00

Firstly,

HAPPY
21st
BIRTHDAY
TO
JAMIE QUAK!

I had a fabulous weekend.
you deserve it ting!

Good Friday
Woke up at 9+ and headed down cineleisure t meet up with biao jie.
Had 3 hrs of kbox. Kinda cheap. i only paid 6bucks inclusive of lunch.
Mazlin and her bf shawn joined us.
samuel came and biao jie sue brought along lil' sean ian. =)
we went in slightly later as they just open therefore it was really long queue outside.

Biao jie didnt really sing much as she focus all her attention on lil sean ian.
Good for us, she is the nanny of the day. *beams*
Had a kinda great time as it was really kinda hard for us cousins t gather together.

kor didnt join us.
But he came for SUKI SUSHI!!
yummy.
i think suki are quite all right.
but sakae sushi are better still. oh well.
Had a dang great time lah
cept i realised tt we seriously need male vocal man.
i cant sing all the damn duet!

then he came t meet me at cini.
we went topshop and finally i bot my green polo top.
haha. although i realised tt the green polo is like their uniform for girls who works in topshop but I DONT CARE. =)
i just love it!.

i need t minus pound babe.

so must exercise swim exercise!

then i had my all time fav GELATO ICECREAM!!!
this time i had lemon + tiramisu.
HEAVENLY!
hees. he bot sushi and takopachi for lunch.
PIG!!!
then we went t bugis.
I almost wanna buy the strawbag i saw.
its so nice and cheap!!!!!
kaoss. in the end i didnt lars.
perhaps next mth pay =)
i need more tops and bottoms.
had enuff bags
lately.
buying too much.
he cut his hair at QB house and im amazed at the service. V good!. =)

then we quickly proceed on t st joseph church.
THEN.... we left home.
and had yummy NASI LEMAK cooked by his parents.
i love food that cooked by his parents.
just simply irresistable.
*sucks her thumb*

thenn. . . we went t sleep.

Sat morning.

We woke up at 7am and left for his pa and nanny's grave.
Its my 1st time officially going t grave.
it aint really tt scary
surprisingly, the tomb were pretty nicely done.
esp, his pa and nanny's grave.
we pray for awhile and left.
Saw really small tomb too.
Then was being told that its for babies.
so poor thing.

then we left t clementi or jurong for breakfast!
clementi was the area where they stayed and had kenneth.
so we went to the market for their all-time fav duck noodles.
When they stayed there they patronised them v often.
And even till now, the stallholder still rmb them and their taste.
V amazing. =)
But the duck noodles were really v nice. =)
i like the soup especially. -yummy-

Then we went back.
that pig went to sleep.
ken's mom asked me to help her with her chicken pie.
WOAH!
1st time i helped her out in cooking.
*grinss*
was really fun.
she taught me alot.
i just love his family so much. =)

oh, rosemary is coming back. =)
better!
so which means, evelyn is going. =)
WONDEFUL!.

had a fantastic time design the pie with his sister.
And it turn out kinda nice! =)

then we decided t go for a swim.
But sat weather werent v nice.
it rained.
He had t go t conference room.
so steph and i headed t the pool.
swam for like 10mins then it starts t pour heavily again.

no choice but t return back home.

after bathing i took a nap and woke up t go jamie's hse.

Then left at abt 6 45 t HOLY FAMILY.
had a lil misunderstanding with him.
but we resloved it really fast =)
Easter mass lasted for 3 hrs.
There were baptism going on.
Everyone were dressed in white.
Really pure and holy!
1st time experiencing sumthing diff.
the whole church lits off and we were given candles.
then we went back and had the chicken pie!!! gees
and then to sleep!

easter sunday
woke up and left for aunty rita's hse.
had a great time there as usual.
then took unker gerry's car home.
i think huili changed her phone to 7270!
OMG!.
we watched RAY and its quite a long show. abt 3 hrs?
But its really nice show.
ANd i was being told that he had just died last yr.
And its a true blue real story.
How sad. He was genius.

We left at about 4 and same thing, he got back and went t sleep.
I played PS 2 with steph all the way and then we had dinner.
after that they watched tv and i just read angels and demons.
He actually wanna go back camp so i somehow got ready to go.
Then he said he will go back on monday.
he turned t me and said he stayed cuz he misses me.
aww.
that he stayed cuz of me.
how sweet.
yes, my silly ass pig is such a sweet thing.
Anyhoos, i enjoyed my marvelous weekend with him and my cousins.
it was so far 1 of the best weekend i had ever spent.
Just him and my cousins.

At this point i really think its a bless to have him.
we even talked about the names for our children.
and the results was
we got 2 names for girl and 1 name for boy.
but i want 2 boys.
nvm. =)

At this point of time,
nothing else matters to me.
i just wanna b with him.
i know he will love me and will take good care of me.
i knw he will. =)

im so blessed. . .

2005-03-23T12:55:00.000+08:00

its been almost a week since ive last blog.
My projects are coming t due soon in just another week time.
hais.
Im kinda delighted and glad tt the course is coming t an end.
im alil worried for my future.
As in, now my course are finishing, what kinda job would i b getting.
Hais.
However, somehow im still glad that i have got both paper and working experience.
At least i wont seem so shallow as compared to others.
What a dog eat dog world.

i had already finished The Da Vinci Code
It was really good man.
He assured me that i would love Angels and Demons more.
Ha! im quite sure. =)
Aint it amazes to know that u can actually learn so much stuff from a book.
Im truely amazed.

sometimes i wonder. . .
what friends are for.
we speak too much of i'll always be here, im always here for u
but how much promises do we actually fulfilled?
i took a closer look around at times.
I actually feel kinda sad and glad.
im glad that at least i have friends.
but im sad that it was a facade.
Tt will fade eventually.

i really realised that friendship are just like any other r/s,
It takes time to nuture and bloom too.
It needs t spend time tgt and talk.
i realised that we dont get t do all these anymore.
Each and everyone have diff commitments t meet.
i understand.
when someone failed t understand u, its not their fault.
i guess its just another emtion rollercoasted ride.
This is the sign of aging.
more ranting more whining and always alil bit more of everything.

Wei Lik proposed to Mich on last monday.
i feel so so so happy for her.
Now im starting t wondering what would it b for mine.
Hers was like so lomantic...

i imagine myself at somewhere near east coast.
we had a v romantic candle lit dinner.
Then t the pub for a drink.
we strolled at the beach and he bot me t sumwhere and TADAH!
lit-ed up candles and i see "Marry ME?"
waaahahaa...
ok im dreaming...
and i also see 5 carats of TIFFANY diamond ring. i dont really mind the criss cutting or wadeva cutting. so long its TIFFANY im loving it.

im getting quite bored with my current job.
hais.
no more mood t carry on.
i will just end it with a song.

不敢问却一直想问你心里藏着什么人不敢猜却一直想猜若回去有没有可能我不够完整你给的从来不够完整连一个语气都无法确认这种缺乏是什么象征不开灯我不要开灯我身边容不下别的人不锁门我不要锁门你回来是一种可能我那么的认真去思考你对我的认真是多么伤害你结果始终是疑问我爱疯了我疯到自己痛也不晓得放弃了保护自己的责任放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份我不管了我不管这伤口能不能愈合选择了你也许是错的人选择了包容你的不安分请尊重我的

The Da Vinci Code

2005-03-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

woohoooo. . .

Its wednesday!!
And im having class tonight.
AT BUGIS! *frowns*
Ok lah. at the v least can go SHOPPING!!! =D

hees.. . . .
am now reading The Da Vinci Code
kinda interesting.
however their england is so cheem. i guess i need alil help. =)
Dan brown has nice books.

Ytd's class were kinda fun!
Had grp discussion then may told us sumthing interesting -beamss-
She is a christian and i guess is a die-hard one.
if im not wrong she just attended a church camp w/ my auntie cindy.
she told claudia and me tt when we are listening t songs we must b abit careful.
Certain songs are satan calling when its been played back.
Like they cause hypotises to u and makes yoo cry and weep.
And this is not healthy.
Prolly are New Age songs by ENYA.
Other songs like; Take my breath away/Killing me softly + Hotel california.
We also talked about teletubbies and smurf.
Hopefully we are going t continue the stories tonight.
GEES
ANDANDAND. There is one country the pple there worshipping SEX GOOD!
woah. aint it just a blow.
haha.

Lesson for int'l business is as dull and boring as ever.
However i realised that just a few more lessons and im saying good bye t that blardy lecturer.
=))
Oh! Daniel is going t thailand with his parents on this friday.
Which means NO-WORK day for me. GEESS
im happY! cuz next friday oso no need work.
hiakhiak!.
SHIOKKK!.

Oh, My KTV + sushi spreee are approaching and im esctatic!! wahh.. so happy! hees. =P
im gonna lose wt!!!!
right now fann wong is on 9 33FM and they are talking abt hw she maintain her flawless complexion.
Oh well!. some pple just have all the luck.
What can i say!.

BOO!.

Unker philip bot samsung 630 for my aunty cindy.
i hate tt phone t max!
grace changed her phone t 7260. COOL!
but i think the button is alil diff. t press.
dont like..

BEAMSSS. . .

i still wanna shopp!

Tt pig finally buying me tt sexy army pants with dang low cut on both sides for me.!
but i still want my running shoes so i can hit the gym!!!

Ok lahhs. Im ranting.

DH were nice.
im so addicted.
Now im so keen t knw wad will b gng on next
Sex and the city can hardly b compared.

i feel like changing my phone again..

. . .

happy 20th bday t my sweetie dearest darlinkk PORKCHOP!!!

2005-03-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
20th BDAY
t MY DEAREST
DARLINKK
SWEETHEARTT
PORKCHOPPPPP!!

Had a fantastic weekend!!! =D
And time seem flying pass so fast.
ITS MONDAY AGAIN!!!!
Aiya! its e start of another week!.
Just how fast man.

My bank has been robbed.
i mean, literally.
300bucks just gone.
Had no idea what i spend on oso.
Butt
imma happy girl now! YEAHH! =D

Friday 11.03.2005
Work was all well.
We had mac delivery for lunch time.
Time seems stegnant when your lunch time is early like 12?
Tts y i never like t lunch at tt kinda hr.
It just make your life seems so much harder t pass off.

Anyhoos, after work,
head t his plc and we are gng off 4 dnr at TPY.
Okay, here is the funny part.
Kenn and i thot we are gng t a rest.
So im all nicely dressed up getting ecstatic.
On our arrival, we seem alil disappointed.
Cuz its the same plc where we came last yr.
This yr is diff. Cuz gab is not here.
Its like that kinda chinese auction in the open space
and cantonese opera are just somewhere beside.
However, i had a great time. Just alil noisy, HOT, bored + tired. =)
the dnr start at 8 30.
So we sneaked out t the nearest mac and took a small bite.
we shared tempura chicken burger and its YUMMY!! hees
+ an apple pie!. Tt asshole just wont buy me fries!
Then we took a really long stroll back. *beamss*
lil megan was there. Still as lovely as ever.
The whole thing ended abt 11. and by the time we gt back
it was nearly 12. And i didnt get t bathe till like 12 30??
slept at abt 1. . .

Saturday 12.03.2005
Woke up at 11+? 12+? cannot rmb.
ha! Goldfish memory i have.
Had fried kway tiao for breakfast.
Kenn's dad fried.
YUMMY!! NICEE!!

Bathed and his dad send me back t collect my steamboat
for his bday dnr on sunday.
Then, he broke e news t me tt he is gonna play mahjong at night.
Im v upset of cuz.
I just hate sleeping alone as i had never need t sleep alone.
But well, its his bday. Since his parents has no objections.
what more can i say.

Came back, i completed the puzzle game of the PS2,
changed and off we head dwn t TM!!. =))
i bot a billabong bag. hees. NICE! i like.
Am already using it ytd.
Went t century and saw giodana sales.
OMG!! how can i resist.
Bot 2 bottoms and 2 tops.
like tt only 80 bucks flew awayy~~

Being the v nice o him, 1st time he actually shop w/ me.
=))
by then its already 6 30 so we hurried dwn t TM safra
for sakura. YUMMM!!.
we had t queue when we got there and sadly they
are experiencing full house. But luckily they gotten a seat for us outside
by the pool.
Alright, doesnt matter.
Being the v nice of him, he helped me w/ the food and drinks.
hees, despite he is oso v hungry + tired from all the walking,
he still volunteered. Tts v nice. =D
We had a dang nice + fulfilling dnr over there.
We just pigged out on anything.
Ended up certain food oso cant finish.
Oh their tempura nt say v nice.
Sushi variety not so bad.
Dessert section certainly had improved alot balls.
My fav are unagi + black pepper fish!
wahh its dang nice.
1st time i actually had black pepper fish!
we left at abt 8 15.
i ate till so full that my stomach was bloated out. OMg!!
he kept laffing at me. so mean!.

But aftermath i was feeling really terrible.
=(
and we had t walk t the other side of the road
cuz he wants t redraw money.
I think we walked for 10000000000000km.
i almost died of walking + bloating.
There was OCBC/MAYBANK BUT NO DBS!
then we walked further down and FINALLY FOUND IT!
its really a pain in the neck when you dont have cash with yoo.

Finally we cabbed home!
YEAHH!!.

Just when i thot his mahjong game was cancelled.
He just had t surprise me tt its still on.
+sighs+ oh wells.
Glad tt the night were too young.
i fell aslp shortly.
He finishes his game at abt 6 am?
and joined me on bed.

so. its sunday!

SUNDAY 13032005

So glad that i wished him happy bday 1st!! hees

stewpig NIC!! im 1st, u 2nd!! =P

NANNY NANNY POOOPOOOO!!!

woke up abt 11 and started t pack his room.

i think kenn's mom not gonna change evelyn.

But who cares.

im gonna do it my way.

Am supper satisfied with his new room decor. hees

Woke him up at abt 1 and i went back t slp cuz tt pig made me angry.
he doesnt wanna go swimming with me!!!!!!!!!!!
so madd k.
so i went back t slp.
woke up at abt 2+ and bathed.
we changed and left his home abt 4.
His mom sent us t east coast rd and
we bot a chocolate cake from temptation!
after paying he realised tt
safra card has 10% discount.
So the young lady are nt able t give us any discount
but she let us have a piece of our choice cake.
HEES so we took chocolate hazelnut!
YUMMM!. nice.heavenly.
he said it werent so good.
im more interested in blueberry cheese thou. *winkss*
then his mom dropped us at parkway and went home with the cake.
he was like so spolit.
go parkway oso need his mom t send.

Shopped around in parkway.
i just shop till i drop these 2 days.
And i really spend money like water.
Supposed t save 200bucks.
Now dont even think can save 100bucks.
Hais. bad bad bad bad.

"if only i was a rich girl. nanananana..."

we had old chang kee!
then we went scoopz for ice cream milkshake.
of cuz had my all time fav cookies and cream. =)
we tried the durian and watermelon flavour.
the durian is dang thick. v nice.
watermelon is so watermelon.
he said one bite is okay.
but the aftermath taste is so blunde.
he doesnt like.

he is goner larrs
All the belt so short and couldnt get any of it.
hais.
have his size one he dont like.
so fussy!
wan buy polo tee he dont want.
eediotic.

he said he wanna go levis,
so we dropped by levis.
He tried on 515 and i think it looks good on him.
he said we split.
since i hasnt gotten him anything except for the treat at sakura.
so i agreed.
i agree that he shld get another pair
cuz his old one is like hole here and there.
so v bad.
alter his bottom and we need t go back in another hr's time.
Alright.
we went giant!!!
actually wanna buy magazine rack and put in his room.
then he dont want.
wadd a miser.
its like only 3bucks.
then we cabbed home.

Gab were present.
i helped out.
SHortly nic came and we chatted awhile.
this fella surely have some brain for business.
he is selling woman's apparent + accessories.
so ladies.
ATTENTION!!.
i will post his website soon once he sms me.
his current stocks so not me lehh.
but its okay.
every one preference is different.

THEN, sebastian came.
OK! im kinda pissed.
the moment he came in he said he thot nic changed gf THEN he said i PUT ON WT!!
HELLO!.. so rude. somemore he said till so loud.
kenn's mom and sis laffed k!.
so malu lohhs.
EEDIOTICCCCC!!!!

Anyhoos, the dinner went all well and nice.
haha. kenn';s steamboat failed us.
It just wont boil.
Then he said:"mom! u see our steamboat failed us and catherine's one is so good."
WAHAHAHA.. so meann.
had a lovely time.
Sebastian so tanned sia. he kena bully by them. so bad..

Then played PS 2 while and we went t cut cake.
heavenly yummy cake from temptation.
yumm!!... then we turn in..

Just like tt... another week gone...

happy 30th monthsary smelly porkchop!!!

2005-03-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
30th
MONTHSARY
SMELLY
PORKCHOP!!!!

Had a tiff ytd. +criesss+
he msg me tdy!
YEAH! he surrender! =P

NT MY FAULT NT MY FAULT NT MY FAULT!

y is it so hard for guys t just say S-O-R-R-Y t their gal?!

Anyhoos, kinda excited for tonight cuz am meeting up w/ d ATTITUDEZZ!!
Nt all o them larrs. Nt say all can make it.
But meeting up w/ Kai, Mike, Ocs + Clarrr.
So yeah, am delightedd!!

Sooooooo long didnt see them. MISSSS THEM T BITS N BITSSS!!

Am supperly late tdy. reached office at abt 9 20.
saw Joan tdy after sucha long MIA!
who cares oso. never tok as usual.

Porkchop bday is coming in another 4 days! WALALALA./
wondering wad shld i buy for him.
oh. im like DUPER BROKE cuz the cheque bound.
so i'll b like receving my pay like tmr?
hmm...

I so wanna shop lahhss.>!!!!
but i need t save abt 200 cuz i might not b working for at least a mth!.

Hais!.

hate the thot o finding new job.
New environment
New colleague
New Boss
everything is just dang NEW larrs..

lately been having weirrd dreamss...
funny funny funny kind..
pftttttt!

i wanna rant.
rant rant rant rant
suddenly missed my primary sku friend.

suddenly thot of sebastian tan.
hmm wondering how is he nw and wad he dng nw.
=D

i wanna change phone leh.
7270
gees. can i ????!

haiss. i wan my ipod.
porkchop make spoil the mp3 player i got for his last xmas.
slapp himm!!.
then he so lazy dont want go fix.
next time dont buy for him already.
dont treasure it.

2 more weeks t gd friday. YEAH!
meeting my belovedd cousins for sushi + ktv SPREEEE!
gees.
cant waitt.
i have got so much things t buy.

ehh letss see:
x. Abercrombie Boxers
x. Abercrombie polo top
x. Abercrombie crop pants
x. M.A.C. cosmetic
x. Lancome facial care
x. Clinique facial care
x. roxy bag
x. roxy top
x. watch
x. topshop green polo
. . .

woahh.. yeahh.
hell of alot.
i need money!!
MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY!!
where is the money???

wah lauu...

2005-03-03T11:06:00.000+08:00

"....oooO..............
.....(....)...Oooo...
......)../.....(....)....
.....(_/.......)../.....
...............(_/.......
... I hope ............
.......... i left .........
....my...................
.......footprint......
...........in your.....
.....heart..............
........just like......
..you have.........
.......left yours...
..in........mine......

Verse 1:
I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said
Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:
Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me
Verse 2:
I read those words just hours before
my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me
Breakdown:
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer

2005-03-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven, and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night, she talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all the joy in my life,
Oh, but most of all, for...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony, daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To disuve a hug every mornin and butterfly kisses at night .
Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma a little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
But I remember...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, daddy, but if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on the cheek this time."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.
All the precious time ... Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly ... Spread your wings and fly
She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking, and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl." Then she leaned over... and gave me...
Butterfly kisses, with her mama there sticking little flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?" "Daddy, don't cry."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more. Man, this is what love is.
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

- - - - - - - - -- - -- - -- ---- - - -- - --- - - - - - - -

Awww, i just love this song!!

it will b 1 of my wedding track in the ballroom or church. =D

my weekend went fineee~

last friday i had my lesson at bugis'a MDIS.

Bot a pair of shoes from x:odus @ only 9.90. -grinssss-

+ a watch for 9.90.

i didnt bring enuff money w/ me.

i eyed on so many pairs of shoes!!!! +cries+

i promise i will b back.

the lesson was quite alright.

Had old chang kee for dnr and takopachi octopus ball. yeah for the 1st time.

tasted quite alrightt.

claudia and i just bitch big time and as usual with her around, lessons were never tt bored.

left hme after class and guess wad!!

i bumped into elene ng on the train!!!

yah lahh, if u are thinking which elene it will b leslie's sista larrs!

ok, t be more specific, our band major on '98.

lingli's snr that is.

She is currently working in the church.

talkative as usual.

Surprised tt she shifted t 400+ blk near t pei.

wahaha.. it was a pleasant surprised.

saturdayyy i woke up at abt 10, playd sims and watch tvvvvv!!

he came t pick me up at 6+, andd had dnr.

it was actually a reunion dnr for his parents cuz their old childhood neighbour came dwn from england. Mark came, jerome, queenie. We had our dnr in the kitchen whereas the rest in the dining room of cuz. It was a fantastic dnrr lahss. yummyumm.

Huili, steph and i playd daidee in oliver's room for freaking long.

the adults keep coming in t check on us.

they left at abt 11 and we turn in at abt 2>?

he had t go for funeral so he went off at 8 and i continue t slp till 11

bathed and we go dwn for lunch at hillman restaurant.

A cantonese rest. cuz its popo's bday!

geess.

nicee.

the chicken in the paper is dang nicee lahss.

total bill sum up t 200+. woah expensive.

i think if we were t go for buffet it wont b tt ex.

but agn, its popo's bday.

MEgan were there. so cutee.

reachd home at abt 2pm.

unker went off t fetch him back.

we were supposed t go bugis t continue my shopping spree,

sadly he is too tired t move.

so we just slack at home.

dnr was buffet by the pool side, hw lomantic.

but with another 100+ pple im nt so sure abt it.

haha.

however the buffet was great larrs.

i realised something,

i guess evelyn really hated me.

one of my pic on kenn's shelf my face actually has a HOLE!

yes, i mean, i think she cut out or sumthing.

if u didnt really look at it u wont seem t find out.

too bad, i saw it.

i didnt wanna pt my finger at her ya knw.

i just try nt t think it tt way

but this thing is just bothering me alot.

i just didnt wanna create anymore troubles since she is leaving.

now, i just hope she leave faster.

its a pain t see her in the hse.

it makes me doesnt wanna stay there t b frank.

i didnt tell him abt it.

cuz im so scared tt he is gng t confide her.

wadevaaa larrs.

Tuesday is a boringg day. lolss.

COngrats t all who have done well for their Os.

Most pple i knw fared kinda well.

felt happy for them.

this gt me thinking, y aint i able t do it?

mebbe im really stewpig or wadd.

blahhhhhhh!!!

yes im ranting.

wad t doo....

im must think positive and b contented with my life!!

kenn's bday is approaching.

im intending t bake him a cake!!

gees. i need help!

anybody!?

chocolate cake or oreo cheesecake would b fine.!

anybody?!??!

puuuurrrrrrfffffffffffffffffffff

i had very swt melon ytd.

-happy girl-

ok im maddd..

outt``

`new blogskin. =D

2005-02-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

Wheeee` its another new blogskin. *beamss*
its friday!! yeah!! but the after effect of the medication makes me drowsy.
I was on MC on tuesday and wednesday.

Tuesday
After back from polyclinic, played sims2 the whole day.
currently indulge t strangetown. +grinsss+
shall nt go on any further.
slackd the whole of tuesday t be short.

wednesday
woke up, bathed and cook noodles for him. =D We had korean kimchi flavour noodles for lunch. He had t go for his driving lessons then drop by. He gave me a surprised after soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long!! =) he bot me a white lily and placed it on my door. Then he msgd me and asked me t open the door. -melts- those were the days of back then. hees. wat a nice way t start my wednesday. im just super delighted lars. The lily he gave hasnt bloomed. so the convers goes like this.

me: oii, y e lily u give hasnt bloomed?
him: for you to take care mah.

wahahaha. im like a bimbofied bitchfied gal.

Soon he came and i just started cooking. Threw in some veg and hotdogs together with the noodles. Conclusion: hotdog doesnt go too well with the kimchi noodles. +shrugs+ wash up, changed and we head on t his plc t continue with his condor heroes. He is just dang addicted t that show larrs. i kept pestering him for my shrooms burger and longan. +gees+ he compelled with longan but not my shrooms burger. +poutsss+

we left my plc at abt 4, then had dnr at his plc. Evelyn's cooking skills is supreme. v nice dnr. Then his parents went giant and bot back a fan for him. His fan spoilt and we got t on AIR-COND!!! hees. Happy!!!! then fixed e fan, changed and his dad sent me back and him t camp. Reached home at 9. Saw 1/2 yuan fen, pi li hou then t my slumberland.

Ytd went t work and head on t class after work. Claudia is nt gng for class therefore im super lonely. left during interval and made it just in time for 9pm show. Tonight im still having lesson but its at bugis's outlet. will b going shopping in bugis. BUT! i left my cash at home. clever me. hopefully tonight's lesson will b fun and fruitful one.

okayss peeps. the pix for my unker's wedding is UP!!. gees.

i was putting it up happily and my comp gt hang. sian1/2. anyhoos, some its in friendster. =) so yeah. just go take a look. @.@

outt`

lost my voiceee

2005-02-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

okayss, its been like 2 weeks since i had a proper and decent entry. Anyhoos, past 2 weeks was well spent. *smilesss*

My vday went simple.
He had duty t do so we spend on 16 Feb.
Had a fantastic dnr at Breekz.
i had unagi rice. it was really dang nice. not regretting gng there.
Their cookies and cream milkshake were heavenly. . .
+yummylicious++

No flowers no gifts but love is still there. *smiles*

nthing much except i spent a hell lot of money. =))

its a sign tt im broke yeah.

This week the most happening event was my unker philip + jiejie cindy's wedding. =))

they kinda screwed up the wedding abit larrs.
at least tts hw i felt.

Saturday 19022005
Grace Methodist CHurch 1 30pm.

met biao jie and headed off t boyfriend's plc.
his bro is sending us there.

reached there slightly past 1pm.
biao jie helped out at the reception, me and boyfriend took pix. =)
got in sitted and waited for damn long.
boyfriend was whining. *stares*
finally the bride and the groom arrival.
started at about 2 30.
the whole ceremony wasnt tt much of a drag. cept the priest talked too much.
translator sucks.
due t the long awaiting, it seems the church wedding is such draggy. *sighs*
its still sweet and nice and everything u knw, just makes pple sleep.

however the yummylicious reception afterward makes me smile and at least i find slight happiness in the whole thang. *grinss*

boyfriend and i or shld i say everyone pigged out happily.
there were sushi, fruit tarts, dessert, fish, prawns, mee siam, satay and etc.
lotsa good food. it was really good. =))

biao jie and us left at abt 4 45 and we took a bus t harbourfront mrt station.
Biaojie meeting her beau and they are gng off t watch chingey.
boyfriend and i headed dwn t yio chu kang t meet agnes for my boss hsewarming.
Yes, another session of pigging out.
So, someone pls tell me hw am i supposed t lose wt in this manner? *rolls eyes*

ahem~

agnes msg me in train tt she will b late for at least 20mins cuz she forgotten t bring pressie. oh great, both of us had a great nap in the train. we sat passed yio chu kang and reached ermm. . . reached admiratly. i think!. then we feel tt its time t drop and trained back t yck. we were 5mins late. =)) so agnes and us headed t my boss EC> woah, i tell u the condo is just dang nice larrs!!! i too wanna live there next time. +poutss+

upon reaching, we saw the function rooms were packed, with crowds. So woahh! wad a crowd. and those are the pple tt we dont knw. then, agnes spotted daniel(my boss) sitting dwn staring at us. then, a auntie came out and told us t go the other side t enter. so we thot, y they made us walked a big round. the whole dang day i was having alot of problems w/ the new shoes tt i bot on friday in parkway bata. Ms tan kai lun if u are reading this u will knw wad im talking abt. The blardy shoes made my left foot last toe hurt. so much tt i could hardly walk. i just kept bitching while walking.

Then daniel told us its a different side. oh, alright. he can still sit dwn there happily. irritating. as usual larrs, we were the 1st guest. so chatted awhile and he showed us the gym room and lastly the ktv room. lieww, they are all out t sabo me larrs. i am having a bad sore thoat since friday till tdy. they just had t make me sing. and maluating me. evil!!!!

after complaining and bitching awhile i finally pick up the mike and start t sing. Gees.
then we went out t grab some food and saw lilian. like she finally came.
then she and her hubby came in and as usual we started t suan each other.
the food werent tt fantastic larrs. kinda glad tt we ate more at my unker's wedding. GEES.

oh, we oso met his auntie jacqueline of whom we always spoken t over the phone but have nt met. Her this auntie is dang power. She was wearing a hot pink tube mind u. she had 2 sons. the eldest in NTU nw. wahh, hot mama!.

we were bring told tt ivy(oso can consider our colleague but nt so close) 's brother had committed suicide. Tts sadd. he was only abt 34yrs old. Due t some family problem i guess. yuppss...

Okayss, so we left shortly at abt 8 30 and we trained back hme.
Continue with his condon heroes 95 larrs.
Got gu tian le k!! the xiao long nu is dang pretty. dunno wads her name.
so nw i oso gt addicted t it. bleahss..

Sunday 20022005
Sheraton Hotel 7 30pm.

Woke up at 12, and we cook noodles for breakfast.
same thing, evelyn and i are still nt talking.
i guess its better t keep it this way. =))

after breakfast we continue t watch CH95.
5 45, we started changing and getting ready t leave.
His dad sending us there.
the tea ceremony was held at the hotel,
was being told t b there by 6. lucky i told my mom i will b there at abt 7.
knw wad?
upon reaching, the ceremony have not yet started so which means they have been there dng practically nthing.

Got there, snapsnapsnap and wad else.
played around, fooled around.

finally we got in seated at abt 8.

helped with throwing flowers and the whole thing started at abt 8 45.
which was supposed t b 7 30. =))
i dunno if its the bride's side or the guest side.
both were truly unappreciated.

anyhoos, boyfriend had t leave early at like 10 30. cuz his dad fetching him.
mingle around with my 2 yandao cousins. =) photo taken and i look like hw old larrs.

New blogskin!!

2005-02-15T15:19:00.000+08:00

wheeeee!!

roxy roxx!

WOOHAA!

2005-02-07T13:39:00.002+08:00

its a niceee + relaxing monday.

I've gotta my 1st Ang Bao for new yr tdy!! =))

Coutesy of Daniel Sing, My boss with well wished wishes on the exotic golden American Express Ang bao packet with 2 big red word "Ji Xiang" On it. Simply breathtaking. ::grinss:: However im so much more keen wad lies beneath. *winkss*

and. . .

TADAHHHH!!

80 BUCKS!!

whee, imma happy girl larrs. :D

Friday after work had a fantastic time with my cousins!! +sings:its cousin's time+

Reached Bugis at 6 there came sam thereafter my dearest biaojie Sue. We had a supreme time pigging out in sakae and pics were taken. Ohh. . . how i miss my stri8 hair. *sniffs*

3 of us with a total of 71 bucks, woah! aint tt alot? Thks t biaojie for having some discount, so total bill 60nett. Not wanting t waste any min of the time we head on for sam's makeover shopping spree with F4 killer looks on New yr day at popo hse. ANd indeed after sue and my transformer, he certainly bears a slight resembles with yan cheng xu, a thinner and uglier version but still looking good. =D

tried on a few skirts but sumhw i didnt like it. . . aww sadd saddd sadddd.
its alright, Biao jie bot a minis and sam had like a set of clothing with him and i have nothing. :S
When im on the verge of losing myself and giving up, Thanks goodness. BYSI SAVED MY DAY!. haha
Bought a Dress from Bysi which cost 64bucks. I like it alot cuz its the type of my ideal dress. Super nicee. NICEEE??????

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Then, biaojie and i cabbed home and i had a really fantastic time at her plc.

Next morning, she made nice breaky for me. Prata with cheesy hotdog! yummylicious... then we head on t bedok perm my hair. =)) Okkays, i spent 238bucks on my perming. Now its only the 3rd day and i see some not as peaky anymore. im glad tt he likes it. =)) ANyhoos, i sat in the damn salon for 6 freaking hrs just t get it perm. It werent too bad i would say. But i still think i look better with stri8 hair. But he said he liked this new looks. *beamss* he said when he heard im gng t do sumthing t my hair i wouldnt look so good, but he is wrongg~ eh eh. haha. ok lahss. im elited can. The solution was super stinky. Actually wanna dye too but i cannot tahan sitting there anymore. I dont tink i want t dye oso lahhs. Quoted from Agnes, as long as my hair can tahan for next 2 weeks then it shld b fine. lolss. My bladder almost burst and the toliets there are like fear factor kind. (smirks) nvms. i was just starving and tired larrs. Cuz woke up freaken early.

Too tired t shop after perming so bot a lil sushi and head on back. Got home roughly 5 and abit more. watched zhen qing and wrapped up stephy's pressent and head on t his plc. it wasnt really much of a crowd but wells, not too bad. i had fun. =)

Next morning, actually wanna go 12 15 mass but tt arse bathe so long so we were late and we left for TM instead. hees. shshshsss... will make sure he go next week. Saw levis wagon sales, reminds me so much of last time. BAHA! nvmsss. walk abit and left home. Played alil sims2 then tv all the way. B) Left for reunion dnr at plaza Parkroyal hotel. My childish parent almost fight. Sometimes i really dont understand my family members at all. Forget it. Had a great time there. Food is good, companion is good. wadelse t expect?

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had a tiring, packed but fantastic weekend. =))

Tonight am having class and tmr i only work till 12.

so, says who life sucks?

haha, at least so far not yet for me.

wishing u peeps an advance CNY.

Cuz prolly i wont blog till 14. +winkss+

GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!!!

Good Fridayy!!

2005-02-04T11:32:00.000+08:00

Friday has never been this good. =))

Cuz i smell holidays and red packettss!! *smirks*

Bahahahaha!!

Been a hectic week for me. Ytd was my International Business 1st lesson, and i would say it was kinda fun. M. Loh made us pair up with a buddy and introduce them. it was sort of a ice breaking game. Kinda fun but wasted alot of time too. Really gotta knw m classmate for the next 3 mths better. but oh wells, it really made me blardy happy t knw tt this is my last module. My class came a damn tall and slim girl. Ytd when i was on my way t MDIS she was walking infront o me. Then tt blardy bitch went into the lift and went up. DAMN hER! i tried pressing for it can. And it gone up then i hafta take another one. F her.

Gotta knw slyvia alil better. She is damn crappy and funny can. Just funny lahhs. Didnt wanna ask her abt chris i think its better t just keep it. so cant wait for my course t end. My buddy Cherlyn lee said her dept is looking for urgent admin clerk. hmm at UOB, i dunno if i shld just go for it or wadd. Cuz its at novena. 9- 6 30. Shall see how then.

After work meeting my dearest biao jie and samuel for dnr and shopping spreee. Then im gng over t my biao jie t stay over. wahh, its like so nice right. hees. tmr am going t the saloon t perm my hair. But we will b gng for prata breaky 1st. wheee, cant wait. haha. wadd a nice feelinggs. SUnday we will b gng to plaza parkroyal for dnr buffet. The food looks yummy. hees.. nicenice. hao chi!.

hopefully my hair will turn out nicely done. +cross fingers+

My new black plastic frame specs cost me 390bucks. and i hafta wait till end of month t collect it. kinda disappointed and excited. i hope i wont look too bad with it. =P

hi feburary~

2005-02-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

=)

chinese New Year is approaching and just less than 1 wk! whee!! My anxiety is killing me! Cuz right after which will b my unker philip and jiejie cindy's WEDDING!!!! +big grinss+ Anticipation.

Life has been good, just gotten pay, later after work will head on t parkway t make new specs. Meeting kenn, peizi and clarr. Cantt wait boyy. . .

I wanna look pretty!!! and different!!! so am gonna perm my hair! hees. actually i think if their skills is good right, even normal perm oso can be as equally good as ceramic perm. So shall see how. Havent gotten anything for steph. Shall see how then!.

My day went boringg g g g g g. . . . really pissed the hell outta me. This set me thinking, does my calibre only stops here. The answer is no. I knw i am able t handle much more than wadd im doing now. Hais. Sadly i can then leave after i gotten CGI. i want t make use of insured t get my cert. Then i knw i can move on. :S

Hopefully am able t meet up w/ e clique on new yr say fridayy 11th??? gees. hows tt?

vday is comingg. . . Despite HE still own me my bday pressie n i knw tt i sure nt gonna get anything on vday but i will still pamper him. mebbe a shirt? i dont knw. SHall see then. I knw im sucha darlinkk gf. But this is just me. wadd t do? +laffs+ if its our Ms TANKAILUN i think she will offer herself. haha. =P

ANy ideal peeps???? watch?? no lahss.. that one i will wait till his bday!! haha. 1/2 hr more t home swt home. woohoo!!. 9-5 is actually not tt bad but its just the job tts plain boringg. okok i shall stop whiningg.

DAte with vampire i saw till disc 24. 2 more disc t go.! yippy!! hees.. lilian says the ending is rubbish and stupid. Shall see then. Friday meeting my beloved cousins for another trip of shopping spree!! wheeeee so cant wait. haha. . .

`[ aimlessly fallinggg. .. .. .

2005-01-27T14:31:00.000+08:00

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

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Weee. . . nice song!! bleahsss. im just dead boringg at work larrsss.
Next Monday i will b resuming back t my oh-so-boring-and-lifeless job. oh Wells, wadd can i say. 9-5 is just simple too good t be true. pay-wise is oh-so-damn-pathetic. Sadd t say, im already thinking of changing job. this miser money i really find it kinda hard t survive not t mention t save any buck. *rolls eyes*

Saw Desperate Housewives on Tuesday and i must really say tt the story plot is so wayy interesting than sex and the city. So nw is Sex and the City VS Desperate housewives. However, 1 thing i wanna comment is the ladies in DH are really nothing compared t SNTC. But well, Gabrielle is still damn HOT! haha. And she is the only one. sad case. I guess both shows are equally nice but sumhow DH caught my attention and next wk im gonna catch it on time. I realised tt once u missed mebbe for just 15mins and u will b lost and puzzled for the entire show till ure redirected back. DH ROXXX!!!

there are just so much things i wanna do. Later after work am gonna cut my hair. *smirkss* really wanna change my specs, and then shall go perm my hair and color it. i so wanna go style. *sighss* sshall see how then.

*looks at the time*

wah i still got 2 and a half hr t go. So borringgg. Lucky daniel is not in, else i will have prob struggle. When i actually have nthing t do. LALALA!~....

Ytd night was his band DND and guess wad, they got felicia Chin as the emcee. Lucky bastards. He enjoyed himself so much tt he had forgotten tt he has got a me. i sms him and ask him stop drooling and he replied tt "she is damn chio!!" oh greatt. *clapss.. Good for him. Slept at 11 20 after watching DAte with Vampire III disc 16. The story is getting duper excited nw. Ma xiao ling has turned into a vampire. Ren wang and sheng mu met at waiting bar. Ren wang became ren wang agn and i think he is going t declare a war with sheng mu. Now chang er on earth is doing evil and harm t mankind. Ming yun is so evil and badd!!! hate him!!!... chang er is spreading virus!! chang er is so pretty! bahh!! +poutts+

Finally tmr is friday~ Good glory friday. . . then its the long waiting weekend!! hees. Next monday my lesson will resume, wah finally its the last module. Just endure for another 3 mths and tts it!! haha!!... Diploma!! here i come....

outt1`

Happy birthday t mee*

2005-01-24T13:53:00.000+08:00

its 6 days past 18th jan.

i have been 20th for 6 days and counting.

Its really scary. . . but still . . .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY T ME!!! =)

So now im offically no longer a teenager.

hMmm.*tInKTiNkTinkTiNK*
pple might be envious of me but well. . . i envy my jnrs too.

I had a fantastic bday celebration. . .

I would like t thank you all for participating a part for my 20th bday celebration. Sincerely truthfully thank you. For those that bothers t send me a sms and t those who dont. I just had a really simple one and im already happy and contented.

Lotsa had been going on since my last update. I shall nw drop dwn one by one for those who bothers.

last last friday I went out with Agnes after work and the courtesy of her treated me dnr at pizza hut. Its been ages since i eat pizza hut. It was really cool and we talk non-stop. hees. About just everything. Im glad that i didnt lose this colleague. It was already 9+ after our dinner so just bumped around looking for suitable new yr clothing for agnes. I didnt buy anything. Got home at abt 11 then went t bed.

17th Jan - i had my 1st paper and it totally screwed up. i think most likely i will hafta take sup papers again! sadly but yes. Ayess of cuz i dont wish t but if i really flunked i oso dont have a choice right. Tsk! After paper went t secret recipes at PS and 1st time tried the cake there and it was really yummy!!. Headed home and the girls went shop shop. At night, he purposely stayed up late and talk t me, thou kailun is a step faster saying happy bday t me but im still moved and touched that he have the thot. Then he sent me a voice recording singing my 1st happy bday song t me. How sweet is that? i really felt so far yet so close. And of cuz my attitudez girls for their warm wishes. *muacks muacks t all*

18th Jan - Went t work and meet the attitudez after work for dnr at Tampines Swensens. Im late, hees as usual larrss. Had a great dinner and there comes my 1st bday cake! =)) Its cookies and cream ice cream cake!!! so yummylicious! They gave me my 1st G2000 shirt. *grinss* Thanks peeps! Really loving it. Really Grateful t have yoo bunch! Sings:" without yoo where will i belongg". hees. >.< After delicious dnr we went t slack at Starbucks and the pigging ones went t buy XXL crispy chicken. Slack till about 11 then we left for home.

19th Jan - I went back t work for half day t settle the new yr card, then left home and mug. Clar came abt 4 t play sims2 and pei came abt 7. It was disaeter(spelling?) The red bar are more than green one. If u play sims u will knw wad im talking about. I had a hard time making it all green again. Oh, my sims gave birth t a twin. Hees. So there was 3 babies and nw they have grew up. hees.

20th Jan - My last paper and i did pretty alright. Hopefully i can pass. -shrugs- Great giant sales at FOX and i bot a jacket for 13.50bucks. Yeah still own grace. Must rmb t pay her back. The girls had a great time at FOX. +grinss+ then they all left and i went out with jiejie cindy. we went suntec and had yami yoghurt! hees. NICE! Actually i do not enjoy shopping with her. She has too much phone calls t entertain and shops that she doesnt like she dont go with u. So, yeah wads the pt. Then w/o telling me she sent me t paragon t meet up with her sis and her sis's in-laws. Then they wanna go chomp chomp and eat. I rejected but she insisted tt i will go. i would really wanna have some quiet time but in the end i still went. So there goes my 1st time in chomp chomp. Didnt get t eat stingray but wells. Reached home abt 12+?

21st Jan - Spent whole day rotting at home watching tv. Am currently glu-ing t date with vampire III. Gees nw watched till disc 15. Still lot t go. Its getting excited nw.. wohohoho~. Then he came t pick me up at 11 30pm and we took a bus back cuz there was no more train t boonlay. Bathed and slept.

22nd Jan - woke up at around 12+. Had a very bad weekend with his maid. I really do not knw in wadd way have i offended her. She just seems super duper dislike me and kenn. Her maid had a serious attitude prb with us around. She will just vent her blardy anger on the plates/fridge door/cupboard door/pans/ anything else in kitchen. She didnt help me t wash some of my home-clothing for freaking 2 wks. She took off the bedsheets and left it there for 6 hrs and mebbe more w/o changing. We were home all the while till about 6, i was in the toliet and i heard kenn scolded her for slamming the fridge door. We were about t go out and the best part was i could not find my slippers. I just dont understand wassup with her larrs. So kenn got very fustrated and he went t kitchen and asked her. She kept saying she dont knw she didnt take. She has her own slippers and y would she took mine. In the end kenn got super duper aggitated and she got him screaming at her at his top of his voice. After a 2yrs plus tgt this was the 1st time i ever saw him blew such big top at sumone. Not even his sister. T b frank i was frightened by him. I have got no choice but t pull him out and in the end i got scolding from him. See, it doesnt pay t b kind here. As we were walking out we saw the parents car so kenn stopped them and he talked t them. Then we left for ecp. We were at the JAZZPIRATION and saw quite alot of jazz-talent. It was kinda nicee. =)) Then we left ecp at about 8 and left for his jnr nigel's hse at old bedok rd. Woah, his hse is damn nice balls. He has 2 super duper cute dogg!! the small one called PAris just abt 3 mths old i was told. SOOOOOO CUTEEE U KNW!! EEEEKKK!! i like! haha. i was initially rotting there till nigel's aunty came and tok t me. She is a really nice ladyy. So we had a kinda nice tok then i was being asked t play mahjong and after some stoning and laffing sebastian sent us back. We slept at abt 3. My heart was heavy and i really dont knw what t do. Im just scared tt the time might come in and chop us piece by piece at midnight. I locked the doors and used the chair t block the toliet's door. Cuz tt one could b opened up by outside. Didnt sleep well tt night and it was really an uneasy feeling.. lingers lingeringg....

[Edit: Serene found my slippers near the staircase there which was so prominent but we didnt see it when we went out. However, thanks t serene otherwise my leg is gonna break for sure.]

23 Jan- We woke up at abt 12 and had breakfast tgt with his parents in the kitchen. Kenn wanna play game with her so he asked me not t bring my plates t the basin but sumhw i feel it wasnt right. Then shortly the mom asked us t the dining table for a meeting with the maid. The parents tried talking t her and asking her prob but all she said was she wants t apologize even thou it was not her fault. Cuz the bribe says this and tt. Kenn got super fustrated with the way she reply and he screwed her up. The parents are v forgiving and understanding and they had given her one more chance. just 1 week if her attitude hasnt change then they will consider of terminating her contract. The dad asked her t shake hands with us and she reluctant. But kenn's dad gave his words t me saying tt they are on my side and will protect me but if any little things i must tell them. I feel a bit bad. Oh wells...

and today im back t work. Boringg ringgg... Bad news, Daniel just said next mth onwards i will hafta stay focus on telemarketing. Haiss. so im back t pathetic 900/mth. How t survive???

MONDAY BLUESS!!!!

`stiff neck friday =(

2005-01-14T13:46:00.000+08:00

dum di dummm!!

gees, Daniel is not in office and Agnes has gone out for lunch. I hasnt went for mine. Time seems t fly tdy. Perhaps whole morning i was busy with doing the dividel. Sheeshh after lunch should b around 3+. Life's good boyy~ *Big Beamms*

Lets continue the story of my glamchicks.

Kelly has reached the maximum stage of cooking. Hurrey!! tts good news. She is on level 7 on body, not too bad. But bad news is they are aging in just another 19days. BOOHOO!. *Criess* I havent find a husband for them yet! hw can they age and die just like tt! So.. *evil grins* am gonna use the cheat code t stop them from aging. Lalala.

Karenn was working as a security and she got promoted!! wahaha. Currently need t train her logic so... must play chess. Hees. I am v proud and safe t say tt their welfares are really v v well taken care of. Katiee keeps wanting to "wooHoo" which is t have sex. But the guys she met cant really click well with her. aww tts sadd. Im getting alil worried here.

So cant wait for 6pm agnes and i are gng t TM for dnr and shopping. Gees. i dont think i will shop unnecessarily. Im already abit tight. *pulls long face* alright. My exams is just in another 3 days.

Lord have mercy!!!>.

Shld i meet him tonight or tmr??
But sunday he is gng t the football match between Man U and Liverpool. hmm.. Shall see hw then. Arghh.. im hungryy!..

Shld i have pizza tonight or Ajisen?!?!?

nvm.. will update agn.

`sign outt

theglamchicks ___.

2005-01-13T11:20:00.000+08:00

ayee! woohoo!! -waves- haha
im starting t behave like my sims at home.

currently im stuck with thegla~~mch~~icks ___.

Did i mention tt sims2 are really cool. They allow so much more functions and furnitures for decora in the hse and the hse are able t have a 3rd storey which is so wayyyy cool!.. gosh. and the body shop is just sucha fun thing larrs. We get t self create our sims and even small details like the features are taken care of. im so addicted t it tt i gotta play everyday neglecting time t study. Speaking of exams i think im quite a goner. I hasnt touched anything yet. yeah, nw i dont work hard then when results are here u will see me whinning and sobbing. come on! life is such contradict-.

Okayss. My glam chicks is consists of 3 sisters (i created them and they are fcuking HOT!!) and 1 made them a totally diff character. They are Katiee/Karenn/kelly. Kelly is the ambitious one. She is made under knowledge base. Katiee is the one with the romance base and karenn is the one with the popular base. Cool yeahh! Ytd i was making kelly study cooking and the 2 one played piano and the other one working out. DAMNN YOO! my kelly has grew fat and the most amazing thing is u can actually tell and ask urself:"eh, kelly like grew fatter heh. Yoo see those fats and tummy like mine. =X" nvm. im gonna make them super duper chio/HOT!! we'll just see and i will create this brother family and make them get married. HAHAHA. of cuz they just cant get married with anybody. As their creator im in charge and they have absolute no say! HURSS! BITE ME!!....

Oh yah i was saying i was training them and fcuking hell my computer hanged. This is damn !#%!@&#%^#*@^(#&(@*)!@!^#!%#@#^@&*#*(!&)#*)#!*%#%&@#% freaken pissed. Im gonna have a B.F.!!

I notice tt thou matrix had major improvement in sims2 but the sims are still rather inflexible. Things blocked their way they will just made helluva noise larrs. damn irritating. But my sims hse are such palace and castle. They dont have t work courtesy t the money cheat code. But still im training em' t be the best of the best. So when they find a job they are able t b in the higher rank.

Look, i just told myself tt tonight are work am going home t revise and cant play sims. But right now im already having this urge t play. diediediedie. like tt hw t study.

Okayss. My comp hanged and i played agn and i made them go t work. Pissed the hell outta me.! Im broke broke broke. Still owned AIA money leh. haha. hais. Kinda sucks. Y am i so not looking forward t my bday this yr. He is going t sg stadium t catch the soccer show and tuesday he gotta teach at SMU. so i really cant think o any other days t celebrate my bday w/ me. He is broke too and saturday we gotta be back by 7 cuz he have t teach his student. I dunno. Peeps hasnt called and ask me out so i guess they forgotten abt it too.

oh wells, every1 will get their fair share of ups and dwns. Nw ive got mine.

Abel ranged me up ytd and we had quite a good conversation tt lasted 1/2 hr. Got t knw tt he and his gf had broken up. Kinda sad coz they lasted kinda long. Okayyss. tt lame guy just called t tell me a joke tt isnt funny. He said he has this frd who tries t play a prank on him by sending him a letter and with the name of Mr TING. So he thot tt it might be interesting if I, Ting Ting and tt Mr TING are together and if we gt married my name would be TING TING TING. Nw tell me hw funny can tt be? ToTally senseless lorrhs. wad a cold jokes but the funny thing is he just kept on laffing while i already said it aint funny. Funny guy.

okks. i guess tts abt it. I think i will b playing sims tdy as i dont like the 7pm show.

thats all folk!!!!...

*i just wanna live

2005-01-12T09:47:00.000+08:00

Good Charlotte:i just wanna live

I need an alarm system in my house
So I know when people are
Creeping about
These people are
Freaking me out
It's getting hectic everywhere that I go
They won't leave me alone
There's things they all wanna know
I'm paranoid about the people I meet
Why are they talking to me?
And why can't anyone see
I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x6]
I rock a
Lawsuit when I'm going to court
A white suit when I'm gettin' divorced
A black suit at the funeral home
And my birthday suit when I'm home alone
Talkin' on the phone
Got an interview
With the rolling stone
They're saying
“Now you're rich and
Now you're famous
And fake ass girls all know your names and
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Was your first hit aren't you ashamed?”
Of the life [x2]
Of the life we're livin'
I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Stop your messin' around boy
Better think a your future
Better make some good plans boy
Said everyone of my teachers
Lookout
You better play it safe
You never know what hard times will come your way
We say
Where we're coming from
We've already seen
The wealth that this life can bring
Now we're expected everywhere that we go
All the things that they say
Yeah we already know
I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live [x3]
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
Don't really care about the things that they say
Just wanna live [x3]
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

Am loving this song right now. At times i do wish that life could be that simple. Or is it we just complex the whole thing? *shrugs* i dont knw. Over the years i have indeed grown up and matured alot. However im still quite uncertain what kinda path am i heading to. Im quite satisfied with my current workplace. Everything is fine and well. However all gd things come t an end. Im just kindly glad that Agnes is staying and so long she hasnt harbour any thots o leaving. -phews- I guess her mom's incident really changed her abit. In a way or 2 i guess.

4 more hrs t go. Mr Mins pls move your hand faster so tt i can go home. Was actually planned t go for guaduate dip after my dip. However lilian doesnt encourage me t do so. She was just afraid tt it will nt be recognised. oh wells. wad can i say. it seems like im taking forever t finish this entry. My blardy computer just wanna die on me larss!! Friday after wrk will b shopping and piggy feast w/ agnes. Time t let our hair dwn and shop!!. next week i will b on a long leave. Am taking leave on monday for my consumer behavior exams, reporting t work next day which oso will b my 20th bday. leave agn on wed and thurs, happened tt friday is a public holidays so yeahs. kinda shiok t b frank. wahahaha.. i feel so priviledge and pampered. dont be mistaken. It just happened so. I didnt plan it purposely.

Did i mention tt i miss my attitudez' girls so so very muchy!? Hasnt seen them in like 23012343423 years. When are we meeting up laaddiess? I hasnt club in another 2382402349-23904 yrs. can we have some clubbing fun or wad-so-ever kopi session? i need retail therapy t make my fragile and broken heart alil better. *pfffttt*

"i just wanna livee...."

achem! -clears throat-

out`

`wheee. New Blogskin! ;)

2005-01-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

Biao jie inspired me t change my blogskin. so TA-DAHH!

Lately the weather has been funny. A while rain and a while sunny. I am on exam break therefore this wk need not attend class. I really cant wait for the course t b done. just endure for another 3 more mths!!

everything's been good recently. just the sulking fact tt im turning 20 in abt another 7 days which is abt in a week's time. Not longer a teen anymore. Am going into another scary stage of life of marriage/family/babies/work. oh gosh. What am i ranting abt anyway, i have longed drifted apart from the stage of being a teenage.

Had a great weekend w/ him. lemmi do another recap on wkend.
i knw im just plain lazy t blog.

::Saturday::
He came t pick me up at abt 2? His mom came and drove us back home. lil arguement araised. However it was resolved. =) we went Century Sq and caught Phantom of the opera! Being a music-lover i'll give it 5 popcorns out of 5. hees. The girl who acted Christine was really pretty. Kenn was complaining that her vocal was low. Oh man. Get a life. It aint a play its a movie! Still, we enjoyed ourselves =) Century Sq really had a massive renovation. It was really cool. However you can still see alot of shops are still under renovation. After the show we went t walk around thinking of buying new yr clothing. We went for dinner at BK and he left home for teaching. Kenn is having a student t coach every saturday. He is teaching over at SMU every Tuesday and Thursday. (i think) Im really glad that he is teaching.

He left and i spent 3 hrs shopping around TM & CS. Bought a White Sleeveless cheongsam top for the 1st day of new yr. Freaking 30bucks can. Agnes said it was alright but i felt its a lil ex thou. Bought a beige Handbag and the freaking shop doesnt have NETS so i phoned him and ask him t bring money over. im not a dominating gf, he is supposed t come and pick me up. Neymind, he bought me the cutest hippo in the world from guardian!!! YEAHH!!! 2 yrs of courtship and he had never bot me any soft toy!! He really made me a happy girl when he offered t buy it for me. =) yes i was grinning from ear t ear. We left CS and headed t swensens for ice cream!! i Had minty mint and he had some chocolate thingy. I didnt stay over cuz he is meeting his frds so he sent me home.

::sunday::
tt guy slept at 7am in the morning cuz he was out whole night. But he kept the day for me and skipped his Thomson Practice for me. +grins+ imma happy girl agn. He came t pick me up at 3 and we left for parkway. Went john little and he bot a red shirt for new yr. NICE!! We walked around and landed up our ass in mc. We shared the prosperity meal and im loving the fries. He bot his 6600 at 370 nett. The shop guy conned us. He told us he is selling at 410 and after trading in of his 6510 he only has t pay abt 350. Who knws he told us there is a GST charge. Bloody swine. He is the happiest boy tt day. Cuz i bot nothing and he bot a shirt and a phone. Then we left hme for dnr and saw kungfu hustle and the day after tmr. Kungfu hustle was crapped. totally nt worth watching. I dont knw but i just didnt enjoy myself. we didnt even finish the shw and we switched t watching the day after tmr. Tt show was happening. Thinking tt it might happened t sg really chills me down t my bones and spine.

Daniel came up with sumthing agn ytd. He asked mi in his office and handed me this paper with some target thingy. I guess he wants t monitor the calls tt i made. But right nw im helping agnes with some admin stuff wad. oh wells. Nw tt agnes is back, I hope tt he aint gonna cut my pay agn or what.

im suffering from some pre-exams stress and breakdown or break out or wadevaa. My gm gave me 50 bucks for my bday, tsk! how do u like tt?

Jie jie cindy and unker philip wedding is approaching, im so excited and i hope tt he is invited t go. alright. im outta words.

signing off`

da-girl-is-out`

`[ Good Bye 2004! Welcome 2005!!

2005-01-03T11:24:00.000+08:00

Im saying bye-bye t the disasetrous 2004.

1) Bird Flu
2) Huang-na's incident.
3) babies were thrown down by maids
4) Tsunamis struck
5) attended my frds' dad's wake.
6) attended agness' mom's wake.
7) my bf's frds' died in a car accident.

how overwhelming one is being hit by all these issues in just 365 days.

Thou im just really really thankful t the Lord above that none of pple i know are injured but the truth is everyone were affected by it. Fireworks were cancelled. New yr countdown is not as anticipating and looking forward to anymore.

Where is the love?

Our Mother nature just had t let this happen 1 week b4 the arrival of yr 2005. what does it says? Mother Nature just aint very happy with her pples. SHe is teaching them a lesson.

"Have mercy on us."

Looking at the numbers of death, keep on increasing and i just pray hard that those victims will be lead t the gate o heaven and join the One above t sing and merry. Please watch over pple you loved from above and give them the strength and courage to carry on with their lives. Was reading past 2 days newspaper. There were this women who have lost her memory. She speaks merely english but sometimes she does murmur language that the pple there could not understand. She only vivdly rmbs her name and she came with her bf for a holiday. The only way is t wait for pple t report lost and the only way t recognise her was the tattoo on her leg. A girl got hit and was injured in the tsunamis became an orphan. Her parents died over there. A japanese boy lead the resecurer t look for the body of dead father. Now, How sad is tt? My <3 goes out t them. May the dead rest in peace and the live cherish each new day.

Edit
[i just typed a whole chucked on wad i did during xmas and the kuku-fied blogger just has t delete everything away. damnit! sorry, too long t retype. anyway i had a wonderful xmas celebration and i hope u peeps did too. =)]

Order of the Night
His- Pork ribs(complete meals)
Mine- breaded Chicken(complete meals)
Pizza
calamaris & scallops
banana fudge milkshake

we were damn full and couldnt finish the pizza. Next sebastian came t pick us up and then his frd, Oliver and we headed t suntac for a movie. Wells Wells, i wanna watch Phantom but someone saw alr. So yeah decided on Meet the fockers. Ended up we went t lido for the show. Suntac werent much of a crowd so does orchard. hell yes. it was kinda quiet and so-not-happening but alot of polices were seen. caught a 12 15am shw and meanwhile we just hang ard and oh wells, they bumped into their st pats jnrs. so im kinda extra but thks for Oliver, we managed t speak abit. so not so bad afterall. I'd give the show 5 popcorns out of 5 cuz it was really funny and entertaining. Too bad its an NC-16 shw. Lotsa dirty jokes man. Im still looking t watch phantom thou. hEess heard it was really gd show. *winkss* The show ended abt 2 and the guys decided t grab a bite so we landed up at raimah. The coffeeshop at kembangan near kenn's plc. Dilly dally till 4 then we reached home. Its 4 am! slept at 4 30am and next day still a long day . . .

New Yr Day! (saturday)
Kenn's parents invited my parents over for lunch. It was supposed t start at 12 however it ended up starting at abt 1+. Yeah, jie jie elaine and family were late. Kenn's mom didnt speak much t my parents but his dad did. At least nt so bad. I had t stay around and acompany my parents just in case they are bored or they need sumthing. However im really glad tt it didnt really turn out tt bad. =) Then dad sent me t sengkang cuz i gotta attend agnes's mom's wake. I met michela(my ex-colleague) and im quite relieved that after an hr + conversation we managed t cheer agnes up abit. I guess this is the least tt we can do for her. Left abt 4+ and we headed to compass pt! hees. It was kinda alright. Like TM!. then mich's left and i trained hme alone. The joourney was abt 1 hr and im drained upon reachg his plc. He was playing mahjong and wasnt giving me much attention. Like wads new right. Jie jie elaine stayed till abt 9 and they left. tt was late. then we turn in at abt 10. Really tired.

Sunday

Woke up early and went mass at holy family with his parents and sister. Then headed for katong for the very-nice-chicken rice. The soup came with corn and chicken feet and carrot. It was really freaking good. I wanna eat agn!! hees. Then His dad send him off t camp and we headed t orchard centerpt. Kaoss it was damn freaking crowded. They having some sales around everywhere balls. Saw flying dutchman and snap him. will put up when im free. Going around looking pants for his dad. I think i better control kenn's diet. Sooner he wont have any pants t wear anymore. Wanna shop for steph's clothing but ok. cant find size and the deisgn she likes. Fussy. Then walk here and there and finally i get t taste the foldover chicken thingy from mc. it was inda nice. then we waited outside the taxi-stand wanna see kenn's COG. It was pouring really heavily ytd. Infact it was raining the whole day. Damn! I was being told tt they had a change of program so he wont b marching then i see him holding a t-bone and march dwn. -lol- then we march dwn with them t the car and headed dwn t parkway t pick up Oli and serene. Then after sending us hme, his dad still went all the way back t ngee soon t fetch him hme. Then finally had our dnr saw Ocean's 11 and hit the bed!!!!

wad a fruitful weekends.

`sleepy Thursday

2004-12-23T11:21:00.000+08:00

+yawns+ am so slpy. Hees. Daniel is outta office. Here i am slacking big time *beamss* tmr my office will be having a mini celebration for xmas, gonna have super yummilicious xmas lunch buffet!! hees. sounds good right. Its divided among ourselves. Wells, still looking forward t the food. i realised tt i have really put on a lil wt these few mths. how???!! this is so terrible. I cant resist food. Gosh Gosh Gosh!!!

Sumwhat, im not tt ecstatic like a child anymore. This morning was listening t 98 7 on my way t work. Heard the conversations between Daniel & Grace. Grace was saying that she doesnt believe in the magical christmas anymore. While Daniel being the more positive one keep giving hopes t Grace. I was actually pondering the words that Grace said. " y is Christmas only the giving seasons? What cant we give it any days any time and must be at Christmas? Do pple actually buy gifts frm the heart or its just an obligation t buy them gifts just because they bot you urs?" wells, i guess its rather true. Gifts can be bought at any time but y on Christmas? Didnt you love them less on normal days and only love them more on CHristmas? kinda, logicial yeah?

I bot a 512mb Astone Mp2 player for my boyfriend. I knw thats what he wants. I feel happy when i see that smile on his face. It makes me happy cuz i made him happy. I didnt wanna buy tt for him due t my own budget, however the power of love made me do so. Sometimes i do hope that he have tt kinda strength within him tt makes him wanna do more for me. I cant helped but keep questioning myself is it worth it. All i can say is that i love this boy plenty alot. i am willing t do all these for him. but wad abt him!? im not saying he doesnt love me much. Im just appreciate the fact that im loved and loved in return. At times im often confused by his actions. Like he can say he doesnt wana cancel the date w/ his frds cuz he made them weeks ago, and yet he could cancelled our date tt was made several weeks ago. Nw tell me where do i stand frm here. 26th is just a day after Xmas, i was thinking tt we 2 cld spend some really sweet time tgt. He's holding a party at his plc, his friends are in the list and sadly, i dont see any standing plc for me. Whenever i tried talking abt this prob with him, he will give me excuses saying that he had sacrified his weekend with me, wad more do i want. Yes, he is right. He spent both his weekend with me. But lemmi tell u this, most of the time he spent was on his Computer chatting with... his friends, going for band practise. Meeting up w/ gabriel. Now tell me how much time he spent with me.

Im not comparing neither am i ranting.

i just do not understand. Is this the way love was meant t be between 2 or we have already come t another stage of r/s?

its so scary that im beginning t lose my grip on certain issue. I lost my balance and often wanted t lead astray. I dont knw whether its i dont get as much attention/love tt i wanted or im just being demanding. i dont want t conclude. Im running away from it.

Often i turn t my frds when the emptiness in me starting t develope, its eating me in and im scared. i wanna leave sg for a period of time. But i dont see myself going with him. any1 but him. sometimes i really do feel that we are v different. we are trying so so hard t accomodate and change each other. But at the end of the day, are we happy?!

i see jamie willing t take the distance and travel all the way t dover just t spend sometimes with vict really moved me. mebbe being in loved for too long doesnt do us any good. It only give us the excuse t take one and another for granted. I love my family, my gm and gp my friends, my wrk mebbe and my boyfrd. But hw much does each and individual love me?

At times i dont talk, i am actually conversing t myself. Being in deep thots, it just makes me wanna run away frm everything. Including Him. He is willing t put me dwn and move on without me in his life, then y am i clinchin on t him like a leech? If he cant learn t love me. . .

i just dont want t lie t myself at times. that He doesnt see the same future as i did.

i dont wanna knw.. . . ..

*im dreaming of a white christmas. . .

2004-12-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

BEEEBOOO!!!

Knock off! still at office so thot of updating.

Hello diary! *smiles*
lifes been kinda alright for me. i mean, wad more can i expect. Real soon im turning another yr older. Just couldnt bring myself t accept the cruel fact tt im no more of a teenage but a greenhorn adult-t-be. Actually i dont really see myself as teenage anymore, not of those that kinda still dependent alot on the family and stuff. I literally made all the big and small decisions by myself. I do not consult my family unless its really really serious stuff i guess. But so far so good, everything is still managable within my control. =)

At times i do wonder t myself, who will be there for me if i ever needed. Am i a good frd t all my pals? Where do i stand among the clique? i really wonder. if its worth doing all the doings for that particular someone. I do admire myself at times but i realised most of the time i laff at myself for acting such stupidity and foolishly. *shrugs*

Time heals all wound.

At the end of the day, everything comes t an end. Whether you like it or not, its over and get done with. glazing thru the window of the mobile bus 87, i miss my childhood days the most. Now then i knw wad its like t grow up. Can i just say that, i dont fancy it?

Lots and lots of thots running thru my mind.

But i swear tt i am going t be a better person as time goes by. I knw that i will and i can.
i thank God for bringing me t this earth.

I love you!.

*muackssss

*this is a season t b jolly. . .

2004-12-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

FALALALALAAaa LALALALA!!

yozzz yozzz tingg's in the house yo!!
im slacking big time in office. thou there is like 11230230123 issues waiting for me t solve but i dont give a shittt!. -pffff-
kinda enjoying myself big time here.
Boss is not in so left me!
lilian went taiwan till 15th Dec.
Goshh.. i miss tt girll.

So the pathetic office left the pathetic few of us.
Its alright. Im kinda getting used to the pace and shit here.
Damn it!!!. oopseh getting alil notti here.

just bot a not so new 7200.
anyhoos im loving it! heess...
xmas is coming.
yet im so broke. hais.
i wanna change specs and go cut my hair.

wheeee. nobody's listeningggg...
nothing to update.
ciaoss

one word: speechlesss`[

2004-11-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

hello world =D i knw its been agess since i blog. but hey! who cares abt my damn life. Yeah, its d oh-so-low-and-down-spirit time of my life agn. i have hell lotsa thots running thru my mind. yet i cant seen t put them nicely into words t describle my feeling.

my boyfriend's parents and sister travelling t msia on the 26th. coming back on the sunday mebbe. He told me tt he invited his friend over t play mahjong on saturday. Yeah, tell me abt it. He asked whether wad i wanna do. i feel so down dirt cheap and worthless. He like dont give 2 cents abt wad im gonna do. More of wad HE gonna do with his bunch of friends. T b frank here, at times i feel so goddamn inferior t his friends. I had 1001 thots and yet 1 word sum it all up :speechless. I was actually picturing both of us indulging in our own world, having romantic dinner and all. but well, looks like its all just one-sided thinking. I think too much. Too much for him t handle at times. I cant helped. Bala my fucking cb's lect says tt when pple die, 95% o our brain is unused. So here am i trying my v best t make the full use outta it. Just in case this is my last entry and i have sumthing t pass on.

Nuff said.

i doubt he will ever knw hw i feel anyhoo.

Sometimes i just wish t emerger in the sea and swim freely w school and school of fishes. Enjoying the under water heavenly view of corals and fishes. *shrugss i cant even swim and cycle. but i love kayaking. i still rmb my 1st experience. I cant deny tt sumtimes i do miss the old days. how tt patient ass taught me t cycle. how we always argue whenever we see each other. how we always fight against each other. how he threw me into the water. . . somethings just cant b removed and denied. It just lived in yoo till the v day u die and yoo bring it t grave. =)) i guess memories are the best gift tt God has ever created for human. And i truly appreciate and thankful.

i still have whole chuck t write. i still wanna rant in this world of my own. but im really sleepy. goodnite world. blessed yoo t have a wonderful thursday. i just cant wait for friday to come.

i still love my boyfriend. i still love him very much.

"but how long will he love me?"

hi November`[

2004-11-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

its already the 2nd week of Nov'04.
How times flies. hasnt been updating eversince the last entry.
i've been to here a few times. [my posting entry] many of the times i want t blog and write dwn whole chuck o my feelings + thots dwn for d day. but whenever i come till this point, sumthing just pulled me back, refrained me from penning dwn. I dunno if the lazy half o me just doesnt wanna blog or my mind just literally went blank when i sat infront o my computer.

controvesy

im beginning t learn + t adapt + t accept certain things in life. It hasnt been a smoothing sailing weeks for me. i've attended a friends' dad's funeral. She is not any ordinary "hi-byes" friend. She is one o my close-iest pal in life. In my eyes, she had always been a v v strong and tough upfront. She never shed any tears easily. She is always tt cheery and smiling girl whu sometimes just add on alil o attitudez when she is havg her pms days. Her pms days can last her for a whole yr at times. so we are always v careful. She is v sharp in her language and she can te kan yoo anytime she likes. Her words are always full o reasons and sense so i guess tts wad made her our attitudez's leader, literally. i do look up t her attitude and drive in certain aspect at times. even those 3 days @ wake, i dont see her shed any drop o tears. I cant say tt i understand hw she felt, totally. As a matter of fact, i dont. I cant share her pain of losing her beloved father, i cant share tt heartache from deep dwn.

i was there after wrk on friday, tt was my 1st short visit. i didnt feel any emotional till the 2nd time we met up w/ the peeps and drop by tgt. I really really feel like giving her the biggest and most comforting hug tt she needs. i didnt. something is pulling me back agn. i guess im just too shy t express. i really hate it.!

i couldnt go for the departure as i was working on monday.
I pray tt the almight Lord has guided him t a heaven of joys and laughters for eternity. Blessed the family, the mother, kailun and her 2 brothers t be really strong and good health. Amen!

I love my family. I love my friends. I love my boyfriend.

I wish tt i could love each o them abit more.

*gravity`[

2004-10-28T15:40:00.000+08:00

gravity
embrace

HoneyIt's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Can you hear the sound?
Cause I can't stop thinking
And I don't look down
And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone
On everyone
Baby it's been a long time waiting
Such a long long timeAnd I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Oh can you hear that sound?
Cause I can't help crying
And I won't look down
And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I
On you and I

yoyoyoyoyoyoyo!! HOOOSAA!!
*smirks* OMGOMGOMGOMG. my template is so preeeetty ayes!?
HAHA! im slacking big time nw in office. chatting w/ mstankailun over msn as usual.
sadly her SIP is coming t an END!! i wan back my chatting kahkis at work!!
gosh* time just simply dont move when they are nt there.
i'll miss yoo girlss. *sniffdsniffs*

meeting the girls later for dinner.
but its @ 7pm. i think im staying here till abt 6 30. then proceed back t inter and wait for them. i dont knw if i can stay till this long cuz its oh-so-boringg.
my holiday break are coming to an end.
yes im whining. i drenched the thot of going t sku but i have no choice. yeah.
i so wanna get a mp3player. y isnt daniel increasing my pay!? im so hardworking here slogging my heart and soul out for him making appt and he din even show some mean of appreciation. wtf* -big sighs- i so feel like sleeping nw. my eyes almost closed. *phewss.. *

my ex colleague celine had just given birth t a babygirl.
congrats CELINE!
she name her dotter wei en. its oh-so-lovely.
i really feel v gay for her as she is having some problems with her womb. her baby inside just wont grow and thereafter she had t go for abortion. however, her bubbling and positive attitude touches the almight one above and inreturn earn her a pre-mature babygirl. wei en will only b back 1/2 more weeks. i cant wait t visit her and see wei en. alamak! must spend money agn. im so broke and i gotta spend so much in nov. then its xmas. BOSS CAN YOO PLS INCREASE MY PAY? I PROMISE I WILL WORK DOUBLE HARD ~~SLACKING~~ I MEAN WORKING. PLEASEEEEEEE!!! *innocent looks w/ tears in her eyes*

ehh! ive got hell load o songs t dl. damn!! can someone pls b my personal server?! BOOHOO!.! sadly tonight gonna give SI a miss. SInce im out w/ d girls so i assume tt i wun b back by 8 since we are meetg at 7. nvmmss. i still can watch fiona xie and her big breast. she is so busty! =)) i do find fiona pretty. im gonna name my dotter fiona. i was telling pei. she can be called as FI/FIO/FION/FIONA/NANA/FIFI. see! so many nick names. when she is a good darlinkk girl i'll pamper her FIFI. when she is nasty and a cry baby i'll cane FIONA!! when she is sick i'll b so dearly beside her taking care o my NANA. when her bf call i'll pass it t FIO. when her friend disturb her they will call her FLEE! haha (oops.! tts added) of cuz my darlinkk FION will always b my babygirl till the day her hair become grey and her skin starts t dye and get winkles all over. I'll experience tt 1st of cuz. But i'll love her just as much and my love for her will nvr die. =D

hey, wad if i gt a boy!? actually i wanted a boy more than a girl.; i just find d name ultra super sweet. =)) hmm i guess i would wanna name my boy ZAC/ZEN! woots. how cool. but he cant b an ah beng, else i'll sure kill him then disown him. he better dont go tattoo till he is 21 or old enuff t make his own decision. haha! okays. i hope tt they will get t read this sumday. will they?! nahh.. perhaps by tt time they HATE me to their core. sumtimes i really wonder will i b a gd mom.??!.. *ponders ponders??*

everyone is dreaming of tt perfect family.
tt family bond and tie tt binds the same blood tgt.
but how often do we actually put in effort t make it happen?
i came t realise sumthing.
i guess firstly yoo have t knw wad yoo want then t make it happen yoo just hafta fulfill it by doing it, means putting words into action. while toking to zx, i learnt tt he doesnt have someone close w/ him, sumtimes i dont understand how one can live w/o any close friend tt yoo can have heart t heart talk w/ inregards of issue, tt you can turn t in times of need and help. i find it so amazing tt he actually find it okay with him. i guess he is already used t d way his life is leading since young. Im surprised tt he told me tt he put his family as priority before others. Not much pple can actually do tt. But obviously he is lacking friendship. TRUE BLUE friendship. which i find it v sadd. i never knew tt i could have a bunch o friends t whom i can pour my sorrows t in times of good and bad. they never turn u dwn whenever yoo asked. (yoo knw who yoo are.) of cuz tt only apply t maybe 1 or 2 of such close girlfriend. the rest are nt so in dept w/ it. and wells. im alr v thankful for it. =)) i knw tt i've not wasted my time on earth all the while im fighting oxygen with the rest of the population.

its sucha comfort when your name is being mentioned infront of sumone and they said..."ahh..tts my friend."

but agn i believe that upbringing and family background does play a part in nuturing who yoo are. and tt comes with ur belief and faith.

*new template. .nice?!!

2004-10-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

BOO!
hees its 12.05AM nw. im still kinda widely awake!
its raining donkeys and horses outside nw.
feel so freezing cold in d room. shivers

im in a hippy gay mood nw.imma happy girll`
allow me t digress, am chatting w/ pei nw and she just made mi do this test.
http://http://www.chinapaint.com/eng/flash/colorandme_en.swf
and tts my results.
Do it if ure free. its kinda accurate for me in a way.=D

i kinda like stef sun's new song wo de ai.
i too like liang jing ru's jie shou.
this week had been relatively relax and slack.
just report back t work on monday and as usual.
'cept agnes hasnt been in good mood lately. she is so poor thing. she has so much problems on her hands. Those were during Mich's time issue. i really pity her whenever i look at tt pile o papers/reports/endorsements/ on her desk. she never really manage t clear 'em off. ohwells. i can see tt she is so unhappy working here. nevertheless, i managed t make her laff and im so proud. *HEEHEEs

time flies aint it? its already thursday and just a few days more my holiday break officially end. and i gotta go back t sku as usual on every mon and thurs w/o fail. bAHHHH!! how sucky can it get. its already the 3rd module by then. FAST! kev is no longer there. *CRIES i'll survive w/o him. i just pray tt the new batch will haf better pple t befriend w/. the last batch were really cocky lot. HELL YOO AUNTIES!! *frowns im getting sleepy now. he had gone t slp already and im missing him load. *sighs i cant wait for wkend t arrive. *GRINSGRINSGRINSS

HAA!! slightly sprine my foot tdy while on my way hme. Suffer an abrasion and its freakg bleeding and freaking PAINN!! okayss. but im alright guys. minor injury onlyy. bottomline, HEELS SUX BIG TIMEEEEE!!!!!!!

i'll continue tmr. my lappie connection suxxx...

chaoss and nites worldd!!

2004-10-26T16:54:00.000+08:00

if yoo walk pass me and see my tears, please look away. . . i dont want yoo to see me like this. . .

Spoken:]
People can take everything away from you
But they can never take away your truth
But the question is..
Can you handle mine?
They say I'm crazy
I really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
Getting boys is how I live
Some ask me questions
Why am I so real?
But they don't undersand me
I really don't know the deal about my sister
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago
Before I won this fight

[Chorus:]
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
that's my prerogative
(it's my prerogative)

It's the way that I wanna live (it's my prerogative)
You can’t tell me what to do

Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships really gets me down
I see nothing wrong in spreading myself around

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
That’s my prerogative

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
that's my prerogative

It's the way that I wanna live (it's my prerogative)
You can’t tell me what to do
why can't I live my life without all of the things
That people say oh oh

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
(they say I’m crazy)

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
(they say I’m use to)
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
(it's my prerogative)

breakaway `[

2004-10-19T13:29:00.000+08:00

wasssup worldd. . .
i guess i shall update alil on my new haircut.
alrighttee. it aint tt bad as initial cut it was.
i beginning t adapt t life looking like a kukufied zombiee w/ weird hairstyle walkg ard.
look, its nt like i have much o a choice.
yeah. i knw tt ive said tt once. nw im just sayg tt agn t sumhw remind myself.

ytd just done w/ accountg and i really pray hard tt e above r really watching after me.
now im slackg big time at hme tryg hard t get my arse t sit dwn n study real hard for IT.
+sighs+ i miss clubbinggg!!!!....
okayss. i shall nt whine. yes.

been out w/ zi and e girls lately.
ytd went ard sourcing for our ms tankailun's couzzins weddg gown.
but hais. shall nt elaborate. else later she tinks i suaning her agn.
once agn i meant no harm.
thou i might b a big time meanie most o d time but utimately i still love u guys the best. =))
sumtimes im really quite thankful tt ive a bunch o siaocharbos w/ me.
they are simple the best thing tt ever happened in my life.
6 yrs of friendship and still running strong.
"singss.. wadeva yoo where do i belong..."

i miss ktv-ing thou we just went i think 2 weeks ago.
but i still miss singing my lungs/hearts/butt out.
oh i seriously need a male singer for duet.
any takers? i realised tt nwadays guys cant sing for nuts.
other than danny. ok. nvmss. . . .

i've got an urge t just pack my stuff and roam ard t sumwhere where nobody knws me and start life afresh agn. let it b selfish. but im so tired o pleasing and sparing a thot for everyone.
and in the end i get all the shit and blame. it is time like this in life tt sux big time.
i used t think tt suicidie-tic(wadeva u spelled it) is lame and stupid. but i beginning t feel em and understand tt y did tt choose t die. cuz only death is the ultimately answer t everything which is nothing. ok nvm if u dont understand. at least ive stated dwn sumthing like here so just incase i din leave dwn any will the police will still have a clue on wad the fuck is gng on here.

im not any sadistic child thou i claimed my life t b one. im not much o a attention seeker child since young. but i guess im a person v full o pride and diginity. i guess there is a different.
standing here in a middle not knwing wad t do. sumtimes i really think tt consellor is all BULLSHIT. like as if they would feel wad u feel. most of d time i guess they just fake wadeva fuck they could and once putting dwn the phone will just bitch big time of ur issue.

sumtimes i still feel tt my life is a big incomplete puzzle and a huge qs marks.
i guess this is all a part and parcel life thingy. i really wanna heck care all shits and boundary and just b who i really am! but the qs is CAN I? i get too much of those things like "you're v selfish." "did u spare a thot for xxx" "you think tt pple dont care abt u but did u care abt them?" im sick o arguging this issue with YOU over and over agn. all i wanna say is i've tried my best t juggle and im nt a saint who is able t spare a thot for everyone. im just an ordinary human who needs some space and doesnt likes t b bossed and told o wad t do. i had too much of those so i really need to break away.

on a brighter note at least im still much thankful tt i am healthy and strong.

i need t lose some weight.

bad hair cut`[

2004-10-14T13:34:00.000+08:00

bad hair cut`[

im extremely grumpy eversince ytd.
went t had a new hair cut and sadly it turn out totally sux.
ohwells. =(( its really sad. sad sad sad sad

anyhoos. thks zi 4 ur companion. =)
truly appreciated.
bot a new tshirt frm bossini ytd.
like it quite alot. anticipating there will b hell lot o pple wearg d same tshirt as me.
who gives a darn anyhoos.

they are sellg really cheap + cute halloween tshirts then this remind me tt halloween is approachg. sounds really kewl yeah, but over here who cares abt tt. *pouts
-tricks or treats?-

i seriously need alot o consultation on my hairdo now.
i changed the parting and it sumhow looks alil better t me.
zi said perhaps i shldnt cut my finge till so short.
but hell. wadd can i do nw. -~~fuck it~~-
i guess sumtimes i just need a lil comfort or a hug from [him] whenever i get upset.
i think tt would b a really swt gesture t do.
but i guess he is just like tt. wadeva situation popped up i will just hafta console myself and think of e solution. i just hope tt he can b a lil more nice when such stuff happens instead o scolding me. its my hair. i feel hurt too yeah. u cant feel how painful i was. but hell.
nevermnds. its just hair. and im so fuckg upset over it.
it will grow agn TINGTING!! cheer up!.
*sighs
tts all i could do t make myself feel alil better.

nthing much been gng on.
its just some crabb issues which i hope tt im nt misleading him or wad.

-inhales some air-
okays. im too ashamed t go out 4 lunch so my dearly agnes is buyg back.
so we're lunchg in. =)) tt makes things alil better.
they said nthg wrong w/ my hair.
just tt can see i cut my finge short. *poutssss
okayss perhaps im a lil paranoid.
but they still cant tell e diff cut i tied up my hair.
okok. this hair thingy is really bothering me.
been whining to hell lot oo pple abt my hair. i guess i shld stop.

on a brighter note, my hair inregards o texture or quality, is better now. =))
frizzy hair go to hell! haha.
my exams are approachg and im really scared n nervous. gosh!
hate e thot o it but i haf got no choice...

hmm been listeng to penny dai's -fang kong dong.
i really like this song.
i sumhw still cant relate yet. izzit cuz i havent found wad im lookg for!?!
hmm.. *shrugs* =))

i miss mambo-ing. dammn!
i wanna slim dwn!!! damnn!
i wan go tanning... darmmn!!!!>
i wan more ktv... DARMMNN!!!
i wan eat sushi!!! darmn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. shall stop here.
chaos

imma happy girl, again =))` [

2004-10-11T13:30:00.000+08:00

imma happy girl,again =))` [

hello worldd!! *shoutsoutloud*
its MONDAYYY!!.
owells owells. this monday aint blue. =))
came t work frm [his] plc.

was in a quite devastating mood earlier on.
I must say tt love does cure all illness.
Spent a supa marvellous weekend with [him]
+GRINSGRINSGRINS+
[he] nvr failed to make me smile =))

he surprised me by fixing up e dvd/vcd player in his room, so tt we can watch movies tgt.
i guess at times i dont need [him] t do a whole lot for me.
but just this lil' small gestures tt really made my day.
tts how simple and innocent i am.
wellsss wadd can i sayy. . .
but simplicity rawks my worldd.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*roars*

[Saturdayy]
woke up pretty early @ abt 9 +.
Studied abit, bathed and head dwn to Peace center t visit my skin doc.
bot my medi then headed dwn t cini n meet up w/ d gals.

went kbox w/ kai/zi/qy. woot!
5 hrs spent in kbox were fantastic.
time just passes so fast like an instant snap o fingers.
TADAHHH!!! its 7!!!.
it was quite fulfilling. note e word -quite-
BAHAHA!
headed dwn to scotts for our dnr.
we had some serious human jam prob coming out frm cini.
it just suck t e max!
pple just simply wont walk therefore e crowd isnt moving.
Just dont understand y they setup those shitty stalls n block e darn path t walk.
sooo packd just simply cannot stand it.!
-pfffftttt-

Finally we're outta cini after struggle for abt 1/2 hr in cini just to get out!.
LIME mag were havg some functions there and so tt explains the flow of human being.
thot where all e human beings came abt.
learnt frm stephy tt she went too.
ayess but they din got the laneyard. else they stand a chance to win 500bucks balls.
good money yeah.

reached scotts fdcourt still gotta wait.
spent 1/2 o e time waiting.
finally gotten a seat.
this poor lady. 4 o us against her.
Can see she really cant wait to finish her food and leave.
HAHA. we were nice pple k.
*gulps* i am i knw. *BEAMSBEAMS* hehe.

had a great bonding/crapping/biatching/laming/laffing session as usual.
with qy around, how could we nt have fun laffing at some really lame jokes.
Nonetheless, i enjoyed the outing as much as before. =))
its still the best to have ur old pals ard.
im glad tt i have yoo peeps w/ me thru out my good/bad times.
not forgetting zi. Having her back w/ us its one o e most rewarding and precious gift from e above.
-thks Lord for making everything happens.-

We were being cheeky and nasty and L O U D.
i think we really have no image at tt point o time.
we were laffing so hard and loud.
wells... not surprising. its w/ e girls. *winks*

some confession to make.
we were checking out this guy sitting next t our table.
he has a really kewl and sunshine look and we just cant help but noticed him.
he was holding x66. haha. ohmydarlinkk used to like e phone.
i think we were rather obvious and he actually did turned and look at us.
ohnevermindsss. . .
aside frm tt, we still had a helllotofa good time.

afterwhich, took bus 7 w/ qy and head to [his] plc.
his frds were ard for awhile and left.
talkd to serene for awhile then we both just watch movie till we got bored and fell aslp.

[sundayy]
woke up 10+ and had breaky w/ him b4 he left 4 his botanic garden performance.
[he] is always e swtest + nicest one who helps to make my breaky for me.
=)) tt really made my day.
So decided to return the DESOUZE a HUGE THANKFULNESS by helpg them to wash all the bowls/plates/cups and put it back nicely inside e cupboard.
it was really fulfilling. Look at the kitchen so sparkly clean!. hehe.
now who says tt i wont make a gd housewife???
then back to his room and pack his stuff then found his discmen for him.
made the bed and went to bathe.
Started to mug at noon till his sis came back and started to share her LIME bash experience w/ me. crapped/joked awhile then she left e room and i MUG agn. Till late afternoon she came in agn then she started buweeeing my kenryan! i think i must buy/create a home safe protection for kenryan. She just wont stop buweeing kenryan!. *poutss
then we saw bringiton. afterwhich i went out to use the comp and she tagged along and so i surrender to her and we playd some lemonade game till dnr time.

Had a wonderful dnr as usual as before. =))
his mom made chicken rice! yumsyums.
-yummilicious-

i guess im alr beginning t adapt t stay over at his plc w/o him around.
im beginning t feel really comfy stayg over at his plc just like my own.
im beginning t feel tt im a part o e family. =))
i guess its a great thing.
i just dont wish to have anymore hipcups in our r/s anymore.
i like things e way are now.

he came home at abt 9 plus and i was really surprised.
then he told me tt he skipped his phil winds band prac for me and tt really touched me.
i knw tt im IMPORTANT t him!!!
tt just made me wanna love this guy more. *GRINS

how can i not sucha swt sugar boy like him?
when he came back n told me tt he misses me and gave me tt kiss on my lips just made me felt like e most happiest woman on earth.
who cares abt ~~gifts~~?
who cares abt ~~food~~?
who cares abt ~~money~~?
i just wan time t standstill till we are old and grey and still has each other to hold on to.
keeping the very same faith and belief like now and i knw tt we'll b strong.

I guess with serene and steph ard im nvr lonely. =))
i knw i can always turn to them for leisure. hehe.
Toking to serene at times can b v inspiring.
It just makes yoo wanna b a better person for [him]

but when things gets too fine and smooth,
something else will bound to happen.
i guess the almight one just wanna mould me into a better + beau-ti-ful women.
im suddenly thankful for everything tt happens and no longer felt so imcomplete.

"its easier to believe with you beside me now. i love yoo my honey sugar coated sweetie pie"

and im missing him so badly now at work.
and missing my attitudez!

Digressed, i will not b having any lessons frm tdy onwards!
hippy yaya!! hippy hippy ya!!
i can watch double happiness 2 everydayy!!!.
this is so exciting. *beamsbeams*
my boss approved my 1whole weeks of study leave!
but i hope tt he wont deduct my whole week's pay. else tts really quite pathetic.

i declare my pms and moodswings is offically OVER!
the same happy and cheerful and crappy and lame ting all over agn.
CHEERS*

*ilovemyone&onlychouchoudarlinkkpigpigsoooooooooomuchy*
*ilovemyattitduezgalstothemaxandtillthedayidie*

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2004-10-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

[fill in d blanks]

Its been 2379242343204 years since i update my blog at home.
Due to the extreme bleeding o d monthly discharge i guess tt cld sumhow rather explains my moodswings.

spinning gui ji by jay zhou now.
im supposed to hit t books but im nt.
im a lil dwn and upset.
but i guess i'll b fine real soon. =)) *cheers!

He wanna leave sg t KL t study 4 2 yrs right after his ORD.
i hate him t leave. i DONT WANT him t leave.
However i guess my say dont mean much. so yeah. *shrugs
i dont have a say at all.
wadd am i supposed t say t b tt selfish.
if i hurdle him in anyway t pursue his career i guess tts rather selfish o me t do.
but, wadd am i supposed t do??

things between us din go so well.
after he told me tt he is leavg sg for gd t KL.
t b frank here half o my world crumbled.
i ought t trust in this r/s.
i ought t have faith in us/him.
but y do i still feel so uncomfy o tt idea?
if its selfish o me t ask him nt t leave,
then by leavg sg for KL t study doesnt make him seem selfish?

my exams are approaching therefore less time for us to meet.
*dear lord, pls give me some faith to continue. i need some advice and truth frm yoo t tell me wadd t do. im so so helpless right nw. yet i do not feel like giving all these up. but sumwadd a part o me is telling me tt he might nt b t -right one- 4 me, another part is saying "YES! he is!" wadd am i suppose t do? im nt comparing and complaining lord, but other bf did so much t their gal.im nt saying he din do enuff. but i dont feel tt essential t him. n everytime t thot o tt just makes me cry. i knw tt i couldnt handle t heartache o him leavg me. i felt as thou i lost him agn. dearest almight lord, will wishes come true? will it really come true?? wad do i hafta do t make 'em come true?? can yoo make my wish come true?? plsssS??? just one??? plsss???*

sometimes im wondering tt my life seems sucha joke.
im like a fool tt keeps falling back into d same track.
im sick/tired o crying. i hate t see d looks after sobbing.
its simply uglyy. wells. i knw even without sobbing im alr tt ugly. but it just makes it even uglier. oh wadeva...

im outta track. i just remembered.
3 mths ago when i was takg my exams we broke up.
i had to go thru wadeva emotional torment and go 4 my exams.
things always happens at d wrong time i suppose.
just my luck.
perhaps sumtimes i shld b more frank t myself.
find myself a better guy.
stop doing so much for him. perhaps he never appreciated.
perhaps he never did.
if im tt burden t him in any ways im really sry.
however i guess im nt even tt t him. im nothing. =))
i will b fine. i really will.

i think o my life as a v sadistic/pathetic one.
who would have t expose n work just t survive at d age o 18?
ever experience these nights where u just too fearful o going back to work the next day and cried yourself to slp everyday?!
ever had pple nt appreciating wadd yoo had done 4 them?
cried at work after being yelled by ur boss?
colleague distest yoo for god knws wad reasons?
contribute ur pay t e family just t keep it running?
had t work t save up for ur sku fees?
had t work for 3 meals?
its all started at the age of 18.
i think im v tough. v v tough.
i vow to give my children good life laters.
i vow to bring them up well and b a gd mother/wifey.

at times i just really hate my parents.
partly for wad they had put me thru
partly for being so money minded/grabber
partly for failed to take gd care o me and my bro.
partly for failed to b a understanding and nice parents.

Yes im whining as if the whole world owns me a living.
but 1st of all have they ever been in my shoes and think on behalf o me for just a second?!
thruout all the cranky fights they had/ quarrels. those yelling/screaming. . .
i almost gone bonkers.

friends at my age are studying and leading better life.
they have their parents to turn to in terms o financial support.
they have them to tok to if they met w/ probs.
wad abt me??
if i knew tt living were sucha pain i wouldnt even wanna b here in d 1st plc but do i have any choice???
then agn i have no say.
i really pity myself. Despite of my condition, some o them doesnt understand they may find me extreme and auntie. but look. i have to feed my own mouth/ myself. if i dont take care o myself then no one else is there to take care o me.
and when i took care o pple i got accused and this is so darn disappointing and depressing.

whenever i see my friend indulge in themselves by buying new stuff im filled with envy.
whenever i see my friend's bf bought sumthing 4 them without them asking im filled with envy.
whenever i see my friend's bf waited for them im filled with envy.
whenever i see my friend's bf being so swt and thotful im filled with envy.
whenever i see my friend's bf sharing his v own food with my friend im filled with envy.

then i ask myself hw come i dont get all tt?

my bf is v nice to me. but i dont want sum1 who only think of themselves and not me.
at times i feel tt he thinks too much o himself and his friends.
he can actually took sumthing and after 2 yrs then he told me he is d one.
then he never thot tt wadeva do i need tt thing at tt point o time?
he is so selfish. so so selfish.

then i ask myself y do i still stick with him then???

"lord. pls save the lost lamb."

Its October `[

2004-10-06T13:03:00.000+08:00

Its October `[

"its facsinating how fast a month just vzoom by so quickly without any warming so sign"

-takes in a deep deep breathe-
My exams are approaching in 2 weeks time.
time for mugging!!

Gonna start with IT 1st as there is way too much memorising stuff to absorb.
Accounting gotta prac and as for management gotta ask tips frm john.
Im really quite terrific tt i might just nt even pass my sup for my management.
This is getting a lil worried here.

I guess my 1st module results really hit me hard on my face.
i've learnt that yoo sow wadd yoo reap.
Bahhh!!! it just suck to take sups alrightts.
yeah! tell me abt it balls.

I missed zouk! i seriously missed clubbing.
Bad news is tt instead of losing weight i actually gained 3 kg.
hell yes. its time to burn some fats now.
*sings: let it burn. . . let it burn. . .*

just gotta my pay ytd and im a happy gal nw.
cuz can go see my skin doc. finally.
perhaps some cash left for shopping!!
was telling agnes ytd tt im gonna start buying xmas pressie. =))
hopefully tt i can get sumthing for everyone.
but sumhow i felt kinda sadd cuz i dont earn as much as b4 nw.
wad im takg each month nw i see it as an allowance than more of pay.
its PATHETIC!!!!

can writing list down on wad to get for the clique. =))
or rather mebbe i could make something for 'em provided i have the time. hees
i wanna make candles for everyone butt. hmmm it seems hard.
i dont have the equipment and all tt. i really fancy candles. its so lomantic.
oh! im a sucker when it comes to lomantic.

Examination period:
-18th oct Business Accounting
-21st oct Fundemental of IT
-23rd oct Business management (sup)

This is hell man!
imagine if i had worked harder perhaps i'll b takg 2 papers only just like the others.
*sighs* i guess i only have myself to blame. owelllsss.

sunday went over to susu's hsewarming and her apartment really blew me off.
its just spectacular! i was tellg them if i ever had a chance to stay in a condo im gonna go home everyday after work. not gonna anywhere. its so comfy and cosy. but i guess i wont have that kinda chance till i married to a rich husband. but i doubt so.

things between kenn and i are getting better and improving.
we are meeting quite often and less quarrels arise.
however sumtimes i do still wondering whether if it is a mistake to b tgt back with him agn.
i wont say he doesnt cherish me, he does butt. . . *shrugs*

im really happy for melissa tt she had found herself a hunk.
i see her eyes sparkles whenever she toks abt her bf.
i guess sumthing certains are better not to be judged too early.
for u never might knw wads gonna happened. ohwells.

I look at myself sumtimes and tell myself tt i shouldnt have such low confident of myself.
i am actually quite not bad wad. -laffs- okok. i guess the gals are puking nw.
i just gonna b a better person as time goes by.
i knw i will.

its a peaceful wednesday. Daniel left his office at abt 11 and nw im skiving agn updating my blog.
i guess i found my inner self agn. i felt peace and i needa lose weight!!! gosh* 3kg. how on earth could i put on 3 kg. i think later when i go over to my grandma's plc im gonna weight agn.
cant take the blow man. i dont wish to change my whole wardobe of clothings thou i wanted to but no cash.

i want a suga daddy!!!....

moodswings `[

2004-10-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

moodswings `[

I PASS MY MARKETING!!

mahjong rockss `[

2004-09-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

mahjong rockss `[

This is a happy entry! wheee`. . . =))
i get to spend time w/ d attitudez gals! bAHHH!~

After work went hme changed then met up with pei and we went shopping in GIANT!! yippy!! -happies- we gonna have dnr at ocs plc!
Bot:
-korea la mian
-crabstick
-hotdogs
-otah nuggets
-fishball
-cai sim
-vitagen
-2 pkgs o crackers

hees. FEAST! Reach ocs plc after a big hurdles! haha. shall nt mention wad happened!.
lets keep it btw ourselves yea pei?! *winkss
ANyhoos, bumpd into shanshan at inter. Lookg good babee'.
short chat and run after bus66.
luckily i still got some slight ideas which stop to drop. then after a big HOO HA!
we finally gotten her plc. Her sis was hme eatg the same la mian oso. lolss

Crappd for awhile then kai and clar came. Soon we started cookg the gourmet! haha.
its was really fun cookg tgt for everyone. =))
kai and clar made noodles for us. i heat nuggets and hotdogs for them.
the preparation took us kinda long roughly abt 1/2 hr - 45 mins.
Finally they'r done with pei and my noodles so we ate 1st else its gonna get cold.
Then their done at abt 9.

Real soon we get our arse dwn and started playg mahjong.
woot! it was a really GREAT game. and im sayg tt nt becuz i won k.
Practically every1 had their equal shares of wins.
but the most hilarious stuff would b "clar-d-joker"
inorder to teach both her and pei hw to play the "RIGHT KIND" of mahjong, it actually creates some AWNSOME jokes tt shld b kept between ourselves.
The scale of funny is 11/10. i actually fell off frm my chair and ended up on the floor and still cldnt stop laffing. tt was a GD one CLAR!

Yooo better learn frm the mistakes ytd!

goshs! so maluating! haha dont worry! i wont tell d story.
For those who are nt present its just too bad.
BAWAHAHAHAHAH!!!

ALrightSss! i aint tt mean still. its a sleepyg wed.
slept at 12 30 ytd.

Anyhoos. we are meetg up for another round of mahjong on FRIDAYY! =))
*gees*
wish mi luck!
im gona get some money for my monday lunch and mebbe even dnr. haha

its' my life`[

2004-09-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

its my life `[

once in a while, i get scared and stumble upon every lil' thots. i missed being my oldself.

sometimes im just so SICK o being me.
sometimes i just wished tt tings were much easier.
sometimes i wonder of wad tmr could bring.
sometimes i wanna just RUN AWAY
sometimes i wish tt i cld DIE!
sometimes i sing my lungs out
sometimes id cry or tears when i thot o sumthing.
sometimes i feel tt the pple ard me dont understand me enuff. but do i understand em' totally?!
sometimes i feel u n w a n t e d
sometimes i feel u n l o v e d
sometimes i feel j e a l o u s y
sometimes i feel l u n a t i c
sometimes i feel s e n t i m e n t a l
sometimes i feel c r a n k y
sometimes i feel so [[touched]]
sometimes i feel so [[cared]]
sometimes i feel so -abandon-
sometimes i just wanna DANCE e nite away
sometimes i just wanna HIDE.
sometimes i just wanna LAUGH!
sometimes i just feel like throwg tantrum.
sometimes i just hope tt he is there for me
sometimes i just wanna b in his arms
sometimes i just want him to sing for me
sometimes i HATE e world.
sometimes i distest WORK
sometimes i HATE MYSELF
sometimes i dont LOVE MYSELF
sometimes i grumpy
sometimes i CURSE
sometimes i CUT MYSELF
sometimes i feel THE PAIN
sometimes i dont understand y?
sometimes i try to search for the answer
sometimes i CRY myself to slp at night.
sometimes im so low and dwn.
sometimes im so crappy/lame and cheery
sometimes i just feel tt i could b so much better
sometimes i feel tt im just a piece of shit
sometimes i have confident in myself
sometimes i do not have any
sometimes i feel so beau-ti-ful
sometimes i feel really uglyy.
sometimes i just wanna b alone.
sometimes i just wanna go out and have some fun
sometimes i like rainy days
sometimes i like sunny days
sometimes i wanna get outta HERE and go sumwhere else
sometimes i feel like startg AFRESH all over
sometimes i wish tt im a GUY
sometimes i hate myself for being a GURL
sometimes i do want to learn to cook
sometimes i do wish tt my other half would cook for me
sometimes i need attention from someone
sometimes i prefer to stay low profile
sometimes i feel like learng JIVE DANCING
sometimes i feel like learng hw to CYCLE
sometimes i feel like learng JAPANESE LAUG.
sometimes i feel like learng FRENCH LAUG.
sometimes i feel like learng KOREAN LAUG.
sometimes i feel like learng SIGN LAUG.
sometimes i feel like learng DRIVING.
sometimes i feel like learng DIVING.
sometimes i feel like a WINNER
sometimes i feel like a LOSER
sometimes i feel that the world OWN ME A LIVING
sometimes i feel like TTS LIFE.
sometimes i giggles to myself
sometimes i just sit dwn and stone
sometimes i HATE my family
sometimes i ADORE them.
sometimes i pity some pple.
sometimes i pity myself.
sometimes i feel tt im too kind-hearted.
sometimes i feel so sinister.
sometimes im a bitch
sometimes im refined.
sometimes i feel so accused.
sometimes i feel so innocent.
sometimes i feel so scared
sometimes i feel so unprotected
sometimes i feel so neglected
sometimes i feel so unappreciated
sometimes i feel so un-essential
sometimes i am v contradicting
sometimes im so so vain
sometimes i wanna dress nicely.
sometimes i just put on anything tt fits.
sometimes i love writing.
sometimes i get so restless to update.
sometimes i just SIMPLY LOST ALL MY DRIVE AND MOTIVATION AND HOPE.

i foresee myself at this point of time as a GONER.

i guess at the moment all i need was a lil rant. a lil peace, a lil hug and a lil concern.
i have absolutely no idea y at this point im so extremely down.
im supposed to finish my IT and accountg project by this week. and here i am sat infront of the screen, chatting with pei and playg game. i just couldnt get myself dwn to work. i lost everything to put myself back into piece agn.

i feel like crying. im feeling so depressed and sad. i cant even find a DARN reason for me to smile and make my day. My wimamps is playing all sorts of sappy sad love songs. im such a persimisstic(wadeva u spelld it). I feel the old ting is back. i still rmb when i was single when i wasnt out with e girls i'd stayd on and mesmerised myself with all the sappy sad love songs, facing the comp and chatting as well. And soon there goes my weekend.

I knw tt no one is perfect but i just dont understand hw can someone get so close to perfect. i maybe thinkg too much but sumtimes i really feel tt im so lousy.

whether it is to being:

- a frd

- a lover

- a daughter

- a granddaughter

- a sister

- a classmate

- a colleague

- a student

- an employee

i feel so crap nw. when will i ever b sumone good in terms of these aspect?

i guess even if 1 day when im gone no one would rmb tt they have sucha friend.

i always wanted to someone. tt everyone can rmb.
i guess i have failed to do so huh.

i always din like the idea of comparing. but sumtimes when i see serene i get so inferior of myself. She is so well-liked by everyone in his family and no 1 rmbs me. In their eyes, im always the insensible one, the "extra" ones huh.

i miss those times when i was in sku.
i miss those times when i was me and enjoy being me.
i miss those days when i was my daddy and mummy's girl.
i miss those days. . .

//i wish i was beau-ti-ful. . .

visitg ocs in SGH`[

2004-09-22T15:31:00.001+08:00

visitg ocs in SGH`[

poor ocs got admitted into SGH on monday nite.
went to visit her tgt w/ kai & zi ytd.
Went to NTUC and bought some fruits and tibits.
MEt zi and we traind dwn to outram.
met kai and proceeded to SGH.
Bumpd into her sis and her bro-in-law at the lift.

when we got there her polymates were alr there.
tt poor girl lookg so weak lying dwn on the bed half naked.
looking so sexy but weak.
The doctor diagniosed tt she is havg colon inflammation.
She just came out frm a almost 4hrs operation.

She is not able to take in any food or drinks by mouth in the meanwhile.
She is on drip and keeps moaning in pain.
it really break my heart to see her in such pain n theres nthing tt we girls can do for her.
cept tryg to crack some really lame jokes to make her laff.

Soonest, the polymates left and her aunt and grandma arrived.
The bro-in-law is supa funny. Keeps suang her.
She is so inseparable with her piggie or wadeva she called it.
Just calld her and thank God she is feelg so much better.

I got a terrible shocked when she phoned me and told me tt she is in SGH. life can b so fragile.

SPEEDY RECOVERY OCS!

For those who have seen this and nt able to visit her pls kindly do sumthing for her like *pray, *sms her* tag her blog or even *call her. i guess ur action would b v much appreciated by her. =)
Imagine she slept there for 2 stri8 days and no food and drinks. If i were her i guess i would very much wanted to b dead. KILL ME!!!! SHOOT ME!!!!!

Disgressed i hasnt been havg a good rest. Whole body is feelg so wore out. urghhh* Hectic week. Exams are approachg. yeah! this time better MUG HARD! HARD enuff to pass as at least. am gng hme to rest after work tdy. Might b visitg her agn on friday. Perhaps e ATTITUDEZ can come tgt it'd certainly b v nice. =) Budden agn, every1 is busy with their stuff.

At times i wonder, in times o need who are really the ones tt u can rely on and turn to. Out of 211 friends tt i have in friendster hw many really treated me as their friend. -shrugs-
perhaps i will never knw till im somewhere in heaven. Life's short, cherish every1 around. Yoo may nt knw what yoo have till yoo lost it.

visitg ocs in SGH`[

2004-09-22T15:31:00.000+08:00

extremely disappointed `[

2004-09-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

extremely disappointed `[

i flunkd my management exams. i got a F!
i so wanna die and kill myself.
This blow really hit me and tell mi tt
"tingting! time to wake up and MUG HARD!"

i got the message.
thanks to those who console me.
i just i wont just die yet.
im gonna sit and pass it. Hopefully i can and i will.
really disappointed.

Had another fantastic weekends.
Thou had to do my accountg project i still enjoyd =)
Thanks to *zhengxin and *zhenzhen for helpg.

friday after work went home and pack my stuff. Abt 6+ [he] came over and pick me up. we finishd the 7pm show then went over to [his] plc then on e way saw 'serene and 'oliver.
did abit of accountg then watchd sntc w/ him. Finishg season 4 soon. just 1 last disc to complete.
tt silly boy keeps playg tt mine game and he kept losing. slept and woke up on sat morng to do more o my accountg project.

woke up abt 11 30 then headed to the living room to watch meteor garden and do my project of cuz. he keeps complaing tt my lappie is heavy. silly boy!! tt arse is still slpg. he woke up abt 1 then we ate lunch and continue to do my project. meetg peeps for mike's and clar's bday celebration at jamie's hse. For the 1st time he is comg with me. -smiles- Im really happy and touched tt he agreed to go. He is changing =) !! +GRINSGRINSGRINS+

Bathed and changed and headed to bedok inter only to find [CLAR] there. owells, others were late. neverminds. we stand besides the phonebooth just like the phone attendance. The coin phone besides us were spoil then keep got pple using and we gotta keep repeatg tt its spoilt. irritating lorhs! soon [ocs] arrived. abt 6 15 kai came w/ mike and she pulld this long face then she walkd supa fast and she bought her k700i! +p0uts+ neverminds. i still gian my nokia7200.

took bus 38, as usual crappd along the way. =) and TADAH!! finally we are there. Saw >[qianyu] jamie and family. The mother was being v nice and kind to help us prepare the soup base and the ingredient. soon we started the warmg ATTITUDEZ reunion steamboat dinner! I guess tt dinner really did the bondg for all of us. It was sucha nice feelings to sit dwn and have a gd chat with ur pals catchg up on wad u've missed. owells. most of the time jamie did the tokg and the rest were quiet. no lah. actually we were all busy eatg. wahahaa. glutton piggy!

After dinner we took grp pix and headed to the living room to watch dvd. we saw confession of e teenage drama queen. a really agreesive dramatic fantasize movie. haha. Too bad it bored [him] so we left 1/2 hr b4 the show end and went giant for a short walk then headed home. Was supposed to go home early 6am cuz he is gng to help out gab's mom at queenstown then it was cancelled. -happy- haha something funny happened. i think i shall blog dwn.

Middle of the night we were slpg. Then his irritating phone keeps ringing if u din read ur msg. i hit him twice to wake him up then he finally woke up and sit up. i thot he has read the msg or gng to toliet so i went back to my beauty sleep. God Knows my silly boy FELL ASLEEP SITTING DWN! haha. so cute lorhs. Just like those lifesize bear tts display at the department store. then i wake him up then he went to the toliet and came back to slp. i almost forgot tt this happens till he reminds me. =) -beamsbeams-

Woke up 11am, bathd ate breakfast and head dwn to OLPS for 12 mass. It was nice as always then head home and rest. Had an early dinner at 5 cuz he has to go for philwinds prac. We had shephard pie/normal pei and salads. -yummyummm- then we left home. Had a cold war with him. i guess im just being a lil over reactg and too sensitive. However im glad tt everything turn out fine. =)

Calld him upon i gotten my results and he did encourage me. im just disappointed with myself i guess. i'll b fine peeps.

On my way to work this morng bumpd into jamie. its 5:30 nw. woohoo. gonna go toliet then head dwn to j8. hais. what a sad phrase of life to go thru.
pei is gng dwn to zouk on wed to see nelly's showcase. DARN! i so wanna go mambo!
he said no clubbg till i got my dip. hell mans.
He said he gonna buy mi a tiffany ring if i gotta my dip.
tts encourging but i knw he will nt do it. =)

//didnt yoo hear tt im gonna be okay.//

a penny 4 thots ` [

2004-09-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

a penny for thots` [

okayss. . . i admit tt im darn lazy to update.
sorry bloggy! *kisskiss- will try to do it frequent.

past few days was spent rather monotone and usual.
nthg has been really spicing up my life. *duhs-
Missed gng clubbg w/ d babes and chilling out tgt.
Glad to see tt every1 is kinda dng great and fine. =)

this entry is gonna b a penny for thot* kinda entry.
so just bear w/ me for awhile as i hasnt been in tt kinda state for d longest time.

last week while waitg for kai + mike @ bugis mrt ctrl station,
i joind in the crowd and stand next to those pple who were oso waitg for their frds to come and meet em at a corner of the ctrl station.
as i waited for the 1st 5mins, i begin to ponder. . .

As we were patiently waitg for 'em to come,
do we msg/call em to let 'em knw tt we are actually alr here which in turns hintg at them to hurry and get their ass dwn here or do we actually wait patiently till they arrive?
i mean, wad kinda catagory do u think u belong in!?!

I think im in the "pls hurry and get ur ass here." type.
and wells, i think im just not myself, i din msg her and rush her.
all i did was just stand there like a block and wait.
1001 thots are flyg ard my mind.

i saw one by one leavg yakkg away their buds,
i saw one by one leavg w/ d bf/gf holdg 'em so tight,
and then this hit me.

"what if the person u were waitg all along never show up?"

hmmm. . . i dont knw.-shrugs-

its fun to just stand there and observe those passerby.
some just take their own swt time to walk.
some rush like mad.
some were tokg on the phone.
some were listeng to radio/MD/discmen.
all kinds.

have yoo ever wondered how many kind of pple this world is made up of?
have yoo ever askd why are we who we are?
have yoo ever questiond y this is happeng to yoo and nt others?
have yoo ever grumbled y ones can nvr b perfect?
have yoo ever just sit dwn and think for a sec?
Have yoo ever had such thots in your head?

How do we tell pple's emotion by lookg at the surface?
can we really knw how's one is feelg just by lookg at the surface?

Do we actually care too much abt wads on the surface and not wads within!??

last dayy of lunar 7th mth ` [

2004-09-13T13:10:00.000+08:00

last dayy of lunar 7th mth ` [

bahh! how times fliess. . . ITS MONDAYY!* -yawns-
*boink boink* had a marvellous weekends w/ [him]
and nw here i am in office idling awayy. . .

anyhooss!

HAPPY 17th
BIRTHDAY
TO
KRYSTAL!!!
dunno if yoo'll ever get to read this . . .
butt. . . its still comes frm d bottom o my <3.>
No matter how bad your day is or hw lonely/unwantd or even neglectd u felt. . .
pls rmb tt every1 loves yoo. its all part n parcel o stage in life where we meet w/ bumps.
those bumps and hurdles actually helps yoo to experience life and see things clearer.
im sure ur pals treasure and cherish d friendships.
i've been there and done tt. i knw hw terrible it feels. ((huggles))
if u need some1 to talk im always here. =)
smile more cuz u look really beau-ti-ful when yoo smiled. *lovelove-

everyone is an individual and we wun b completed without tt someone out there to support us.

happy 2nd yr anniversary sweetieee*`[

2004-09-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

happy 2nd yr anniversary sweetieee*`[

. . .f i could have i wish. . .i wish tt i could grow old with yoo. . .

the day we found l o v e
the day we found -us-
the day we pledge our l o v e and committed ourselves.
the day we have each other to have and to hold
the day where ur hand found mine and mine found urs.
the day where we knw we'll gonna b tgt till the end of time.

and babyy u knw tt no matter wadd u'll have the whole of me.=)

Verse 1:
Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Verse 2:
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
Verse 3:
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the works of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
Verse 4:
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
Verse 5:
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cause who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete
Verse 6:
Well for Me, It's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place
Verse 7:
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
Verse 8:
And you're the place my life begins
and you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

l.i.f.e is good. . .`[

2004-09-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

l.i.f.e is good. . .`[

1st of all. . .*drum rolls*

just a belated happy bday to +[zhengxin]+
i knw yoo read my blog. -smirks-
thou i mms u alr, still felt tt i hafta need to mention.

happy 21st bday to zhengxin. . .

may all of ur wishes come true.
Have a speedy recovery and hopefully u'll b able to find ur "elva", live happily ever after.
lastly, may ur life blessed with love + happiness all the time.=)

and then. . .

happy 19th bday to pei. . .

3rd o sept is pei's 19th bday!!!
at hereby, tingg wish pei may yoo always be blissed and may your life always filled w/ love + happiness. ++huggless++

[timecheck: 2:17]
just came back from lunch awhile ago. its a really boringgg monday.
it just seems like im back to sq one agn.
its another brand new week, another brand new start.
agnes is really so unhappy. seeing her lookg so grumpy and all, i wish there is sumthing tt i cld help. *sighs* if she were to leave, i really dunno wads going to happen to me.
she has been such helpful and nice and friendly. she still havent gone for her lunch yet. poor gurl. nevermindss. hopefully things will get better after mich met her.

i miss my baybee!!! +p0utss+
*wondering wad my baybee is dng now*
spent a v v wonderful weekends w/ clique and chouchou darrlinkk piggpigg. =)
-im a happy gal.-

[saturdayy]
sntc all the way, met kai 3.30 at phone booth.
off we go to orchard then met up w/ clar and eventually mike.
walkd ard then took a bus dwn to bugis.
met up w/ lingli and we went in to get seated 1st.
eventually the star arrived. then we started to order food.
after awhile, jamie came and food was served.
alrightteee. every1's order is here cept' for mine. [pffftt]
check with the waitress then happily served my food to me.
the darn fish shrink like long john silver.
here are some pix tt we took using pei's cam in the rest.

v8 movie cafe

[edited on 7th sept, 12:06]
after dnr, we hangd around bugis and saw JIAHUI! lols
coincidentally lehs! she was seeg shoes in x:odus then i BOO her.
pulld her over and she catchd up w/ pei.
then we decided to go over to broadwalk for a drink.
lingli decided to leave the grp and went home to rest.
she is kinda havg a flu.
hopefully by nw she is alrighteeee.

the journey to boardwalk wasnt really far but kai and i keep gng in those stores to look at clothing. wadd to do. girls are vain by nature. even guys are.
jamie bought a top from addidas. i sooo wanna shopping. ya' knw.
they saw kai xin over there so being the eva-so-kind kai and mike entertained her while i sneakd outta the shop and took some pix. lols. eventually they came out and we happily snapped snapped snapped and snapped.

mike bought some supplyments from GNC. tt fella is one of a hell vainpot in da grp.
neverminds. BAHHH!!!
took some pix while moving on. . .
im bored larhs.

hees. doesnt this sight looks alil' familiar GUYS?!??!!

and after 2649374923m yrs we finally reachd there.
Gin tonics for the ladies and Tiger beer for the guys.
nearly 30 bucks and 1 for 1 on happy hr. -shrugs-
owells. wadd can i say. the darn jug can only supply 4 cups of gin tonics.
tt is one for each. PATHETIC is the word.

so after a drink sips i got HIGH!! literall. lols.
more pixs. there yoo go. . .

bahahaha! im soo uglyyy!!. i wan go for plastic surgury.
any takers?!!?

alrightee crap aside.
we left at abt 10 15am. every1 was feelg rather tired.
its was fabulous outing.! -winks- cept for the missing attitudez gals.!

mike took bus home.
kai and clar cabbd home.
whereas jamie, pei and i traind home.
he came to pick me up and we left for home swt home.~ =)
1st time im actually buyg my own pad. wells. he paid for me. lols.
reachd home at abt 11, bathed then we turnd in alr.

[sundayy]
next day woke up abt 9 plus.
he made breakfast for me! -melts- so sweett rightt.
aww. im like a queeniee!!. he said im his [pout queen] +p0utss+
he cook mee goreng as in those instant kinda larhs.
with 3 hushbrown and we hurried changed and saw anaconda at princess!

thursday sucks`[

2004-09-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

thursday sucks`[

there can be miracle. . .when yoo believe. . .

bahh. . . hello`. . .world!! =) -waves-
bad thursday. . . moody + sickly+ sleepy.

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you thats here with me
Its everywhere I go its everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that your here tonight
That your here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I rememeber the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Well be together for one more night somewhere somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

[time check: 12:13]
currently am happily slackg awayy` bigg time in office.
daniel has gone out and theres 2 appts tmr for him. -smiles-
guess it will b a gd fridayy for me. -gringsgrinsgrins-

i always enjoyed workg here.
its been 4th months. hm m m. . hw time flies[

like a child`[

2004-09-01T10:55:00.000+08:00

like a child`[

I hope you understand that there's a broken heart that lies within your hands And If you take away the loving arms that surround me Then I might break down and cry just like a child

woohooo im early in office tdy! 5mins late only. hehe!
can go back early to rest and watch my sntc!

ytd was a fruitful and enjoyable trip hangg out w/ da gals.
met ocs 1st then we went tanah merah then took a bus back to bedok.
saw [kenneth ooi]. pleasent surprised! like tadah! and i din even realised tt its him.
neverminds. was sayg tt reachd home gonna blog more apparently am too lazy to move my fingers anymore.

we went library afterwhich and had some girls talk.
crappd/bitchd/laffd as usual then ocs borrowd her chinese novel.
and we left to meet kai. saw lester at the entrance and he had indeed changed better in terms of physical appearance but not character. neverminds.

this ocs keeps bumpg into her ncc frds/cadats wadevaa.
then kai finally came and we left for dnr at S-21.
After dnr we went ard to check out phoney!!
cuz all o us are so dyg to change our phone.
ocs was sayg nokia will b launchg another new flip phone which in terms of physical looks will be alot better than 7200. +major p0utss+ i still wan 7200.

went to bosini to check out the sales and utimately bought a new white SHIRT! heehee
yes! i bought a new SHIRT! thanks kai for payg for me 1st.
its really cheap man. 16 bucks for a shirt hmm. good buy best buy!
Vain kai oso bought a bottom. which i think it looks kinda nice and fit on her.
it was really nearly half price. was it a syndome of closing dwn sales? lols.
im mean. but i saw nice shirt frm DANO n i just couldnt get tt sight outta my mind.
yoo knw my mind is tellg mi tt
"ting time for u to shop and reward urself.!" tt kinda thingy!
my angel and devil are foughtg. lols.
fell in love with the shirt from espirt as well.

neverminds. then after we gotta our stuff we went mc for dessert!! haha!
i finally got to eat my twist!!
and eventually left home at 9 30.
Got home bathed and tokd to [him] till 10 30 he went to bed.
sadly the bitchness in me is rather hyper tt night so i calld clar and we chattd till 11 30 then i go to slpp . . .

i was telling him tt perhaps he could get the espirt shirt for me on our 2nd yr anni.
i'll go check out the price on thursday then he changed his mind agn sayg perhaps he shld get me a bag. hais. he is so fickle-minded lorhs!
cant he just listen to me for once. thou i think i really needed a new bag.
but still, i want the shirt. -gees-

late tuesdayy`[

2004-08-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

late tuesdayy`[

"time waits for no men"

im in a really sleepy and sickly mood while updatg this.
timecheck: 5:14p.m.
by right i knockd off at 5, yes but im late for work tdy.
i came in at like 9 20a.m. yes. i knw v late.
so i made a pact to myself tt im must b early tmr!

IT lect was boringg as usual and a lil touch of sleepy.
i felt dead lately dunno y. i hope tt this kinda mood swing doesnt happen too frequent.
work has been quite ok. Gave a wrong quotation to this customer then i just had my retribution cuz she just calld and make some noise. luckily she is still quite alright.
in the end she still decided to let us handle it. i mean makes totally off sense!
neverminds. i guess some of them just had the fetish of pple sayg sorry to them.
weirdos.

alrighteeee.
timecheck:5:30pm.
haha! can ciao ler.!
alrighteee. will update when im home.
meetg kai and ocs for dnr.!

No Ifs, Ands or Butts `[

2004-08-30T12:09:00.000+08:00

No Ifs, Ands or Butts `[

"Where is the line between professional girlfriend and just plain professional?"

To daz attitudez cliques:
+Announcement+
Attention!!Attention!!
We're gonna celebrate pei's bday on the 4th(SAT)!
kindly make urself free on sat and dinner will b at V8 movies Cafe!
kindly bring ur spouse along and its a really great ~~bitchg~~catchg up session! -smiles-
The rest will b updated agn!

[saturdayy]

bahh!! its Monday!! Monday bluess.

My weekend went alrightteeee~ =)

met [him] on sat. went over to [his's plc]

Auntie Rita was there. I bet unker gerry went on a busines trip agn.

Nt stayg over cuz there's guest from msia will b usg his room so he gotta slp in his bro's room agn. Spent the entire day entertaining his sis and auntie. [He] practically slpp the dayy awayy~

then his mom askd mi to bring her to buy some shoes to match her eurasian custume.

then we playd scrabble w/ auntie rita and her sis. it was a really kewl game. the darn game lastd for an hr plus. then the parents and the guest left for church so we went outside to watch zhenqing. Msng clar awhile then auntie rita left for church. She buy us sweets.! lols

then after zhenqing finished i went to wake tt pigg up. oh.! steph made mi wear the darn eurasian custume and the whole package looks like a milkmaid! lols. so milkmaid lohs.

then we went to have our dnr at abt 7. and left his plc abt 8 to get steph's shoes.

he saw his snr at the bus stop and the gf looks so familiar to me and i think its sum1 i knw but somehow the name just doesnt ring a bell until he msg him and he askd kenn which sku was i from. lols i actually said something in the bus to him like i think i knw the gf leh. and it turned out to b desse!! i hope i spelled her name correctly. -grinss- how small the world is.

walkd shops to shops to get steph's shoes and finally got it! Her foot size is abt 9-91/2. woah. tts big for her. But kindly glad tt are able to get it. else i oso dunno where to bring her next. i got a sudden urge to buy shoes! esp ROUND HEAD doll shoes!!! haiss.

-tempted-

-cravg-

neverminds. went to check out his x70 and my 6220 trade in price. im really dying to get 7200!! then we went to mac for ice cream!!! they are indeed flowing the same blood within. [he] ordered sundae [she] ordered mc flurry. oh gosh! i only had 25c cone can!
then he send me home.

Got home bathe and hit my sex and the city. im sumhoo got addikted to it alr.like a routine in my life. =) -shrugged-

Tonight it's very clear
Cause we're both lying here
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

CHORUS
I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero
Your've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we did it all
for the glory of love

It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that your dreaming of
We're gonna live for ever
Knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever
Knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
We did it all for love

[sundayy]

woke up at abt 11 30 then watchd tv whole day. was supposed to go over to his plc for dnr i think. but my mom is cookg chicken rice for dnr as she seldom cook nowadays so i guess beta nt to disappoint her so i think i'll just stay at home for dnr. [he] din want help me to call his mom so i calld her and inform her tt im nt gng over for dnr. wells. i missd out a great dessert of custard jelly w/ fruits cocktail.

neverminds. my dinner is fantastic too but if the rice is nt tt wet i bet it will taste even better.

Anyhoos... hows everyone's weekend?! i hope tt u peeps had a blissed week before and ahead and of cuz the week after and after and after and after. . .

[kenn] is havg COG(Changing Of Guards) this comg sun which is 5th o sept. Anybirdiee free to go w/ me plssss!!.

He is havg another performance w/ his jazz band at bontanic garden on the 12th sept(SUN) can the clique make it?! we'll go tgt!!! i miss bontanic garden!!! any takers?! come on! it'd b a v gd outg!

its been awhile...`[

2004-08-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

its been awhile...`[

Wheeeeeeeeee` im still aliveeeeeee`
i like this song. it reminds me o -him- in a way

Lying beside you.
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat
With mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love
Be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay
So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

im hypotised by david. his voice is so just mellow and rich.
i like him! from a certain angle he does definately resembles a pinny-inch of jay zhou!
bahh! tt song is simply too breathe-takg.
im totally engrossd in it. ohh wadd a swtt dreams. dont wake me up!

it has been quite a fine week except tt my rushes comes to me agn.
tryg to keep it frm getting worst. i'll b fine soon. =)

work has been quite stressful. lately keep giving wrong quotation to customers.
better wake up!! Else, im so gonna diediedie.
daniel gonna freakg slaughter mi alive.
bleahss! my life has been pretty smooth sailing lately.
been gng to work and sku.
accountg is rather interestg but when u dont get the answer it will really drives yoo madd!!
IT is such a bore subject. i can fall aslp durg lect but wun tt b wastg my bloody sku fees.
i suffer so much in ACE just to get enuff to pay for it and i freakg dun want do well. i gotta b nuts. nevermindss. i started to babblerling labbish. -smiles-

some stuff to highlight for those who bothers to read my blog.

-can yoo peepso pls TAG!
-pei's bday is approachg soon. HOW?! i need solution!
-pressie and venue for dnr.
-plan pls!

biangg! my dear kai said celebrate tgt which i think its gd. but pei said if we do tt pressie gotta b GD! -quoted frm wad she said to me in msn- so nw im feelg darn stress. i told her cuz some of us has late payday. tts y she said pressie gotta b gd! She wanted FX creation bag or boardshorts. THROW in some ideas plssss. ATTITUDESS!! where the freakg hell are all my cliques!!! SAY SUMTHING PLSSS!. [pffft]

Sept is my darn broke mth. thot tt i'd still have some savgs.
i gotta pay for my freakg phone bills, insurance, pay my mom and bro.
then the 3 sept babies. kenn and i 2nd yrs anni. ohhh. offically broke.
but nvm. i'll still buy myself a shirt. or mebbe 2. i need shirt.

ytd accountg lect taught us cash flow statement.
diediedie. better prac and pls. i need help!! i want cindy han!! where r u!!!
anyhoooss, i think my aunt-2-b and my unker are fine now. =)
cuz i saw her wearing the wedding ring. -smiless-
im so glad. else i'll b gulit-stricken for all my life if they broke up.
she bought mi POLAR cream PUFF!! yummsyummss. gees.
v v nice -2 thumbs up- hmm.
ytd met kevin and grace for fnr at j8.
had ban mian agn. ohh. something to mention.
i wore shirt and jeans to work ytd.
i feel so sexy at the same time alil weird.
when i met kevin the 1st thing he said to me was::
k:"wah, wads the occasions tdy? y u wear until so niceE?"
me:"har?! no lahs, just for a change. nvr wore this way b4."
followed by
me:"wad did u said?! Nice arh!!? but dont it lookd weird? i feel weird."
k:"it wasnt a compliment."
me:"aiya, comeon dont b shy. im pretty wadd so wadeva i wear will b pretty."
k:"-chuckles- yah, true."
-end of conversation-

he was kinda swtt. at least he said sumthing nice. but tts nt the end.

went in and we bought ban mian then grace came and joind us for dnr.
the 3rd or 4th button of my shirt keeps dropping. so i gotta hook it back always esp after i removed the sling of my bag.

tt cab irritates agn in classroom.
[classroom]
-i was hooking back the button cuz i found out it UNHOOKED agn after i removed the sling.-
k:"y ur botton keeps dropping one?!"
me:"SHUDDUPP!!"
-gave him 1 hard one on his arms-

After break...
k:"hey, ur botton came off agn!"
-the stupid me lookd dwn and it was alrightt.-
-i gave him 2 hard one on his arms agn!-

Aint he MEAN! yes u darn KEVIN!!.
anyhoos. jiejie cindy said i look so shi wen! lols.
so now im into shirt and jeans.
In her car, she handed me a victoria's secrets bag. OH MY GOSHH!!!
Can i just say tt its a BAG FULL OF G-STRINGS! -blushes-
bleahss.. either from marks and spencers or top shops. -smilesss-
so now im a g-stings girl!.
AH-HA!

okkayss. will update agn laters when im home. i hope!. =) ciaos

words o God`[

2004-08-19T11:36:00.000+08:00

words o God`[

God made woman from man's ribs
not from his head to top him
nor from his feet to be walked upon
but from his side to be his partner in life
from under his arm to be protected by him
and near his heart to be loved by him.

[tuesday]
zi is back! met up w/ zi and pei after work then off we go to siglap gelare.
met abt 7 30 and took bus 14 there. The talkative bunch o us startd to crap real soon and talkd abt zi and her gf. pei passd mi the sex and the city season 1-4. -happiehappie- im a happy gal now. Wanted to grab the cosy seats but sadly it has been taken up. so we just settle dwn and orderd our food.

oreo cookies and cream cheesecake
big waffles + icecream chocolate over load
cookies and cream mudpie
chocolate almond cookie

it was really yummy. =)

surprisingly we bumpd into lingli and her colleagues. din speak much thou. just exchanged a few word. then we happily hopping from table to table. lingli's worst. she from outside, shift to our table then hoppd on to the cosy seats. wells. neverminds. there's always a next time! -grins-

zi shared some story w/ us and we exchanged stories in the end. -chuckles-

it was nicee and we gonna do it agn. -beammss- had quite alot of girls talks. from our conversation can really see tt we have grown up quite abit. To think tt i can sit dwn and talk abt such issue w/ my gfs. ha! wadd a wonderful world. im starting to get inflences by sex and the city. Started thinkg tt im datg Bedok and stuff. wadd a crapp.

We left at abt 9 30 and i got home abt slightly passed 10. bathed and online, msn him for awhile and hit the bed at abt 11 30.

next dayy woke up at slightly passd 8 and bathe.

its another day.

i actually lived thru another day.

tts not tt the point.. alrightss

changed and proceeded to work and MISS TAN KAI LUN!!

FYI, im not late on wednesday kays. im on the dott! [pffftttt]

hees.

work was alrightts, can see tt agnes really had too much work on hand. managed to close the deal for motor insurance and got real lotsa paperwork to complete. she finally taught mi some and so im quite glad tt after stickg ard for 3 mths i finally learnt something else. tdy she was tellg mi tt she actually had the thot of leavg. oh gosh. pls dont let agnes go. i think if she is nt around i will die terribly uglyy..
Everyone is pretty much the same. everthing hasnt been changing much either. im still enjoying this job cuz its 5 dayyys only. haha!

After work, met up w/ ocs and zi. Was supposed to ask the clique out for dnr cuz zi is back. wanna a gathering or sumthing but apparently everyone is either gotta go home for dnr/din reply or simply nt interested. kinda sadd huh. neverminds. the prob must b lies w/ zi. Its either she is not socially loved by us or she is just not cute enuff for us. lolss. she's gonna skin me if she sees this. She wun anyways. hehe.

Missed the clique so much cuz we hasnt been really meeting up as a grp. hopefully pei's bday everyone is able to be present. missed the crappd man.

We went S-21 and so i had my ban mian then this ocs and zi had the fish bee hoon. yumyum. mom and dad went for concert. They really shld spend some pte time tgt man. This will improve their r/s alot. Glad tt everything in my life is running quite smoothly.

so after dnr zi left to meet mel, ocs gotta return her comic so we went to return her comic books, deposite the money and went changi mac to slack. we ate ice cream cone!! =) then we went NTUC and lastly went to the library and i borrowd 2 accountg books. U knw bedok library is darn pathetic. The whole darn library only got half pathetic rows of accountg books. lousy can! then we left, i went to body shop to buy my sharpner for my concealer and white musks shower gel. which is buy 1 get 1 free. nice nice! gonna get the lotion next mth. hopefully sales is still on by then.

on our way back, bumpd into denise at bus40 berth. haha! she is screamg at her top of the voice out for mi and i thot which mad women screamg my name. ahHA! so chatted w/ her till her bus 40 comes. Quite surprised to see her there thou. she stays in like west side o singapore? like wrong side right. haha! she still lookd as petite and small as ever. She mentiond abt her friend terrence and doug in the same band as kenn and they are darn slack cuz can go home everyday. oso mentiond sumthing abt whether kenn and i are still tgt or not. hmm. askd kenn and he said dun haff. anyways. its a really good catch up w/ her. gonna meet up someday for ktv session w/ zhen and her. =)

Got home bathed and onlined. he calld mi and we talkd over the phone for awhile and i went to slp. everything seems so fine to me nw. im so scared tt i'll lose sumthing either in a way or another. sometimes when life gets so perfect i'd get so scared. Cuz sometimes life aint really tt kind to me. They give u something and take away sumthing from yoo at the same time. gonna meet him tmr. sat his mom's friend stayg over so guess i'll b home sweet home watchg my sex and the city. -beammss- we were tokg abt wad to buy for our 2nd yr anni. tt asrse says he wanna get my accountg book for mi as e pressie. NO lohs! where got pple buy book for anni right? dumb arse. shall get him a wallet.!

its thursday and im having class tonight. havent done my accpuntg hw, gonna do it later b4 i rush off to j8. meeting kevin for dnr b4 class. heehee. ciaos

quizzzz `[

2004-08-17T11:40:00.000+08:00

quizzzz `[

Sex and the City: The Four Women, the Four Elements

Your results are based on the four Elements of Astrology: Fire, Earth, Air and Water. Each Element has its own set of characteristics, and each of us displays some combination thereof, usually with a focus on one or two. Samantha, Miranda, Carrie and Charlotte each personify one of the Elements and its basic traits. Which Elements most strongly influence you?

Note: Scores are rounded to one decimal place and therefore may not total 100%

[You scored 50% Carrie]
Your answers peg you as a Carrie-type, much influenced by the Air Sign qualities associated with Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. Like confident Carrie, a sex columnist, you're curious and perceptive, always seeking answers and never satisfied with the superficial. An Air Sign influence can lead to indecision and an avoidance of tough issues, like with Carrie and her on-again, off-again attachment to Mr. Big. Forward-thinking, incredibly intelligent and witty, you just exude quirky charm. You'd be utterly bored by someone who's just a pretty face or hot body -- though you don't mind looking and flirting! You're more turned on by an equally smart and funny mate, someone who challenges your mind and makes you laugh. You love to talk, so you need a good listener who's open to playful and eccentric ideas about love and lovemaking.

[You scored 20% Samantha]
You identify with Samantha's bold and liberated Fire Sign qualities, characteristics associated with the Signs of Aries, Leo and Sagittarius. You're strong, audacious and larger than life -- and you take what you want! Sometimes you can even be thoughtless and selfish, as you get so caught up in craving immediate gratification and excitement that you overlook someone's feelings. Your personal style likely reflects your desires: sleek, low-cut, revealing just a bit more than might be considered acceptable. Watch that you're not coming on too strong, though. You could scare potential suitors off with all your drama. If you seek so much attention, the more basic qualities of the Fire Signs could be burned right out of the picture. Show less skin or cleavage and more of your creativity, your vibrant leadership skills and courageous generosity!

[You scored 20% Charlotte]
A romantic at heart, you chose the answers that demure Charlotte may have chosen. Strongly influenced by the intuitive, profound and sometimes naïve Water Signs -- Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces -- you're like a mother, a mystery and a poet all in one. Though on the surface you may seem innocent and all about seeking the good in people, beneath the surface, you hide secret yearnings for intimacy, for attachment and ideal love. You're seeking a knight in shining armor, a soul mate, someone who will complete you and tether you to the earth when you get carried away with your fantasies. You're super-sensitive, soaking up the moods of others; you emote freely, crying at commercials and sappy movies. You also provide a shoulder to cry on and open arms for hugs. Be careful that you're not so wide-eyed and trusting that you get taken in by some cunning wolf in sheep's clothing.

[You scored 10% Miranda]
You chose many of the same answers that Earth Sign-like Miranda, the cynical but pragmatic lawyer, might have chosen. Just like Miranda's had a tough time deciding whether to give in to the affections of Steve the Bartender, you don't give your heart up to just anyone. Miranda shies away from a relationship with Steve because he's 'just' a bartender, not something more conventionally ambitious or stable. Those with powerful Earth Sign qualities -- characteristics associated with Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn -- are cautious in love and seek stability and status over nearly anything else. Earth Signs provide a steady, realistic attitude and they can bring order out of chaos. A little-known Earth Sign fact: Incredibly sensual, you seethe beneath that smart, expensive business suit of yours, yearning for intimacy but hesitant to give up your material needs, your career ambitions or your responsibilities for a passionate moment that might not turn out the way you'd hope.

se x+ th eci ty`[

2004-08-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

se x+ th eci ty`[

hellllllllllloooooooooo worldd. -waveswaveswaveswaves-
hasnt been blogging in like 20830828432 gillions yrs.
been real hectic week for mi, its a gd sign. -smiless-
ha!ha!ha! alrightts. last tuesday for the 1st time in my life, went simpang b w/ kai and we had the best cheese prata tt i had ever tasted in my life b4.
we had one plastor and one cheese prata and not forgetting the huge dinosaur milo ice drinkk. it was a really fantastic dinner i must say. we bitchd for the longest time in our life and yes just e 2 o us. -grinsgrinsgrins-

its been really long since just the both of us has gone out. really felt gd to b able to catch things up w/ ur old pal. its like tt kinda feelings when u 2 just sit side by side w/o saying a word and ended up feeling real relieve even after leaving tt plc. ya knw tt kinda feelings.?
old pals are still the best afterall. -winkks- not forgetting new friends tt i made along the way.

we had a great evening and it was so great tt i missed tt girl so much so we met up agn the next day which is wed for dnr at market85 tgt w/ clarr this time. hehehe!
had ba chor mee as usual, we oso ordered sambal stingray and they had sambal mussels as well and lastly we were such gluttons tt we ordered fried carrot cakes and decided to settle at mc's for the 25cents ice cream as dessert for the night. -beamms- feast yea. i think i really putting on weight. look at the amount o fats tt piling up in me. time to lose some weight girl!

thursday had my lessons as usual, kevin din come to class so im pathetically being left alone and i almost fell aslp cuz it was really. b o r i n g!!! neverminds, anyways during break jiejie cindy and i went dwn and we bought xxl chicken. whoopss it was fantastic. tt kept mi awake and alive thru the rest o the class till it ends. =) tts not the end. We went to pick yuki up and proceeded to east coast lagoon for supper!!! ohmans. i was actually kinda full alr. we had wan tan mee. yuki is such a fussy glutton. she doesnt take hot stuff so she doesnt like the xxl chicken. thou jiejie cindy and i like it kinda much. its alrightts. reachd home abt 12 and slept like a pig till fri...

my weekend is a goner cuz i have class on friday nite. i could actually see myself doing much better stuff rather than takg the darn crowded bus to j8 for accountg lesson but since i paid for tt course so im obliged to go and listen to make my money worth paying tt kinda thingy yoo see. owellsowells. im such a whiney now. pardon me. got home ard 10 30 and watchd sex and the city disc 1 season 5. -2 thumbs up- for the show. GREAT! couldnt believe myself got addicted watchg it. it aint really pornographical just incase some perverts out tt are thinkg of it. its actually a really deep show talkg about love/sex/friendship/men/women. pei agreed to lend mi the rest o the season!! yippy!! -happiehappiehappieehappieee-

[Saturdayy]

Met michela @ cityhall inter abt 3 45 and off we went to walk ard. we decided to dine in tcc. Had oreo mocha Freppe and beef lagsana, chicken and mushrooms sandwich. yumsyums. Its mIch's treat's agn. its really sweet o her and we had a really great bitching session over there. Didnt see the spooky show utimately cuz thot he wanna meet me but owells, apparently he break it agn so i sat by the suntec fountain alone from 7 till he came. it was a really magical touch to see couples walk past by me and im alone. i think i teared. i din cry. i was touched and smiling to myself wadd a wonderful world God has created for us to live in. Sometimes i really wonder to myself wadd kinda world would we all b in if there is no love in our lives. it could really b hell i guess. i still smile in comfort knowg tt love still work out for others thou mine din really turn out fantastic. cheer up gal!!! i do felt a sudden sense of loneliness and it was really bitterly lonesome. I msg jeremy tt i felt so wrong to b in a plc where pple comes in pairs however it felt darn right tt love exist and it is just so beau-ti-ful. darnn, im getting sentimental agn. At tt point o time i just had too much mixed feelings in me. Too much thots and words and yet it just wouldnt came out. He came at abt 8 + near to 9. so we just sat there till abt 9 20 and we left there. The songs tt night werent really nicee thou. you bet my arse sweetie. We proceeded to boat quey to a jazz band pub cuz he wanna listen to his beloved respectable tcher Mr Teo boon chye who is oso performaning in Chinajump. He hasnt got enuff of him and he still wanna go see him. so i went w/ him and there's this really pwrretty babe singing for the band. He was captivated by her firm breast and tt dead gorgeous smile of hers is enuff to kill him. then he mentiond he gonna get her num from boon chye and im kinda cool w/ tt. wells. wad can i say anyways. Went in and we sat in the music room where we gotta order 2 drinks each just to get our arse in tt room and can i just mention how fucking expensive the drinks there are. coffee and soft drinks are like 10 bucks?! so we just sat for a while and i really meant awhile and we left. Proceeded on to dennis' shop but sadly, its not open so we just crossd the road and took bus 32 back home. it was a kinda fruitful trip at least, after so long, we're out and headg somewhere just the 2 of us, rather than keep stayg at home doing nthing tt kinda thingy. slept at abt 1 plus tt night.

[sundayy`]

we were sleeping soundly on our own till his mobile rang. on our own means we do not hug or cuddle tgt to slp thinkg tt we're so lovely dovey, hell no. on our own yea. then i got awoken and he said tt his friend calld and said his friend passd away. he gotta a big huge shocked and he really jumpd out of the bed and told his bro. i was like still quite stunned. I din say anything to him cuz i do not knw wad to say as well. then as usual made milo and cookd noodles for us as breakfast. Attempted to do my accountg hw. sucky can! hafta do trading profit and loss account and balance sheets. Got stuckd and tt clever guy droppd his account so no one can help mi. neverminds. went to bathe and left home whereas he went to his friend wake w/ his brother.

got home, changed and continued w/ my sex and the city. now i only left the last disc for season 5. hees! then met yuki at 4 at bedok inter, so changed and got ready and b4 i step out o the hse, it was alr POURING elephant and tiger!! Bus interchange was flooding alil as well. i had a lil difficulties walking thou. and the darn train was so freakg crowded. i forgot to bring my wallet out. lols- 1st time ever so sotong. tt dumb yuki said i blur like sotong. irritating rightt. so not my usual self. bleahss! wadevaaa...

reachd orchard abt 5 and we went cini long john for dinner. this girl is sooo troublesome. she is darn fussy abt food like agnes. lols. luckily im easy else she gotta get hell from me. Yuki is nice, she paid for my transport and food and treated mi the ktv session. was crapping w/ her all the way, supposingly should b meeting jiejie cindy and unker philip but hell ended up they both only came to pass mi the popcorn and flee to catch fireworks at marina promenade. humpffx. so -we- sings our lungs/hearts/livers out ytd over at partyworld from 6-10pm. can dieee lohhs. and now im in office sneezing away. falling sick soon i think. After ktv we were abt to go hme and jiejie cindy calld mi and they came to fetch us home. We went to serangoon to pick up something 1st. then send unker philip home. jiejie cindy still not satisfied w/ ending off her sunday this way, she was sayg tt near my unker plc got this stall sell v v nice fried chicken wings so we went to ta bao and met her friend. Din get her name thou but yuki calls her piggie. She is nice. =) She is getting married soon. U see the different age barrier. haha. there is no barriers. went to bedok south sat/slackd and crappd. i kept quiet most o the time cuz im new and do not knw wad to say oso. then there is this dumb cat. keep jumpg up and this yuki darn bad went to kick her down. it was the 1st day of hungry ghost festival. Supposed to go home early but by the time i got back was nearly 1am. Wasnt really too scary thou cuz still saw pple burng those joss papers and stick dwnstairs. got home, bathe and hit the bed. slept at 1 30. darn tired.

TadaHh!! here i am in office and having my mondayy bluess as per norm. had a beri bad flu in the morning and took some cold tablets and now im tadahh! soso much better. but feeling quite sleepy. Daniel has gone out so here i am skiving and blogging awayys. tonight still got class, IT shucks. i'd rather do more account than IT. spareee meeee.....

wadds lovee? ` [

2004-08-10T16:55:00.000+08:00

wadds lovee? ` [

had a fantastic holidays spending time w/ kenn.
right now im in an emotional mix cuz i do not knw wad kinda r/s are we in.
the truth is the feelings werent the same as b4?
i dunno if im beening demandg or wad butt im trying my best to b like b4.

[fridayy]

the start of the fantastic loong holidays due to NDP2004. After work went to mama's hse for dnr. SHe cooked yummilicous curry kayys. then met up w/ agnes. Brought her ard and show her good food in bedok. -GRINGRINGRINS-
then she bought mi soon kuey and green tapiocal. -yumyumsyumss-
came home bathed and he called, we tokd abit and he said sumthing really upset mi so much and i cried while toking to pei. im really so not happy. i cannot remember when was it when i really smile. At the same moment, unker crabby askd mi out for supper cuz he is hungryy. At tt point of time im just dying to go to ecp to take in some fresh air to cool myself down. he agreed to go there so i askd him to come and fetch mi up. he came here roughly abt less than 30mins time and -vrroooom vroooooms- off we headed to ecp.

[ecp]
unker crabby managed to squeeze into a darn small parkg lot. -skilllsskills- then we went over to the nicely renovated foodcourt. its just darn nice loh with all the lighting arrangement o the tables and chairs. AND THE TOILETS!! really nicee. =)
so we settle down and he went to buy food. tt unker is darn fickled-minded. at first he says he wanna eat porridge. then ended up he taking beef noodles lohs.
-_-"! he ordered my coconut and satay as well. had a great time piggy out. we managed to finish all the food. -beamms- its a sin to have supper. not gonna have it agn. bleahsz.
Once we are done, we proceeded to the beach and rest. it was really windy and chilling. it was abt 11 plus alr. saw lotsa couples and family gathering. we sat beside the kayaking plc and the hut was so lovely at night with all the lighting and music. we sat there and started chatting. ALmost everything under the sea. =)
it just reminded me how lonely i am in a r/s when my significant other half just simply bo chup me. His world is revolved around gabby/family/saf band/his commonwealth students and those girls namely hui ee/amy/may/joanne. Tell mi where was i?! not even top 3 i tell yoo. neverminds. i just have to live w/ it.
it feels so much prominent when i have someone msging me to tell mi tt they misses me and ask mi how am i doing. U knw tt kinda feelings where i knw im ALIVE to them. and tt they actually cared.
i feel sucha sadistic when i gotta seek refuge from someone else and not e one tt i loved. -sighsighsigh*- then we proceeded to the jetty and saw lotsa pple fishing there. it was a really heart warming sight to see pple who are in 14-15 to go fishing and this set me thinking wad were i doing at tt time tt age. im wasting my youth by not studying hard enough. yeah, tell mi abt it.

[Airport]
went to the loo for one last time and proceeded off to airport. wanted to go to the back of the airport where u can clearly see the runway for the plane but sillly unker drove to airport instead. bleahs+. the moment i stepped in, im overthrown by all sort of really sweet young memories where peeps and i would come all the way after band to the foodcourt for lunch just to eat the laska and prawn mee not forgetting pei's fav cha kwey teow. those were the dayys.
We were at T2 and its under heavy renovation. all those lovely sight and memories of airport were rubbed off from my memory. guess age is catching up on me. just the thot of me turning 20 in a few mths time really made mi sigh. cant deny tt im really growing old. but i still not admit tt im auntie kays! -humpffx-
it was freezing cold in the airport and we just practically walkd one round and headed home.

slept at abt 3 and it was really a great outing w/ unker. -smiless-

[saturdayy]

woke up abt 10 plus then watch tv all the way till its abt time to get my arse outta the hse to meet pei. abt 5 trained dwn to taka. Meetg tt girl at kinokuniya. off we proceeded to buy seek's anni pressie. both of us were taking our own sweet time and i just got the darn craving to buy clothes. shesshs. i hasnt gone on a shopping spree for dunno how many 22387483949zillions yrs. Dont remind me. Im darn broke. i need a suga dadddyy... wanted to buy this pink jacket from zara. issit zara pei? i forgot wads the shop's name anyway, it was abt 70 bucks. But its lovely! -sighs- everyone says pink is so not me. -cries- FINE!! but really like it lehs. alrightsalrightsalrights. then she went to this shop beside pepperplus to get her top.
vainvainvainvainvainvain
then walkd around to get seek's bikini went to pacific plaza and tadah! the shop is CLOSED!
greatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreat
then we went to heeren's flash and splash. gotta the bikini and went for dnr at yoshi in cini.
yumyumyumyumyumyum
on top o tt i bought 2 tops. i like the tube top but i saw pple wearing leh. +p0uts+
then went watson to get her candles and finally slacked ard taka. keep listening to the jay's qi li xiang cuz the toy fair fella kept playg it. oh gosh. so niceee`.
finally we went to meet up w/ him then pei went home and we proceeded to queenstown to help gab's mom w/ the kueh.
the mum is darn bigg size together w/ the bf. we gotta help to pack those kueh after gab's mom finished makg. after she cut we hafta pack it accordingly. it was kinda fun. it was alright in the beginning till morning 5+ after we started to slack. he was tokg to his mom abt gab. gabgabgab and more gab and gloria.
i was practically almost dozing off. we left abt 6 plus in the morning and proceeded to his camp at ngee soon. i went in as a visitor and it was really chilling cool up there.

[sundayy`]
waited for him then took a cab back home. the darn fella who is on duty is fucking blur. he handled me a guy;s IC? and im like" sorry u gave mi the wrong IC"
and whoever drove by will certain turn and look at mi as thou like they have never seen girl b4.
loser!
got back home abt 8+, bathed and slept. was really draind and tired.
slept all the way to 5 and woke up. wells. wanted to go down to marina promenade to meet up w/ kai and mike but we had have to eat dnr together so we gave it a passed and all he said to mi was "sorry." i really wanna go. -sighs-

[CHinajump]
but ended up, oliver/serene/he and i went dwn to chinajump abt 8 + and met kai and mike
oliver wanna watch the match i think. he wanna go listen to the live band. i wanna go see how izzit like. im loving it every moment inside.
i had lemon dreams, he had banana blabla, mike had virgin kiss and kai had sex on the beach. wooots. they ordered tiger and heniken and shared. we playd pool and i lost. he playd pool w/ mike and mike lost. pure luck i would say. we were happily snapping away till the live band takes over. then we went dwn to dance alil. he's tired, went back then went down danced alil. got back and finally serene and i hit the dancefloor for good. We danced w/ these 2 england guys and they were really friendly. They kissed serene. -lols- oliver saw, but he's kinda cool w/ it. The ang mo is darn friendly. -winkswinkswinkswinkswinks- kai and mike just practically stoned all the way owells, i do really wish u peeps had enjoyed urself the way like i do. =) huggles** lovelove. we left abt 1 plus and we cabbed back. saw some pretty trans in the cab. neverminds, tts not the point. got back he went to bathe, then serene went to bathe and i finally got to bathe. After im done w/ bathing he is still outside playg game. how irritating so i just went to slp.

happy 39th birthdayy singaporeee

[mondayy-national dayy]
soon holidays is coming to an end sadly. we'll just hafta make the best outta it. woke up in the noon and slackd whole dayy watching tv show which was darn boringg. then took a small nap and we had pizza for dinner!!!! steph is kind enuff to give us a treat. how sweet. +huggs+ then watch the parade and finally SI. Saw Oliver at the last few mins. Had a really good laff. lolx. the lemon tree guy was sucha joker mann. and steven LIM!! simply cannot stand him. suckers!

left at abt 9 45, he sent mi home, bathed then plopped! dreamy dr3eamlandd.

Had quite a fruitful weekend. wad made it enjoyable was im able to spend some time w/ him.

imtiredofcryingg `[

2004-08-04T14:02:00.000+08:00

imtiredofcryingg `[

It looks like i suddenly have NOONe with me. -sighs*-

So much more i have to say, help me find a WAY.

-tingg loves NOONE
-tingg needs NOONE
-tingg misses NOONe

[-wheres my NOONe?-]

im feelg a lil upset now.
I'm sorry i can't be perfect. tt i cannot be good enough. that i never have what it takes to be wadd yoo want me to be. I'm sorry that i'm never making anyone proud. Tt i never was a blessing to anyone's life. im really sorry tt im not who yoo wants me to be.

CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman.

Once she is mad she can be very fierce.

She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman.

In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection. [budd i do still need to b felt protected by my loved one]

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions.

She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are.

If she does not like someone she will not comments or critici! ze but she will completely ignore that person.

She hates plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere

She loves real flower and it's scent.

She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. [perfume]

If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her.

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. [darn true]

She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. [i like beaches]

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K.

Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face.

She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter.

She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks

you are not bright then she will not care about you at all.

She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown.

If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop.

She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens.

Don't bother to tell her everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only.

She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there.

If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. [just dun keep quiet]

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears.

She is a slow but sure type.

She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face.

If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do.

She likes to help people and expect nothing in return.

If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint.

She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck".

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking.

If your parents visit your house, they will be please.

She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".

waiting for the dayy to come ` [

2004-08-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

waiting for the dayy to come ` [

[shoutouts 2 kai]

hoi gurl. okayys. i want go sentosa. butt who's gng?! yea. hasnt been meeting up for quite sometimes. oh yeah. next wedd wanna go zouk? susu wants to go. can ask jen and bao along oso. its free entry and only pay for drinks and nt expensive if shard cab home. i was thinkg o tonning over ur plc and go to work next dayy. so wadds ur say?! how have u girls been lately? mike sent mi the pix tt u girls took over at the ndp previews and @ marina bay. how nice the fireworks. Thou it only last for awhile but while it lasted it was so beau-ti-ful. I guess tts just like certain stuff in life. -smiles- alrights. wanna tag ur blog but think got some prob lehh. kindly go fix it pls. since u so "eng" in office. haha. alrights. miss miss and love yoo loads. +huggles+ take care. . .

im in the office skiving off right now. morning went out w/ daniel agn to distribute phamplets. wore heels so nw my feets havg blisters. darn pain nw. Wells, beginning to enjoy doing tt. ha! he took care of me kinda well. yea. =) Guess i knw y girls likes gng for older guys. they do really gives u a sense of security and they r indeed more thotful. -beamms- okayys. my boss is alr married. so he is outt! haha.

havent gone out for lunch and im feeling alright. nt really hungry thou. did i mention i only ate 1 meal ytd. yupps. only lunch. cuz im too broke for dinner. ha! dun feel like eating too. im feelg darn tired now. feel like slping. had a darn good slp last night. no insomia no bad dreams. just slept all the way thru morning. i like it like tt. i dont have too much time for my thots to run wild. shall continue tonight when im home.

[9.22pm -homesweethome]
am on my cosy bed now after a quick hot bathe. lemmi continue ...
daniel as sayg tt perhaps he could get the ndp tix for mi! OH MY GODD. tts so cool. am looking forward to it. -beamms- my blister still hurts thou. and he didnt care at all when i told him. he din even ask HOW i geddit. He didnt even ask if i got a plaster on or not. he simply bo chap. i really dunno how long more i can hold on to. he is nt home and i msg him he oso cant b bothered to reply. its either he is playg game at katong w/ gab or gng out w/ some other girls. neverminds.

after work i went to parkway to meet up w/ kevin for dinner. din wan eat cuz broke. but he tempted mi by sayg he wanna treats mi so we headed for pastamania. bleahs. it was a great dnr as i had sumthing new. -GRINSSSS- b4 dinner, we went to e-zone to relax ourselves. haha it was funny seeing him in shorts lohhs. flamingo legs ya knw. then had a great time w/ the photo puzzle tt one with the spot the differences. haha! he sucks at it.

-order o the dayy-

my (penne)Al Funghi (slicd shitake mushrooms in delicious cream sauce.)
his (linguine)spicy chicken (chicken + peas in chilli tomato herb sauce)
my potato salad
our tiramisus dessert
mineral water + ice tea

it was a great dinner w/ him. tt guy as usual had so much to tok to. almost everything under the sun and he is tryg to psycho mi to go jogging w/ him at ecp every sat morning. maddness. i'd rather grow and become a fat pig then to wake up early on sat. haha! wellssss. daniel oso askf whether do i exercise. did i really put on weight>?? but i thot im dieting?!??! -question markd?

he was really thotful. i was surprised to see kevin w/ the drinks as i din ask for any but still w/o askg he bought it for me. how sweett boyy. he was really thotful. tt impressed me for once. he could actually remember tt i dying to getn a 7200 thou it was donkey yrs tt i told him, he knew tt i wanna buy a bag and shoes. more caring then he does. at least he bothers to remember them u knw. we talkd alot during dinner. Butt this time much more in depth. He is someone whom i feel v v comfy w/. butt everything remain the same and nothing gonna change.

had tt once bitten twice shy experience w/ jamie. and tts enough. rather keep a frd then lose one. =) shall get to knw more pple 1st. butt i really got to knw him more in tdy's date. im freakg tired nw and my whole blardy body muscle is aching like hell. im dying for a massage and spa man. i want my payyy.... +sighs+ im supa broke.

i need a suga daddddyyyy....

second module - Fundemental o IT ` [

2004-08-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

second module- fundemental o IT` [

. . .wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo, wo xiang wo ke ye jia zhuang bu zeng ai guo. . .

tdy is the start of my 2nd module in MDIS. woah! tell u peeps. the feelings o being a snr is just simply kewl. ha! u knw the feelings o stepping in tt class nw and way 3 mths back was so so different. Im a snr!! wheeeee' coz got new batch comes in and guess wadd. There's this bung and she's kinda cute. -GRINGRINGRIN- im nt drooling. haha! just felt rightt tt my class shld have a bung. mebbe due to clar + pei's influences. okayys. shall leave the 2 of u out. haha. gonna go sit beside her next thurs then find chance to tok to her. yes! tts my plan. i cant b sured tt she's a bung till i askd kevin. ha! tt fella msgd mi freakg early on sat can. abt 7+ and ask mi to go dwn to ecp to jog w/ him. when i saw the msg i thot i was dreamg can. haha! got a shockd but still heck and went back to slp. till i woke up at abt 10 + then i reply him.

tokg abt sat, i realised tt lately the weather hasnt been in a good state. Awhile it rains and awhile it shines. i woke up @ 10 plus then later abt 1 plus went back 2 slp agn then woke up @ 3 then went 2 bathed and changed then met him n left 4 his plc. i wantd him to bring mi flower + letter to make up 4 his deeds.he even assured mi tt "i wun disappoint u." great! apparently it was all nthing but BULLSHITTT agn. -sighs*- i really give up. Dont ask anymore abt -us-, cuz im lost. we'll just leave things the way it is, take a step and walk a step 1st. i din tell alot o pple abt us patchg up. Only those who reads my blog will knw. Else i dun go ard tellg pple tt i've patchd w/ ken. Dont ask mi y. i just dont knw how long we can last. serious. shant tok abt it. cuz it aint really worth mentioning nw.

back to my class. My lecturer is a darn chee kor pek! haha. he toks abt "tadpoles" in the class can. wells. i hope u knw wad he meant. ha! it doesnt concerns da girls. -winks- geddit? he's rather humourous and interesting lah. but he crappd more than he teachd so now im kinda worried. haha! was thinkg o scoring an A for IT. wells. nevermindssss i still got my beloved kor kor to guide and teach me. its peanuts and chicken feett for him. simply too elementary standard. lolx- i'll roughly pen dwn wad happened in the class. he spent e 1st hr doing self introduction o himself. Next 45 mins on the books and 45 mins crappd and lamed. he is darn lamed but he did entertained mi and made my dayy better. sadd case, 1st dayy alr gotta my assignment. -sulks- i dont think i wanna do w/ kevin agn. ha! Shall see how larrs. blahh blahh blahh... jie jie cindy sent mi homee! -beamms- so happie can. dont hafta take the train. I've got new classmates as well/ got one girl kinda chio. she looks abt like ang mo tt kinda. darn kewl loh. she is holding helmet. guess she ride on a bike. okayys. basically tts abt it. but it felt kinda empty w/o tony to argue w/ the lecturer. so yeaa. my class oso kinda small. 40 plus student only. DBI got like 90 + pple. huge class mann. wells... more girls than guys. hais. good for kevin. last module for him and i still gotta like struggle for another 6mths after this module. -suxors-

[weekends]
went to his plc and slackd/playd game/watchd tv/went to katong for dinner cuz he meeting his bf gabby. then they went to play game and i sat there watchd them like a eeediot. then we went home, i bathd and sleep. next morning, i woke up at abt 11 +, went to bathe and left home.
he din offer to see mi home or ask m to stay w/ him longer thou. he had his 1st istana parade and he is really excited askg everyone to go and see him except me. fine.
i left his place w/ a heavy and broken heart. my steps were draggy and i felt so tired and worn out physcially and mentally. yess, i cried. i tried real hard nt to let any teardrop to fall but i failed. my pace were slow and i wasnt thinking stri8. i din feel like going home at tt point o time. i wanna go visit chan yi so much. wells. i calld lingli and askd if she wanna go ecp w/ me. i walkd all the way to the busstop, wantd to go to the church. then she phoned mi and told mi she is going to the market to fetch her mum so can give mi a lift and askd to meet. wells. after a big HOOHAASS of running and calling finally i got onto her car. she was really kewl and im darn proud to b the 1st one she driven. -smiles- she is darn blur but overall was kinda zai! yoo go girll! Then she sent mi home after fetchg her mom and so i went home. Along the journey was crapping w/ her and thanks girl. u made mi feel so much better and no longer depressed. my ken is never gonna come back and yes, i miss yoo soo sooo much. he will always lived in my heart. i got home and broke down. after cooling down, everything went back to norm and i actually feel tt my heart went numbd and dead agn. how i wish tt i could just slp and never wake up. Did i mention tt i almost knockd down by a car while running across the rd? yes. while i was on my way to meet lingli. i just wish tt he would knock me dwn and i'll lost my memories for once and b the happy girl tt i used to be. wells. everything is destined yea? i can just comfort by telling myself tt its all part and parcel o life.

. . .the smile on my face is goneee, the girl yoo are looking now is the one with a broken smile. . .

looking at how happy my cliques are w/ their significant halves really made mi feel happy for them. i guess even when they slp there is a true blue smile on the face and tt's happiness. I once had tt kinda smile tt i used to wear to sleep too. he would always tell mi how beau-ti-ful i look on each date and how sweet i'll look whenever i go to sleep. its tt kinda strength tt's keeping -us- alive and the unbreakable bond tt tied us tgt. butt now its all gone.

i was actually quite upset to learn tt ocs has gotten them the tixs for ndp previews and yet she din even askd me. but on a second thots. its a couple outing and im not in the position to get involved. i dun even have a mate! i dont even have someone who im worth dying for right now. its alrightts. pms is on alert nw. im having my monthly discharge therefore lately hasnt been in the best of mood. who cares abt my cramps?! who cares abt tingg anymore? i think im suffering from mild depression when funny thots often popping on my minds. im really okayys.
On the whole was kinda glad tt yoo peeps had enjoyd urself. -smiles-

daniel always has funny ideas on business. morning i went out w/ him to distribute phamplets. haha! wells. kinda shy and all. but its okayys. hopefully it dont last. else i'll dieeeee....

p/s: i miss yoo chan yi.

li bu kai ni ` [

2004-07-29T14:39:00.000+08:00

nian zhe ni mei yi ye li bu kai ni *smiless* ` [

wheeeeee' tadaH! im backkiee. hasnt been updating my precious bloggy. *hugs*

okayys. ermm. 1st of all. everything between ken and i are fine now.

i no longer feel angry/hate for him anymore. u peeps must b surprised. i am surprised tt i'll forgive him too.

i thot tt i had alr gotten over him, feelings fadedddd... welllsssssssssss... looks like i've to surrender. *white flag*

i guess i do still love him and he has always been a part o me. i cant really explain y oso. it just happens so naturally oso. we were messaging each other and everything just seems so normal to me out of a sudden.

i cant really tell ya but i really dun bear grudges against him anymore. Abt the way he treated me before, the words and things he does to break my heart matter and those slpless night when i cried my eyes out and swallon. Yes. it doesnt matter tt much anymore. Infact, even if there's a third party involved, i will nt blame her. Cuz i knw our problem exist even b4 her existence. She shouldnt b blamed. alrights, y am i sound like our r/s r having a third party. i dunno anywayss it just doesnt matter anymoree.

Butttt, trust and everything gotta b rebuilt agn for sure. i just cannot trust him like the way i do b4. At times i will wonder to myself if he is lying to me. blahhs.. i guess i just needed more time. im scared of committed to him agn. to us agn. cuz i dunno if i can take another blow. buttt... life's short. im just gonna follow wadd my heart says. i knw u peeps wun agree to wadd im dng and some o u might even think im stupid and brainless.

My guts told me tt i wun regret this time. =) trust me yea girls. im so invincible nw tt i can take all hard blow tt comes my way. This is the last chance tt im giving him i told myself. he had enough of chances. i can feel tt the happy girl is back agn. -flashes big grinz- bleahs. i guess this is all part of the stage of life. =)

alrightts, tdy in office daniel gave mi a HUGE surprised. he told mi tt from next week onwards, i will hafta go out w/ him to distribute phamplet kayss!! -BIGG SIGHS- i really werent looking forward to next week thou i initially was. +supa p0utss+ hais. . . shall try it out for 1 week and see how things goes. To think tt i've to get out of my comfort zone and step into other pple's office. i so not willing but im obliged to go becoz he is my BOSS! drenched of work next week. I wan my pay! haa! deprived of cash can. just saw kai's blog and saw her list o stuff tt she wanna buy. gosh* -blink blink- its like hell of loads loh. topshop/pearl thingy/skirts kaos. and the list goes on. -lolx- i oso lehh. i wan go get more shirt.then go out w/ my boss can wear. thou i hate wearg shirt cuz must iron and for christ's sake my mom sux at washg and irong clothings. She spoilt so much o my bro's shirt can. shall stop whing. =X its gonna b a longggg entryy. wahahahaa! cuz daniel is nt in the office and im gonna yakk yakkk yakkkk my time away.

ohh.. jay has new song. its [qi li xiang]. kinda nice. lately got lotsa new songs. gonna post some lyrics later. hasnt been dng tt for quite some times alr. -beamms- okayys. . . alex toh got tis v interesting song. "tuo diao" darn kewl!! "wai tao tuo diao tuo diao shang yi tuo diao tuo diao shang yi tuo diao mian gu tuo diao gui mao tuo diao tuo diao tong tong tuo diao tuo diao "

gees. nice one. has been listening to chinese songs in office so cant blame mi right. kinda like maroon 5- she will be loved. xu hui xin- wo yao wei ni qing qing chang shou ge is sweettt* okayss. tts enough. achem. time check: 3 30 pm. gng home in another 2 hrs. okayys should b shorter right for those who knws tt im knocking off at 5. cuz lilian is leavg w/ me so most likely will wait for her then leave tgt. she is havg her jap lesson tdy. she is my boss's sister. usually she drives butt tdy she din and oh. she is darnn sweett. she brought me all her magazines. wahaha. got herworld/cleo/female/i-mag. woottt! im a happy girl. -heehee- gonna pierce my navel next mth!! but still need to lose some weight.

im dying to go to sg fireworks festival. ANY TAKERS??!! i wan go snap snap at the pwwreetttty fireworks! i bet its gonna b darn magnificient, wells not to forget to mention -CROWDED- butt its understood. still, i wan to go!! wheeeeee' tmr is friday! cant anticipate how happy i feel now. Finally weekend is comingg!! i can sleeeeppp. been hooking on those detective game. thanks to the url tt pei gave mi. its so brain cracking and interesting. just cant get enough o it. wonder if sat date w/ zx is still on or not. im so god-darn broke and i feel paiseh if he has got to pay for mi. hmm.. see loh. if he din mention perhaps im gonna fake ignorant or wadd. haha. badd right. no larr. im not tt kinda person.

oh wells. i wanna watch the village and brotherhood. missed my windstruck. +supa sadd+ its real costly to watch movies nowadays yea? must find someone to support mi liao. i need a suga dadddy. (rich and cute one please)

haha. can give sex. but exchange for the things i wan. ayees tt makes mi sounds a lil' cheapo.

Never Felt Like This Before - Shaznay Lewis

Open, baby, you’ve left me
Open now, I’m shattered
Into a million pieces
Can’t stop looking over my shoulder
Just in case you realise
Just how much you want this

The longer, the sweeter
Baby don’t stop
It’s okay 'cause I’m down for you
Not gonna stop 'till you tell me to
I’m into you like a bad ass tune
Tell me how did this happen?
I’ve never known not what to do, Ooo

Oh, oh, oh

I’ve never felt like this before
Can’t say that you don’t make me hot
I’m wanting some of what you got, babe
I’ve never felt like this before
I’m loving every minute of it, don’t stop
You are all I ever want

Empty, standing where you’ve left me
Cold, boy now I’m frozen
By a kiss from your lips
Your heart tells me that you’re open
Melted by the answer
I’ve been waiting to hear

Now that you’ve told me boy, I can’t stop
In a flash I’m all over you
I couldn’t stop if you told me to
I’m into you like a bad ass tune
Tell me how did this happen?
I’ve never known not what to do

Oh, oh, oh

Can’t hold this down and be cool
Not playing my heart like I ’d like,
I’m feeling you
So I just get down to the truth
Can nobody do, do me baby like you do

Oh, oh

(I’ve never felt like this before)

Can’t say that you don’t make me hot
I’m wanting some of what you got, babe

chinablack `[

2004-07-26T17:15:00.000+08:00

Chinablack ` [

dumdidumpumpdududiiidaaaaa!!
im boredd'!! +p0uts+ stayd at home over the weekends and its sundayy. . .

alrights shall tok abt friday.
zi is back and i met her and jen @ paya lebar platform then we traind dwn to orchard.
walkd over to shaw tower then window shop.
e clothg are like darn ex and i really like the new levis skirt le.
gosh! i've got so much things to buy.
then we proceeded up to lido and settle dwn for dnr.
waited for kai + pei and started our dinner. we had this thai chicken rice meal budden its really not nice. ha! bahhs!1.. we were practically whining as we were eating.
lucky pei she ate her mc. then followed by seek came and joind us.
we crappd/joked/laffd/talkd/ n finally kai. jen and i left for chinablack.

we were alil too early. bleahhsss. . . so we went in pacific plaza and walkd ard 1st.
okayys. i've got to say this.! while we were in the washroom, kai put on her makeup so agressively thou she kept claiming tt it wasnt. -flashes big grins-
if she sees this she is going to kill me.
jen insisted on gng home to change so we taggd along. so we cabbd all the way to her hse @ clementi. holy cow! i simply love her room. it was masterbed room!! she has her own private toliet and there is this v nice starry and moony lighting stuff on the wall. pwwreettty!
as we watchd her changd then we hurryd cabbd dwn to pacific plaza agn.

i wondered wad happend to chinablack. even b4 10 we went in they still charge us 10 bucks.
i mean like, last time oso no have. hais. dun wan go there liao. haha.
i wanna go dbl O!!! -beamms- devils. mambo!! woot!.
alrightss the crowd were v fantastic thou. guessd its still early. we tried all kinda drinks tt nite.
i had graveyard. jen had corana, kai had lychee martini.. kewls''!
then we went upstairs for another round.
the bartender were kinda cute. there were this trainee and wells. really un-pro lohs.
mine went "pop" once, "pop" twice. haha! had 2 shots o tequilar pop. jen took coke. and kai took margarita!! haha. it was a frozen margarita! soo keeewwl rightt`!!
it was v salty. wanna try the sweet one. next time perhaps. -smiles-
then abt 12 we headed to the dance floor and had a fantastic time dancg the nite away.
was quite high after those liquor! i guessd every1 were tired after work so we left abt 1 45.
we walkd over to shaw tower and used the ladies. then we were abt to left for 7-11 to get ourselves a drink, we guo wei in his mc uni. gosh. total turn off pls!. tts! end o story.
so we went over to far east 7-11 took a drink and headed home swt home.
tts my friday nite dude!
couldnt slp when i reachd home. i dunno y but it seems extremely lonesome.
i thot alot abt our past. yes. the sentimental ting is sumhow back agn.
slept at abt 3. . .

next day, wokr up abt 10 30 then received pei's msg to meet her to sign up her advance theory paper. so got draggd outta bed and went to bathe and all tt then met up w/ her. took 25 and its darn freakg longg. should have took bus 87. doesnt matters anywayyss~ went to sign up and left. Got back bedok inter, we went to mc and slackd and for the 1st time i ate mcspicy meal for dunno after how many 27830243 months. kinda missd eatg fastfood. -beamms-
was actuallt meeting ken in de evening, wells... he bookd out kinda late as a result the date was cancelled. i cld actually felt so disappointd for not being able to see him. i guess i hasnt let him go. i still pin for him to return back to my life. so slackd whole dayy and playd wheels o fortune on msn happily.

dont claim tt there's only so much yoo can do. there's still ALOT in which yoo can do its just whether yoo wanna do it or not. Dont keep sayg tt yoo miss me and love me. If yoo really do SHOW ME. im just any ordinary women who wants to b loved and cared. i just want someone to love me like the way tt i do. -cries-

sunday was another slackg day for me. nthing much to say. except tt ken msg me and askd to meet on monday. i couldnt sleep at night again. Hasnt been feeling this way for kinda sometimes. To be frank, how i wish he would just leave mi alone and dont ask me back. If he didnt do that, perhaps i wouldnt b tt painful now. i dreamt a dream tts so blurrish and i cant rmb the moment im awoken. -tt sucks-

am in the office as im updatg this entry. sadd to say, the meet up was cancelled agn. he was being activated back to camp. +sighs+ wadd can i say"? wadd can i do?? i began to believe tt we werent really not meant to be. im sadd. im depressed. the cloud of depression is hanging high above me. -go away go away... - i want to be smiling and holding my head high. we are not gonna be together any more. this is a sign from above tellg me tt. its 5 15pm now. im sulking now and im leaving for home now. badd mondayy. . . hais. nothing good coming my way. y is heaven so unfair towards me>?!?!

confused `[

2004-07-23T12:05:00.000+08:00

confused `[

ayes.. +sadd+ my marketg exams is kinda screwd up. *slaps own forehead- i guess i could have done much better. *sighs* oh wells. Exams are like finally over, Thank God!
PEACE OUT DUDE! am havg the time o my life here. whee'!!

Its fantassticc when e feelgs o exams r overr. . . hasnt been feelg this way for dunno how many 895632324145 zillion yrs. Great! my class peeps are AWESOMEE! +screams+ everybody like so smart, by 4 pm practically every1 were leavg. by the time i finish which is 5 mins before 5 and wads left are like the pathetic 6 o us?! ha! *claps claps* the guy sittg besides mi was freakkingg irritatingg can! thruout the whole 2 darn hrs for him he was practically knockg the darn table. after awhile i'd hear "tot-tot", paused. "tot-tot" and this just continues thruout the exams. ohhh!! wad the hell. so distractg. feel like sllaaaping him. !! +glares*+
neverminds. i am fogiving. Was havg a great tym stoning while yoo sees other just keeps on scribblg + scribblg. Kayys larr, was just tryg to relax and wait for more facts tt i memoried to pop up.!

paid my darn sku fees for the 2nd instalment and hereby im gonna declare to the world tt im offically BROKE!! v v v broke. hais. any easy money option? -smirks- *tink!* alrightss, no more funny ideas. i am alr startg to babber away. jie jie cindy and unker philip flew off to aussie ytd! lucky them! im so dying to GET OUTTA HERE!! wanna go sumwhere. anywhere to calm myself down. Yoga anyone?!

my date ytd w/ kevin turnd out kinda fine. knew it cant b screwd up thou. i mean like, he is easy-going/chatty err.. ayees.. he's nice. =) We'd never ran out o stuff to chat about.
Had a great dnr w/ him @ pastamania. woah! he can really eat mann.!

[menu o the day]

-alfredo spag.(his fav. but nice)
-tuna + bacon spag. ( too dry! eek/ dun really like it)
-meat lovers' pizza (his fav too. i still prefer hawaiian/but it aint tt bad.)
-tiramisu!!! (OUR FAV./ din knew he liked tiramisu too. )
-garlic bread
-lemon tea

okayys. it was almost a feast. i was actually freakg hungry cuz i only had 1 pkg o pathetic noodles in da morng. but who knws, im dead bloatd after finished my tiramisu + my maincourse. +crapps+ its a treat from me to him guess i own the marketg project to him. like he did 70% o the whole assignment?! yeaa. feel kinda bad and i guess he had his revenged larr. or wadeva he called it. wadevaaa`` the total meal sumd up to abt 35 +/- bucks. guess it was kinda worth thou.

So we finally had our empty stomach filled, went to walk around and crappd more. kinda realised tt i hasnt been slackg ard in j8 for kinda long. There were kinda a few changes tt surprised me. then we headed for our movies. Ella Enchanted~ quite kind thou, its actually cinderella modified version. But wad made the story seems even more interestg is she was under a obedience curse tt anyone could put her to do things for them. How she hated the curse/foold ard by her 2 UGLY SISTERS and till how she break the curse by HERSELF in the name of e power of LOVE. -thumbs up!- anyways, i hasnt been catchg movies in the cinema for dunno how many 745415512221 zillions years. -flashes big grins- im a happy girl!

Anyways, i've agreed to go on a date w/ kenneth tmr. jeremy were kinda right in a way. Why should i turn down his invitation. His mum's slippers are still w/ me and i havent got the chance to return it to her. these days, he just kept sms me and reminded me so much of the past. insomia paid me a visit last night. Thou i was darn drained and weary however lotsa thots just tangled on my mind and i cant slp. *sighs* i cld see me being happy agn if i were to go back to him. But how many times do i actually have to go thru all these? i am just so tired. i feel like travellg in a time machine last night, keep comng forth to the present and hence back to the past. hais. im at a loss nw. he said he is gng to woo me agn. but if we ever get back again. would things still b the same? im just too scared to fall again. Just when im startg to b positive and actually think tt. "life is beau-ti-ful" stage, he has to come invade my life agn, then is he gng to create another HUGE HOOO HAAS then leave mi pickg up the broken pieces ALONE AGAIN?! i feel no better than a toy to him. i guess i'll just leave things the way it is now, not gonna make any decisions yet. Let natural take its course then. i had enough of the draing rollarcoaster ride.

"his words are just another big fat lie. . . dont let him lead yoo on agn ting . . ."

shall anticipate and see how the date goes on sat. We'll b headg to suntec fountain. Hopefully he wun make me cry.

i cant wait for chinablack laters. oh yeaa! peizi is back!! yipps! gonna meet tt girl later. miss her tons tons. +hugs+ at times she does make me feel better by just begin herself (lame and crappy ass). im still a happy girl up till this point. -smiles-

okayys. really starvg now. gonna go for lunch after agnes is back and im dying for tt thing!!! its Nokia 7200!! im so freakg gian can! i dun care. gonna change it soon!!... im so loving it. like. so / ting! hahaha. kays. at this point, when clar sees it she is gonna puke. i shall pen off nw. Ciaos!

fuck wad yoo say' it dont mean shit now ` [

2004-07-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

fuck wad yoo say' it dont mean shit now ` [

BLAHSS! hasnt been blogging for really long time.

lemmi see..

[saturday]

i met clarr then we went to order flowa for her beloved wifey sarah. then off we head dwn to ps.

went to collect my pic. okays. i feel as thou im cheated. they blardy gimme one CD and told mi all the pix are inside and they will call mi agn. i mean like. wadd the ~~FUCK!~~

this shall be my 1st and the last. however the pix didnt turn out too fantastic. i could do a even better job w/ my own digi cam. but a few kinda nice. and its only tt few. all my flaws were shown and i thot portfolio is supposed to hide all ur flaws? Ha! neverminds.

bleahs.. so we went to ps. saw some clown functions and thot tt ou de yang was there.

heard those dumb sku girls yellg and screamg like hell.

then we went in and started to walk ard. oh mann.. clarr and i were practically eediots loh.

we were so early so went in search of her lollipop. went in to carrefour and i bought some snacks. the stuff there not too bad. cheap and nice. wahaha. =P

in the end decided to buy her a cake instead. so we paid and left and headed off to breadtalk.

bought her a small cake and we left for action city.

oh mann. it was extremely cooL! we found her lollipop there and walkd around waitg 4 sarah to come. so went around lookg at phones. hmm. wanting to get Nokia 7200 lehhs. -pouts-

Then walkd ard somemore and finally time to get to glasshse. so made our way there and have a delicious and sumptous dinner w/ mike and kai. =) then make my way home, +Alone+

[sunday]

stayd home and muggd for exams. end of story

[monday]

woke up abt 8 45 to make breaky and continue mugging. Got kai's msg and askd to go chinablack on fri. woot! gonna club man. cant wait for friday. haha! bleahs!

then gotta jeremiee and er chang's morning msg. feelg kinda great.

At least, i aint alone? someone does cared. thanks peeps!

bathd/changd and traind dwn to J8. Long + tiring journey.

i was the last candidates can. Number 33. haha almost couldnt find my seats.

I think im really freakg out. i forgot to bring pencil and my IC.

however, lucky pencil not needed, so just walkd stri8 to the front to get my IC

then when the dumb examiner was abt to take my attendance and saw my name, she said sumthing so lame tt i din expect to hear.

examiner: "eh, xie ting ting.. xie ting feng de mei mei right?"

me: "heehee! not related larr."

-laffed and walkd away.-

oh pls loh. neverminds. blahhs! kinda cool cuz i managed to understand most of the questions.

aiming for a B. hopefully i'll get it. and yea. after exams, kevin gave me my management assignment and i got a B+! oh hurrrey!! damn happy. really cheered up my entire day.

Afterwhich, jie jie cindy sent me home and had a gd rest.

Now here i am in office. thursday havg marketing exams. Gonna skip the extra lessons later. darn lazy to travel to J8. v v tirg. planned to go home study on my own.

lately he has been msging me. i mean like. nice gesture and all that. However, i realised tt eerything came a lil too late. Noon, he mms our photo. The one which he treasured alot. i guess, its all memories now. Nothing much left to say. We are over. He even askd me to go out w/ him.

how can i behave as thou nthing has happened and go out on a happy date w/ him?

Anyone but him. i din reply him. But guess he roughly knw the reason why.

i dont wanna drag anymore. its painful. till tdy the wound still hurts.

++my kenneth is dead and is never gonna come back.++

bought a birthday card for his bro and sendg it later. tdy is his bro's 22nd bday and jen's 20th bday!!

Cheers to both bday girl + boy.

Happy 22nd birthday Oliver De Souza!

Happy 20th birthday Jennifer Ting!

mis sing yo oo oo oo`[

2004-07-16T14:58:00.000+08:00

mis sing yo oo oo oo`[

Wad a wonderful friday..

daniel has gone for a holidays in Hong Kong w/ his beloved lawyer wifey.

off on mom and thurs cuz its exams period.

Kinda slackd' now.

ytd had another weird dreams.

dreamt of jeremiee..

dreamt of him callg me on my phone and i forgot wad we chat abt.

its so blurrish.

anicipating. gosh lemmi off.

i think of dream catcher..

was feelg rather exhausted lately.

just nw during lunch time auntie christina text-ed mi.

askg mi how am i and askd to keep in touch.

the memoirs o us keeps on replayg on my mind.

like a ghost keeps on hauntg me.

wadeva tt happens, my heart would feel the ache/pain and i will start to question why.

wad did i do wrong?

what have i nt done?

my love for him nt enough?

am i nt good enough?

why did he treat mi like tt?

sighs*

i guess i'll nvr knw/understand why.

getting higgerly-priggerly nw.

get mi outta this fix.

wells.. this hasnt bring mi dwn yet.

i do still believe alot in [[l.o.v.e]]

im still in search of my princey charming.

i still smiled and thankd god tt he did it in the name o love,

he was tryg to protect me to warn mi that he isnt the right guy for me.

i dont deny tt i do still miss him and he is always on my mind.

everylil thing tt i see/hear/do will just get reminded of ~~((us))~~

i could nvr forget wad made me sobbd till my eyes swallon.

tt v fateful night when he told mi tt he no longer sees any future in us anymore.

my heart died.

right on the spot.

i died and rose agn the next day.

i forbidded myself to cry eversince 4th o july.

tt night was the last time i ever cry for ~~((us))~~

and forever it shall be. i will nt shed a single tear for ~~((us))~~ anymore.

He has moved on long w/o me. leaving me pickg up all the broken pieces all alone.

Now i've moved on. but/ i do still carry him in my heart.

he will always have a special plc there.

can yoo fix this alr broken/crushed <3

wells. life been pretty nice to me lately.

i've been busy w/ work/sku/exams/dates -beamms-

ha! im getting better each day. =)

I've learnt tt promise is a lie and forever dont exist.

i believe i've playd fair on my part and mean wad i say.

i really thot he was my 1st and the last and this just got to happen.

blahhs. still im thankful tt i was once blessed and truly loved by someone special. =)

tts the greatest gift i ever had. thanks.

those special moment tt keeps on replayg are memoirs which no one can steal/hide/keep from yoo.

i believe tt if we were truly meant to be despite 10 yrs dwn the road we will still b tgt eventually.

meanwhile im just gonna have some fun and enjoy the time of my life.

cherish/treasure everyone tt i have w/ me.

live each day as if its the last.(but i dun tink so larrs)

haha. if i knew im dying tmr i will have lotsa sex/drugs/shop/piercing/tattoo. everything!

tts IF.

from the look of it seems pretty impossible ayess?

bleahhss... knock some sense into me.

tmr gonna collect the pix. woo.. so excited can. haha

clarr is comg w/ me and i'll bring her to check out the cute photographer..!

th0ughts:: ` [

2004-07-14T20:13:00.000+08:00

getting alil sentimental*

i wish for world peace` [

yuupiiee!! using my not so new lappie nw!! haha. so cool! thou feels alil weird but still COOL!! haha.

a slight recap on what i did ytd.

ytd i received news in office sayg tt joan is quitting.
actually she alr told mi on monday while i met her in the lift.
Quite surprised tt she is leavg so soon. Sumhow sumwad i always feel tt one shldnt always look at one's faulty side. Therefore wheneva things dont turn out so well for mi and her i always told myself not to take it to heart. Try lookg at her positive point. I guess it did helped alot. kinda in a way. =)
went lunch w/ lilian and really enjoyed toking to tt girl.
she's a happy-go-lucky typical yet not-simple girl. blahhs!! wad am i blabbering abt.

knocked off went hme to change and head dwn to town for 3 hrs long of ktv @ partyworld.!! met up w/ kai/pei/qy.
had a great tym bitchg/screamg/groovg/laffg/crappg and the usual stuff tt we usually do. it was really unwinding for all i guess. sumhow, deep inside im yearng for more. hahahaha!!

tdy was a rather simple and peaceful day. managed to get an appt on next week, can slack abit. heard from irene tt joan didnt really resign. It was actually her whon wanted joan to leave in the 1st plc. She gave her 2 choices.
1) resign and leave on her own accord
2) she sack her.

Her call. i think being the ever so ai mian zi de joan, obviously she doesnt want us to knw tt she is kena sack. wadeva. oso cannot b bothered abt her. But i really cannot tahan her attitude or wad so eva character of hers. How abt tt. Can she go do some self evaluatg on herself and think b4 she opens her mouth? i guess tt will help her alot in future. She's just too secretive and boastful. She speaks like she knws everything and all. She sounds so pro and skills. But the actual fact is tt she cannot perform! This is the pure FACT! but of cuz there is still some good points yoo can learn from her. No1 is absolutely bad. She is quite approachable. She will familiarise w/ e wrkg environment and make sure tt she is comfy to work in. She takes the effort to get to knw pple more. Yeah.. regardless what, like i told agnes tt, as a frd/colleague i believe tt i've done my part for her. Still. i wish her all the best in her new premises. Just change the attitude and she will b very much appreciated by anyone. =)

hais. enough abt her. She is soon to be a history. Tdy met an incident i think its quite worth ponderg over. On my way back frm interchange, there is this sorta "retarded guy" came and approached me. He called and walkd towards my direction and hold my hand! YES TT BLARDY MORON HOLDDD MY HANDDDD!! *cries* eversince -him- no one holds my hand.. then i tried shrugged it off. then he ask mi where to take bus. he showed mi an address and ask mi for bus direction. i explained n he doesnt seem to understand so i told him i will bring him there. Then tt blardy moron starts HOLDING MY HAND again can.! i got a shocked loh. scared the hell outta mi. Y this fella keeps on holdg my hand like im his gf. then he told mi he got no money and wads left i gave all to him which was 4 bucks. BEST PART:: he happily took the money and WALK away.. i didnt get the money back from him and i quickly walkd home.

As i was walkg home i was pondering. i reckon tt he is a cheater who is just out to cheat money. BUT question! Y TT FUCKER HOLD MY HAND? i wasnt even bothered abt tt 4 bucks can. hais. BUT Y HE HOLDS MY HAND. ugly thing! was so terribly upset. now im beginning to realise tt when yoo are down on ur luck anything/everything just come crushing down on yoo at the same time. Have mercy on me pls. im just a girl who has just fallen outta love and in process of healing and in the search of her princey charming. sighs* he cheated my sypamthy on him, still come touch mi. BASTARD! and guys can b so unfeelg and insensitive. i was msging jeremiee tt chap the whole day. i text-ed him 3 full pg and he return my text w/ 2 lines. dont even sound comfortg to me. bleahs! yoo chick-arse. neverminds. shall have a good slp tonight.

i ask myself at tis point of time, is there a possiblity tt i've fallen for someone new? which means im in love agn??? Somehow, im too scared to meddle w/ this thing called l.o.v.e. so scared tt i will get hurt again and hurt others at the same time. singlehood is good larr. but when ur frds are all attached then it may seem alil boredd? i donnt knw. oh yes, my pisco are ready for collection. hmm.. clar/pei free to go collect w/ me? haha. show yoo my sexy/cooll bung photographer. -beams-

alrights. gonna hit the books now. take care peepso..
tag mi if yoo read this entry!!!! do mi this favour please guys.
love yoooo all..!! +muacks muacks+

dreams ` [

2004-07-12T10:04:00.000+08:00

dreams ` [

had a weird + funny dreams last night.

i dreamt tt i was gng back to btss to get my Os results. then i went back and i sat w/ my class 4E3. haha! i saw everyone.. chun qiang, bear bear, boon siang, ee ling, nurkiah, edlinda, xin ling and lingli and my clique i think. saw every1 wearing home clothes instead of sku-u can. so cool. then i dunno y i sat beside chun qiang then started playg w/ his md/phone cannot rmb lars. ha! then we gotta moved abt up and down in order to take our results.

i saw ee ling w/ erm.. a mini tube and showing half of her breast or rather nipple out? and oso justin!! haha. both of them like wearing the same minis tube but sumhow eeling's one like damn funny leh. bahhs! =X

out of a sudden, i got hugged by dunno who, cannot rmb then dunno wad happen im in the forest/jungle wad yoo called the jap sku. then i saw lingli. we went to the canteen. so dunno y i think i left sumthing outside, so i asked her to wait for mi i go get it. then i was running in the rain. run run run and run. i was.. erm.. naked? bleahs! -blushes- yes. im naked. then dunno y i wasnt feelg shy or what. just cant wait to meet up w/ lingli and go home? haha.. then when i reached the canteen saw lotsa jap stoodents and all. then i cannot rmb anymore. weird ayes? hehe! gosh*

im naked! haha. running in the rain. does it implying tt im running away from sumthing? hmms.. *ponders* i wonder what it is. Or is the dreams trying to tell mi sumthing? like, dont run away from probs? but i thot everything is resolved? i dont really have any probs bugging the hell outta mi anymore? im happier this way.

Chatted w/ him ytd over msn. Glad to hear tt he is leading fine. w/o me. Glad to knw tt i dont feel so much for him anymore. Glad tt insomnia din pay mi a visit last night. Im still able to catch some slp at abt 12. thou i still miss him.. however, it was all in my memory. Those were definately the best time of my life. Wells... things will never be the same again.

||*][ruo wo zai jian ni, wo hui wei xiao, xie xie ni, xie xie ni, wo chan guo ai de hao//--

came acrossing while readg this email and find it rather interesting so yea decided to share w/ yoo peeps.

_EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE: .........
- One old love she can imagine going back to and one who reminds her how far she has come... [true`]
- Enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to [true`]
- Something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour [ tts y women nvr gets contented w/ their wardrobe`]
- A piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...[ ayess`?]
- Eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honoured. [recipes will do larrs!`]
- A CV that is not even the slightest bit padded... [bra!?`]
- A feeling of control over her destiny... [absolutely`]

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.......
- How to fall in love without losing herself. [yes! couldnt agree more`]
- How to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.[*nods* totally!`]
- When to try harder........ and and when to walk away...[hells yes!`]
- How to have a good time at a party she'd never choose to attend... [proberly`?]
- How to ask for what she wants in a way that makes it most likely she'll get it... [hells yea man!`]
- That she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips,or the nature of her parents... [nods* in agreement`]
- That her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...[am contented w/ mine`]
- What she would and wouldn't do for love or more... [i'd do anything and everything in the name of love. -beams-`]
- How to live alone..... even if she doesn't like it... [yes! adapting!.`]
- Whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally... [i've good pr-grins-`]
- Whhere to go...be it to her best friend's kitchen table.....or a charming inn in the woods...when her soul needs soothing... [tt gotta b the beach or pub/bar wadeva`]
- What she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month... and a year.....[tts alots..`]

interesting yea. i guess im still learning.. ha! dont worry peeps. im better off w/o him!.

im good im good without yoo

sunday` [

2004-07-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

sunday`[

ayes.. hmms.. coming to 7. slacked at home the wholeee day! was happily watching t-vvvv.. i swear tt i would die w/o watching tv everyday! ha! bleahhs!

i've got real lotsa crazy ideas on my mind right now.

-get my navel piercing*
-cut/style my hair
-dye my hair
-slim down pls.(easy method anyone?)
-get a temp. tattoo*
-go mambo every wed*(seriously, needa club)
-travel to paris++*
-take up photographing*
-meet up w/ my attitudez clique? miss em tons?

alrightss.. basically ayeee..i've listed down. how many i can fulfilled ima not really sure of. perhaps none? haiss. how screwed up can life get. i swear im at the lowest peak right now. blardy moody lately. exmas coming. -sighs*-

later 7 got nfk charity show. but 7 30 got home alone 3 @ ch 5 and i wanna watch tt. im getting indecisive again.

i realised tt i've this real bad character or habit or wad wadeva yoo called it is. Say, i've decided to go cut my hair, then again, my friend said " hey ting! dont larr. u looked good this way. dont go." this sway my decision. But then again, i thot i've alr decided? then y am i thinking again whether to go cut or not? hais. how? i hate this kinda situation where im neither here nor there tt kinda feelgs. like, wadeva yoo do oso dont seem right at all? or all along i've been taking too hard on pple's comments on me and its abt time i frigging fuck care all of them and lead my own life? the way tt i wanna be? hmms... its really worth pondering over.. has i been living in the shadow of someone for all of my 19 yrs life tt is coming to 20? hais! i dont wanna know...

oopies.. its 7. coming back to blog more laters... ciao!

Nearly 10.00p.m.

BLAHHS! oh gosh! home alone 3 is just way too cool can!! Alex is sucha lil cutie!! haha. I think home alone 3 is as nice as 1. At least the story plot is there and everything. Kinda hate the siblings. feel like slapping em. haha! Dont yoo just admired his intelligence? He looks like only around 4/5 yrs old? i can just say tt he is darn good w/ toys and stuff. haha! it was a real shame for the darn 4 robbery. Wells.. then again, show will always be show. Dont talk abt kids, even if i were to b in tt kinda circumstances, i think i will b petricfied. bleahs!.

was watching the nkf show oso. Ayees.. as usual i din donate, not becuz im hard-hearted or heartless, i too wanted to help those helpless family and all. However, just werent sure wad they do w/ the money. i do not mind dng volunteering work but hais. neverminds. it is all a waste of time. Inspite of all those 5 digits prices tt they could afford to give, how abt they just donate everything out instead of having all those hassle of those celebrities performing. Wells.. i think the fann and chen han wei one is rather nice!! =) kinda dreamy and lomantic sort. geeesh!! TAY PING HUI!!!!!!!!!!1 he's darn cool man! he's stunt is damn cool too. din knew tt he could ride a bike. manzz... haha. i wanna sit on a bike!!!!

ahhs!! tmr's monday! another start of a week. Kailun is starting work tmr. all the best to yoo girl! ((huggles)) gees.. no lessons for mi the entire week. its study week! hais. kinda uptight abt my exams. hopefully im able to pass! .

feel like having the cheesy cheese fries now! wondering whether is kor buying back for mi or not! +pouts+ Looking at those helpless child, im beginning to feel contented abt myself. ha! if i were to have such a special child, i wonder.. wonder wonder.. wad would i do? will i b able to fulfill the duty of a mother/wifey/daughter/daughter-in-law?

bahhs!! i ponder...